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As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . .
I will always keep falling in love with you.
Karen Clodfelder-

4 periods of chemistry is horrible.
A bunch of homework is way worst.
Why is school so torturing?? WHY????????????

The homework list just never grows any shorter does it?
I am so sick of school, sometimes i just felt like never to return to school anymore until SPM. Seriously this whole thing is killing me.

My Bio tuition was canceled. dunno wad is wrong with Mr.L =.="
I am not learning in school instead i think i am wasting my time. omg.

I'll go finish up some work and brighten my dull blog with some jokes later~ see ya!

Editted,
I accidentally scratched my face when i was sleeping today & when i woke up i saw a long line on my face ! i have no idea. damit. I feel so tired that i just wanted to drop down.. Tmr NS list SHOULD be out, and yes i am freaking out already. I wanted to finish A fairytale Made nightmare but i have no time. I don't understand one shit in Earth as a Sphere ! i think i am going sphere learning it.

Gawd isn't everything in life just pathetic ?

You know i am suddenly being emo with the "i will never be with you thought?"
I dunno la, i only know you are very important to me i will never want to lose you !
But i know i will not say it out ! yes i am such a coward, but hey i am still a girl !
You are so hard to predict okay, I know you very well but i dunno how you feel about me! i mean i think i know but i don't think i know~ Ugh! you just won't understand. I have been hiding this feeling for so long la, now it just suddenly urges out when i don't want it to. shits.
Maybe i am just being stupid for whatever reason there is.
"plucks petals"

Yeah i promised a joke so here it is,

Eve : Jaya, can i kick your butt? =P
Jaya : No!
Eve : Oh yea, somebody need to leave her butt for the bf to kick ryte?
Jaya : hahahaahaha, my bf won't kick my butt la!
Eve : True also he will only squeeze yr butt kan? *burst out in laughter*
Jaya : EVELYN!!! ewwwwww~~

stupid conversation. LOLs.

*Hearts*

I finally took up all my energy to seperate and clean my notes, which Hao claims tht it is useless because i should leave it flying around & studying will be better like that O.o?

OhLord what did i do in past life to deserve this? Chem 4 periods tmr again. AGAIN. YES AGAIN mark the words of A.G.A.I.N. Thank God i finished her stupid things yesterday, ugh if not i will have to sit thru the nite. Mr Cheah, thanks alot la yah, have to la ryte give off 80 minutes away like that !! Own Syllabus also havent finish! Even if finish, cannot do revision ah! HA!!!!!! eiiiiiiiiiii. i feel like killing ppl edy

My gawd la seriously sometimes the teachers really unreasonable one lah! you finish work nicely & hand up earliest also they minus yr formative marks ! Like that also not satisfied? what else you want la! HAR!!!!!! wtf la okay. summore cannot give me a reason to minus my marks !!!!!!! shit everything okay, i know la you have alot of students but can minimize on minusing our marks anot? maybe i wanna go for January intake hor? EiiyeerrRRrrrr! WTF is wrong with that blardy school laaa!!!!! formative for trials very stress you know, when i take a knife and go to school start killing ppl you all know why la!

WHY hao's school life so fun der! why my school life like shit one? WHY must i come SA WHY cannot go seafield or DJ or somewhere good and not so torturing. Seriously, not to say i am bad mouthing or wtv la but i think SA is a literally "wanabe" good school, but in reality it isnt because this thing is driving their students crazy. Honestly la cluster my foot.

Eysh, stress till i wanna die.

Ps : Joycie your corals & shells from club med are still with me i kept forgetting to give you, remind me if you anyhhow read this.
Pps : i wanna boycott school. fck.
Ppps: yes twin bro, i hate school too & we do have many things unsimilar yet similar thats the reason of us being twins. I still want max.
Pppps: 3 more months and i am kissing SA goodbye once and for all ! I wonder how my sis stands this shit~

Editted,
Oh did i mentioned that i sprained my leg again on Friday, and today i finally had the time to see doctor i was told that... it was slightly dislocated. =.=" Amazing kan?
Btw Joyce pls take care of yr hand!!! already no part of yr flesh is in good condition now palm also like that which boy would wanna hold ur hands next time ? AND don't touch your dog with yr hands like that you'll get infected in NO TIME. see ya on Fri. Loves ~~ (raining you love now, dun say never give you! )
Chiaoz~!

