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Sunday, July 17, 2011 1:04 PM

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Today caught me thinking how lucky am I to have my man always with me..

Because the other day when i went out alone.. i suddenly felt - fear, like how I used to when I just got my car after high school.

Yes obviously its freedom but somewhat scared to be out alone all by yourself..

Didn't felt the fear anymore during foundation.. but jst recently the fear came back all the way because i'm so used to being accompanied by him always.

So used to depending on my boy all the time, hehe..

Just a secret to share..

Yesterday i got lost in a car park!! and the car park was really empty!!!

Thank god i found a guard :P

Actually thursday I went down from the hospital carpark.. it was locked.. more shocking =.=

and when i went down to the carpark my car was all alone dere.. double fear ! D:

But, its okay~ I survived the fear..

No wonder people say don't be alone in car parks; dangerous.. yes because it is NOT guarded and the lights are really not as BRIGHT.. and it is QUIET....

I still remember how safe i felt the other time when the carpark was locked; but I was with MouMou...

Yes; too dependent nowadays :P

Even getting lost; one call to baby and he'll bring me back to where I'm supposed to :P

I guess last time i was really really independent !

I MUST know every way; even when i'm lost I had to figure my way out...

even with "someone" beside me

Not that i always have anyone with me last time haha

Thinking back,

I've given my ex the top priority last time..

I told myself

If he knows his mistake

If he apologizes

and if he would make something (that i could physically touch) even with not much effort

I would accept him all over again

and I waited.

for a week

for another week to past...

and for more weeks...

Unreasonable reasons always comes out from him..

"busy"

If it is so busy then we shouldn't be together at all...

Then you would have more time to yourself right?

Now to think of him; I am glad he didn't take any action to get me back

So freaking glad actually

Because I've found my happiness and the one I love dearly now..

If I took my ex back i think i would be regretting all the way..

Because i doubt he would change for - forever.

Just a simple reminder for every guys out there

Gf is a commitment ( lifetime )

they are not just "for fun"

and there for the "good times"

9 months and waiting for 1 year.

Darling, i realize how my life is attached to yours and it is so hard to be away from you.

Would miss you every time and every second.. =]

You know in Macau i text my baby for 5~6 times a day..

and intervals i talk to him on MSN

yet when I come back he wasn't so very happy with the lack of attention i gave him throughout 3 days :P

Baby, you should be grateful over the very much attention i gave you from far far away you know?

Because last time i barely had half of these much attention!! :)

and when I complained over the lack of attention i never even get anything in return =)

So sorry to say that I've never regretted breaking up with my ex boyfriend which i deemed he never actually knew what love is at all.

& I doubt he actually loved me before?

Because in love you'll never want to leave one another but for him so to speak, he can never wait to leave me and have his own life.

Hey, I would also like to thank you for everything.

An unforgettable experience in my life

which i never want to go through again

& never want to bring it back anymore

& never want to be reminded.

and which i regret so ever badly that it brings nightmare in my sweet dreams late at night.

Thanks :)