28th July 2008 Marks the day of my sec sis's b'day!

So,
Happy (?th) B'day Yap Adeline ~~!!
(28Th July 198*) xD
*quickly tie a knot with erhm erhm la!!!dun go saying "i dunno wad relation i have with him la"!*

We played with Mister Skele during EST lessons, and during bio we played buttons, during English we were buying canned carbonated drinks And during BM we were busy planning Sheren's future ( her seven kids, between 1 ~ 7 year old Oh Lord a hardworking factory! =P)

To think of it i have got EST homework, addmath hmw, math hmw. Crap i'd better get going.

PS : Pn Chris you did a very nice demonstration on lock jaw today hahaha!!
PPS : i'll upload ange & ade's b'day photos soon la. Blogger is a bugger. -.-!!
PPPS : Twin, i am going to rob MAX!!! i want him. aww so adorable. *criesoutloud* hope he bites you more mwahhaha!

Hearts*

What will it be like to not see everyone i see daily ?

Sigh, i can't help but think how much i missed KT. When i passed the school i was reminiscing the great times i had there. 5 Years since i've left it. 5 long years.... 5 very very long years...

What would it be like when i leave SA? will the same thing happen? will i drift away from all my friends? Will i not be able to keep up with all of their lives? I don't even want to think about it.
Days without Pn Loo throwing plasticine at people, days without Pn Yong calling "EVELYN! have yr class done their duty" just because i used to be the ketua kelas, days without Pn Hoh nagging us, days without Pn Leow giving us chocolate, days without Pn Laila allowing us to eat in the bilik guru, days without pn chris to bringing you to the comp lab and counting "EVELYN 1,2..." days without Cik Foo coming up with her whistle, days without bullying Mr Cheah " ya la Italy never win coz they wear white jersey, it is true" (pro ryte his statement?), days without Mr Hulam telling you GoodRaining when you greet him GoodMorning. sigh. It'll be sad won't it?

Sad yet happy. Happy because i'll finally be leaving the place i never wanted to enter in the first place. Now and then i always wonder what would i be like if i were in Tmn Sea or Assunta?

'deep in thoughts'

Okay so today was Hari QM,

From left Laksh, twin bro, me

PS : black qm shirt looks way nicer. SA-ians looks like walking oranges =X

I was literally falling @ this pic! LOLs unstable sprain leg. =.="

three dots : great day!

Announcements

1) zomg. tht idiot lady wanna make us miss FRIM trip. *toooooooot*
2) I have a twin bro! Diff gender,age, and race ! hahas.
3)Tmr Hari QM.
4) Today prefects getting install & uninstall~ so grats sara, your prefect program had been officially UNINSTALLED. =D
5)I have alot of hmw
6) stupid ppl ditched me at tuition today, lucky got mayshin T_T
7)I need to start studying, which is something i am not doing lately.
8) Everyone's hands seem to be stained by that stupid chem experiment & IT IS UNREMOVABLE. I actually finished my sis nail polish remover by trying to remove it on my hands =X
9) Tq laksh for tht touching post.
10) I sprained my leg again. Laksh pulled me with her full strength hurting my leg more, on top of it chan have to STEP on my leg. I think its broken. =X

BANG! =D

Yesterday i was soooooo mad about everything i came back and babbled everything to my sis which she refer herself as my "last resort" -.-

Today was a way better day although she took over MR HULAM'S CLASS!!!!!!! 2 periods of chem! pffffffffffft. thank god there was experiments to do, or not i would have fallen into slumber as soon as she entered class.

Yesterdays joke,

Laksh : Evelyn! i am going to throw your things outside the window EDY! your watch ah i dun care swatch or crotch ah!
Ling Shin : WHT?!?
Laksh : I SAY I DUN CARE SWATCH OR CROTCH I"LL THROW IT OUT THE WINDOW! OPS.
Eve : hahahahaa.
Laksh : You ppl so blue minded oni will think such things okay! i was simply saying -.-"
Eve: points at ling shin being blue minded.
Ling Shin : EH, wht me? look look dunno who gave me a 'something' when she got back from holiday!
Eve : Eh! THATS NOT A CROTCH OKAY! ITS A PENIS! ohmygawd i did not.. =X
Laksh : YOU WHT?!?! penis?!?!?
Eve : yah its jst some rubber toy, really cute and unique i bought for her early this year hahaha.
Ling Shin : yah yah so you remembered!
Jess : why are you guys talking about PENIS?!?!

*all of us* : HAHAHAHAHA!

i told my sis abt pn loo comments on her own eyes and my sister actually said, yeah a very good way to describe her! LOL-ness!!

Oh yes before i forget, Ivan got free tickets to Astro Singing competition who wants it go ask from him or tell me!! =D Btw Ash the sky isnt always blue! =P

Ps: "I dreamt that i was lying on your shoulders i felt like the happiest girl that moment how i wish it was reality" i'll love you always.

UGH! today in school i was so freaking pissed off with my chem teacher!!!!!!!!!

Okay i know so many teachers are stalking my blog but this wont make me stop cursing or blogging about other teachers because i trust you all will keep it a secret. =D

Okay you see, I was sitting in between Laksh and Jess in chem lab, these dua orang started la babbling abt how boring it is etc etc, coincidentally 'she' saw Laksh talking and scolded her, after that she accused me for talking with laksh. So i just told her "teacher i wasnt talking." She continue saying i was lying, so i got kinda angry i just told her in bm i say "CIKGU SAYA TAK CAKAP LA" just in a higher tune not even like screaming or whtsoever, she said i was rude. WTF? den she say even if i never talk i should say sorry for talking! den she say i never learn moral! den she ask me to sit in front, so i agreed, when i stand up & again she said i was rude blablabla and ask me to get out of class, say wan call my mum etc etc. seriously wtf is her problem? I wanted to storm out of class if they all hadn't stop me! its as if she can teach SO WELL! seriously nobody thought her if she respects the student den its reciprocal ah? Summore not the first time! yesterday was worst Mina and Nabila was talking when she was scolding dem i was tying my hair coz it was all over my face, and she scolded me for tying my hair! Eh! reasonable ah? ppl tie hair in class also u got problem izit? so i look like ghost oni u happy?

UGH! every teacher in school know's i am never rude la! for goodness sake whts her blardy problem wan pms means go far far lar! oni u can pms u think i cannot! -.-"

Anyways, early this morning in school edy i started to break down! i started crying over 2 marks for english. UGH! come on la wht do they want from us, dun hand in work minus marks hand in work minus marks!!!!! i am so irritated with the formative marks! I SICK ALSO HAVE TO GO DO HMW! and end up they still minus marks ! i am so fcking stressed up with this whole thing. You hand in work they minus marks, you dun hand in they minus. This one say not enuf that on say not enuf. WHT IS THEIR PROBLEMMMMMMMMMM!!!!!!! EIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!!!!! STRESSED!

morning edy enuf stress afternoon lagi stress because of tht lady!!!! -.-"
I can't wait till 4 mths is over den i can officially SAY BYE TO SA! i am never going back!!!!!!!! even if i wanna see the teachers i think i should invite dem OUT OF SCHOOL. I am seriously hating tht school right now.

ps: I AM STILL SICK!

The sick-ing month
Ohmigosh, you should count the amount of ppl that are getting sick in my class...

Special thanks to my dadi. Go buy durian yesterday make my cough even worst T____T see le, know i like durian, know i soar throat summore can go buy to tempt me!

This morning wake up my throat was so soar!! and i coughed thru the whole dam day. Shhheeesssh~! sickening.

HOMEWORK HOMEWORK HOMEWORK... shit. all i know is HMW now. SO BLARDY SICKENING!!!

Eiiii~~~~ just now went to check kaki lor, doc ask me dun walk so much T_T how to not walk leh need to go lab etc etc. Sigh~

Hao : Ask you friend to carry you la.
Eve : Orh, you come carry me around la, be my walking/talking wheelchair :D

HAHAHAHAHA, hao you really should come carry me so my leg can heal faster =)

Awesome, i should now go and revise my hmw LIST and start doing it. I sound like a nerd? oh yes i so do~ be in my school and you'll know why. Stress.

Neuclear energy SHOULD NOT BE USED BECAUSE IT IS HARMFUL TO HUMAN BEINGS!
THE PERCENTAGE OF CANCER PATIENT IS INCREASING!!! THINK ppl! THINK!

So many gossips going around school nowadays & trust me its spreading.Not a good sign.
School as usual was mere boring. I finally finished Vince and Joy and yeah Sher it was a good book i wished the writer would continue part 2 T_T it'll be awesome to see how they raise their own kids. A very great book indeed but i learnt alot of bad words from it. =P Am starting a new book now "can you keep a secret."

I have to keep reminding myself that i am not tired because my body felt so so so weak that i just wanted to drop down and never want to wake. Sounds familiar? yeah wayne's motto! -.-"
I have so many hmw's to finish, formative is bugging me. The whole part about SPM's near bugs be just as much. Heck! you can start counting the days. I am panicking yet i am so laid back. Ugh! Frustrated.

Quoted "I am so tired of plucking petals asking if you love me or not, because now i am not even sure if i still love you."

I never wanted to part with you,
I love you many many,
Words cannot describe how i feel abt you,
You brighten up my miserable days,
You're like my teddy bear in the night,
& my best bud in the morning,
You wipe away all my tears,
You bring joy in my life,
You were always you,
Kind,Loving,Peaceful, & very Caring........

"I Love You"

PS: time to take the express train and see where i will end up.

Mids of July.
Closer to death. I am not working normally.
I am being so lazy.

Sigh,
Do you know i love you?
I dare not say these 3 words to you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
Can't you tell?
I know you know. I know you do. I know it!
It is so wrong to fall in love with you in the first place.
I tried so hard not to think, i tried but i failed.
Everyday ; everynite it's like you are here for me.
I talk about you, i think about you, everything i do has soemthing to do with you.
I don't know if it's love. But i think it is. And i think i want it to be too.
Yet i know it is something that will not happen..
It will take a miracle for it to happen.
My heart was shattered so many times, yet i think you will be the one that put the puzzles back.
I want to have a future with you. I really do...

okay, forget about wht i just typed it was all crap. so crappy. sooo sooo sooo crappy.

The tkd class on wednesday, i only can watch and take attendance how sad. T___T "woodpeckernose" hahas
The drugs i have to take daily till i am cured. T__________T

Sneezes before i fall sick. Okay it might be a yawn =X i forgot wht it was la.
Ewwwww, electrochemistry. LOLs
SHARMIR'S BALD HAIR!! =O



Ling Shin and her ganas-ness =D

I am currently working on a story called Fairytale Made Nightmare.
Got too bored and wanted to write and i got bored of writing so now its at a very broken state T_T

http://fairytalenitemare.blogspot.com/

Can view the bits of the story here le. Tell me if there is any corrections because i never bother to check.

I no longer have fever but i am starting to cough now. Dam-it.
Hate getting sick because it is so uncomfortable. Boo hoo.
And it looks like virus/bacteria nowadays can travel via msn because it seems hao started sneezing and he has soar throat. LOL

I think those bunch of ppl in my tuition are trying a lil too hard to impress ppl by wearing their boxers/suspenders in the outside. LOL. Such an eyesoar... They think its so freaking cool but its so not ! disgusting bunch of ppl. Besides that they also put paper clips on their pants making it more "colourful". Not forgetting they bring caps to wear IN TUITION & they share it. Ewwweth.

Oh yes, did i mention Sharmir bald his hair. I'll upload pictures and crimes later when i feel less lazy =P coz currently my phone is FAR FAR away.

Darly i am soooo sooo soooo sorry that i forgot to wish you on your birthday!! T_T i am such a bad friend..

Anyways,

Happy Belated 18th Birthday Daryl Chong Yi Rong ! <3
(16th July 1990)
You are 18 now legal to drink,smoke, & do everything bad. But yeah don't you ever do it because i will murder you! =D

And i am sooo soorrryy i shud have kept in touch with you, so many things happened in your life yet i dunno! A thousands of apologies.. T_T

& hey, take care of your mum okay? make sure you are by her side all the time because chemo isn't a very easy thing... and she will recover de dun worry so much okay~ I'm always here if you need anyone to talk to. Although i am not always at msn or wadsoever but still i am here for you. <3
One more time, i am really sorry...

I am having fever. 38.1 Degree Celcius.
T____________T
my head feels like its exploding although i already sleep for 15 hours.

I'll update later when i feel better. Sob

I'm back from tuition and i am officially sick after a few sneezes.
My nose is currently running like an unclosable tap water.
My voice is like a man's voice.
I am having terrible headache.
And i have so much homework.
I want to sleep and i need to do Homework...
Who can teach me how to do hmw when you are sleeping? I think i really gots to learn tht technique !

AND I THOUGHT I'VE DONE IT ALL FOR PHYSICS. But she still put

"NOT ENOUGH"

"life's a disaster". Quoted by myself.

AHA! i am back from school.
Oh lord, why is internet being such a pain?

I officially failed/screwed/koyak-ed my exam today. =D
And i was pms-ing all the way...
Because i had not enuf sleep and i went to exam oni reading from chap 1 ~ 9 Form 4 and 1 ~ 2 Form 5!
OH guess wad, it is useless! PURELY USELESS, because every question inside is so complicated where they twist here and dere. There was one awesome eqn feel free to view;

i) CH3COOCH2CH2CH(CH3)2 + H2O ---> P + Q
ii) CH3COOCH2CH2CH(CH3)2 + NaOH ---> R + (CH3)2CHCH2CH2OH

Like wtf.....
In conclusion i screw the exam part.

I am emo-ing today over some shits & I have to attend tuition like now. So i will try upload the criminals i did yesterday. See ya! <3

Ps : the only person that will not be mad at me, run away from me, love me all the time, hears about mylife, be my walking diary, let me scribble on it, & keeps me entertained is.... My Blog. So 'blog' you do know how much i love you dontcha? =D

Oh look, i am still up at 5 am. Damn-ed.
I havent finish studying chem ah!!!!!!!!!! die lor...... T________T got exam cannot inform ppl at least 3 days earlier la! last min tell ppl how to study ! problematic

I've officially named the periodotic table (Pre-Idiotic table)
Once u read it you'll be an idiot =.="
Argh~ 5 more hrs till exam starts. Panics. I hate going to exam unprepared. Lets hope we are allowed to copy each other & refer to books =) In my dreams.

Brb need to take a bath because my eyes is smaller than the lids of the door.

We were all just told that we have CHEM exam TOMMOROW TODAY.
Fcuk, i havent studied and not ready. I better go now T_T

And Joyce i was never mapling okay? i was away maybe doing my piles of hmw tht reached my neck and maybe i put busy coz i am away? and maybe i have a phone for u to sms? and maybe u can change line asap so i can msg u cheaps and so you won't complain i tak layan you? T__T
PS : i so hate u guys la! stay at BU! Damn can shop everyday, lepak together. EIIIIIIII i stress okay wan find ppl to study with also tak de. EIIII tmr exam u know!! EIIIIIIIII......... i dun care la!! you ppl better invite me over! and i wanna shop at 1 U also! SO FAR.
TRIALS IS SO NEAR! DAMN I AM STILL PLAYING A FOOL!!!!!!

tension-ing.

My leg's current condition. With ankle guard. =.="

400Th Post.

Ashwin i have no time to write you story but i have comics =D This is half part of the comic la i lazy upload part 2. Btw Part 2 Diff story. To he/she tht have seen it before yeah it was the one i did during history class. =P

And of course Ling Shin was being pushed by me yet not the other way round. KEKEKE xP I'm crediting this to StickGirl which created tht character i am just drawing it in action. =D

And i forgot to credit Wayne for giving tht dude a name for my essay (Richmond) And the other essay i have to credit JodiPiccoult's book 'ThePact' coz the pregnant part i sorta got the idea from that book. Hahas =P

Enjoy!~

PS : Pls click on the nuffnang advertisement i wanna earn $$ =D thanks ya'll.

EEkkkkS my leg is still swollen yesterday so my dad decided to drag me go see the doctor again. And i was scolded for going to TKD -.-
And he ask why i never go for treatment ~
Now i have to wear an ankle guard.

If i am not mistaken i should have dislocated something, coz after he corrected it yesterday its no longer swollen but it hurts T_T!

So yup, cannot go TKD & PJ 2 weeks. Nothing strenuous to my leg.
I am so stressed up over hmw's nowadays. I wore my glasses when i had my contacts on! that is how blur i am. Zzzz

I have a tonne of chem work to finish now! and thank god i done my physics,eng,bio,bm !
Now i have chem, est and moral and add math and math to do. I hate schooling life. Stressed!

Anonymous
I talked to you after a long time,
I realized tht i missed you so much,
I can feel that i moved on without you,
but there is still a space their,
I can't describe what it is,
I can feel tht the space belongs to you,
And it will always be.

Its so weird now that we've both moved on yet the memories seem to lay there all the time. I feel that i know you so well but we have nothing in common anymore. The only thing keeping us together last time was purely love. Now when its all washed away we have nothing left, just our empty shells. But i guess its better this way. It is better this way....

ps: i need to complete my hmw. damn-ed

The below post is two of my lamest essays. Its nothing grand but just thought that i should share it. =)

And here is the post i promised. BB campfire.

On Saturday i went to BB's campfire and i dare say their campfire is awesome! Way better than our school's one~ I rate it 9/10 =D if it weren't for the slight technical error it'll be 10/10. Their skits are really cool in terms of story line & the performances. The one thing i was really jealous is that their headmistress and teachers are so freaking supportive over their event unlike our school's.

So overall it is really good. And grats to the BB-ian scouters that make it all worked. I can see those hard work you guys put in! & I enjoyed myself that night =D So keep up the goodwork !

I wanted to post the campfire video but my file is too big, so i stole Wayne & Ash blogs video =D Which was uploaded by Lynette. ^^















To be continued, blogger is being an ass coz i cannot upload one single piece of picture. damit.

The one and only picture we bothered to take =O and my eyes look dreamy (me & laksh)

The glowing sticks, we are actually holding hands like a lesbian couple =X LOL! ps : i do not 100% fit into the lesbian category okay! i 100% straight. =P

The opening act. Broomsticks hahahah!

Their theme, past,present,future.

Their very cute skit. The mat rempits ride basikal because petrol expensive. hahas

The funniest thing that happened was, when me and Laksh was bitching about someone from our school and tht someone's name happened to have the same pronounciation as someone in BB school. So when Ash heard us talking about her he joined in, we completely crapped about a different person for awhile before we realized! =P

Essay1

“You don’t understand me!” Jewel yelled before slamming the door. I turned and looked at my husband. “Chad! Can you please stop being so calm?” I said. “Honey, Jewel is old enough to think for herself, so stop worrying”. The door in the living room swung open and there stood my eldest son, Alex. “Alex where on earth have you been the whole night do you know that we are worried about you!” I said. “Mom, chill I just slept over at my friend’s, no biggie I didn’t murder or rob a house you know”.

That is my family, I don’t remember it being like this year’s back when my boy was young and my girl is a toddler. Now that they’ve all grown everything seem to have changed. My daughter says I never understand her and my son comes home once every fortnight. Lastly, my husband seems to be so chilled over everything.

After hours of flashing back I decided to talk to Jewel. I knocked on her door, but nobody was answering. I knocked a few more times but no avail; I panicked and called for Chad. “CHAD! CHAD come up now! Jewel is not opening the door! CHAD!” I heard his heavy footsteps rushing up the stairs, this time he was no longer in his calm look, he panicked too, he jabbed the room door hard with his bare foot.

I saw Jewel lying down motionless, her hands was holding a bottle of paracetamol. Chad carried her while I rushed to reach for the car keys. I was speeding all the way to the nearest hospital, my hands were cold as if the circulation has been cut of, and under my breath I was saying prayers hoping Jewel will be safe, tears trickled down on the steering. Chad was holding her tight in his strong arms, after so many years.

I drove to the emergency lane, I saw the nurses took Jewel away from Chad, my hands trembled. My legs felt hollow as if I was too heavy for my own legs to support. Chad saw my pale look and immediately clasped on my shoulder to support me from falling. We waited behind those tall curtains. The hospital smelt so strong of antiseptic which makes me feel so uncomfortable. Every few minutes me and Chad exchange looks. After awhile, a tall guy with white robe and stethoscope around his neck walking towards us.

“Are you related to Jewel Norman?” he asked in a strong Britain slang.” “Yes we are her parents”, I answered. “I am really sorry but we are unable to save your daughter & her child she took in too much drugs and was sent in too late.” “We are really sorry for your lost” the doctor said. “NO! You must’ve mistaken! My daughter is not pregnant! You must’ve got the wrong person! Jewel won’t be dead! She can’t be! I bellowed. “Ma’am, calm down it is a fact that your daughter Jewel Norman is pregnant and the fetus is 3 months old. We are really sorry for your lost.”

The words that came out from the doctor’s mouth strike me like lightning. Chad was seated and silent. Tears flowed out from my eyes nonstop. I called home and found Alex wasn’t there, I tried calling his cell phone but he didn’t pick it up. That night we reached home I went to Jewel’s room to clean up. I can’t believe she died without a word and she died right after she fought with me, I feel like I was the one that killed her. I should have just let her be with Andrew, and I think the baby should be his. Chad walked into the room moments later. He grabbed the frame from Jewel’s study table, the whole family was smiling so happy in the frame. “Jen, I think we should call Andrew he deserves to know Jewel passed away. I wanted to be sure if the baby is his.” I just nodded my head.

That night both of us fell asleep on Jewel’s room. The next day, Chad called Andrew and told him about Jewel, he admitted having sex with Jewel, but Jewel never told him about her pregnancy. He asked permission to come to Jewel’s funeral. Everything seems to fall when Chad received a phone call from the hospital saying that Alex had met a car accident and is currently in ICU; in a comma. I guess it was true that I never understand my kids well. Before Alex could even know her sister died he was in a comma himself. Few hours after Jewel’s funeral, Alex passed away.

Essay 2

Blood is thicker than water.

I have blond hair shoulder length with curls on the end; my eyes are sapphire blue; I have petite nose and lips. One word to describe myself, I am drop dead gorgeous. My family is complicated, my mum is an all time nagger, my dad never really bothers about me, my brother Kyle is a jerk and my younger brother Keane is superb annoying. My name is Kelsea and I am eighteen this year, I am not the nerdy type I come home with okay grades, still better than Kyle’s and just enough to pass my A’levels.

I’ve always thought that I weren’t born in this family, because of their weird behavior. Whenever I bring a guy home the next day that guy would have a total cut-off relation with me thanks to my mum. One night after a fight with Kyle, I climbed the house windows and went to a night club just to have some fun. To my surprised I met this really handsome guy at the bar, his name is Richmond in short Richie he is twenty-six year old. We exchanged numbers and had so much fun that night. He even offered to drop me home but I declined.

We are so in love and have been meeting each other in the same pub for a month without my mothers concern, until one day she found out the text messages on my phone while she was cleaning my room. She scolded me and forced me to break off with him saying that he is a bad guy. My mum sealed the window from my room she took away my cell phone plus she also grounded me.

I found a chance to call Richie when my mum went out, I told him how upset I was and I wanted to run away from home. He was supportive over my decision and asked me to stay with him for the rest of my life if I didn’t want to return. The day when my mum needed to pick Keane I sneaked out of the house with my luggage and met Richie at the bar. He drove me to his apartment quite far from where I stay.

He treated me so well and talked me into having sex with him, after a while I finally gave him my virginity. I stayed with him for three month I lost contact with any of my family members. These three months felt so perfect until one day a woman came knocking on our apartment door and slapped me. He claims to be Richie’s wife. Richie came back from work and told me he will sort things out with her telling me he have no feelings with her anymore and he was really sorry that he lied to me.

I fell for the words he told me, a month later I found myself pregnant. When Richie came home I happily told him, but his expressions wasn’t what I expected it to be. He told me he wanted to break of with me and he is giving me a week to move out of the apartment. He said that he has settled things with his wife and he wanted his normal life back. He told me that if a week later I don’t move out people from the bank will seal off the apartment because he has sold it.
I asked him what about our baby he told me he never wanted it and ask me to go for an abortion. He won’t even fork out a penny for the abortion operation. He just left after telling me all those horrible things. My heart was shattered and I felt lost. I packed my luggage and I have no where to go. It rained so heavy that day, I have no place for shelter and I fainted. When I woke up, I was in the hospital. I saw my mum, dad, Kyle and Keane surrounding me. I thought I was dreaming, it made me blink my eyes a few times.Keane was the first to hug me and say he misses me, and for once Keane was sweet and not annoying, mum too came hugging me. Dad gave me a kiss on my forehead and Kyle ask me to come home with them. I told them what happened over the 4 months and how Richie left me just like that. Instead of scolding me my mum apologized for using such harsh method to protect me and say they will more than happy to have another baby in the house. Since then I realized that blood is always thicker than water.

I finally had my pictures uploaded! & here is the post i owe to Joycelyn,

I hate being the youngest in the family,
i won't even bother explaining to them because all your parents do is just
"yeah your eldest sis is right"

So i'll let her be right because i am moving out of the dam room! i have my life, my time, i wanna sleep and wake up at whatsoever time i like because i am some lifeless kid that wanna get what i aim for, and people around me are just being selfish. Hell yeah.

I do need to take books from the room in the dark, you don't expect me to be like some mouse do you ? ; soundless? yeah ryte, keep dreaming.

School was another part of "shit" in my life ; formative marks.
I have a bundle of work to do, pilling up like mad, yet i don't want to do it. I just feel like leaving the 25 marks because in real exams such things wont happen. But, i cannot screw my damn trials either. Basically it still ends up like shit.

Add Math project is out and way suckier than last years. We are clueless, and its more like a physics project! HELLO? pendulum bob? why are you people expecting so much from 17 year old teenagers, maybe they too have a life and need to sleep? 10 subs + projects + hmw's + school + tuition = LIFELESS. More to add on the family is continuously pressuring you. Giving you unessacary stress for example (refer to the 1st & 2nd paragraph).

I have so many funny things to blog about but stress jst blew my mind off wht i wanted to type before this ;
but anyway here is one

SCENE 1
"dry mass" >> kill someone, put in oven 110degree celcius for few times and tada dry mass.

Eve: Teacher!! come lets demonstrate it =P
Teacher: if you can find a volunteer *wink*
*lingshin,Jaya,Mina points at me*
Aly: OH TEACHER EVELYN is happy to be a volunteer !
*whole class burst out from laughter*

SCENE 2

Bm teacher was talking something about swordfish killing ppl.
Eve: cikgu, boleh ke timbus badan orang? O.O begitu tajam eh?
Cikgu : IALAH! TAJAM TAU! you pergi cuba lah, tengok boleh cucuk badan u tak -.-"
Aly: Ya , Evelyn go! You want to die so much today. hahaha

SCENE 3

I was helping Laksh open her stupid media player so i was standing on top of the chair holding the railing of the window waiting for tht computer to open.

Shaddap ( pn loo named her xP) Syaridatul : EH EVELYN! You posing jumping building pose?
Eve : -.-" NO..... jst for fun la.
Shaddap: HAHAHAA, why you wanna die so much today ah.

DotDotDot. They all say i love to die so much today.

Btw, alysha looked like a walking egg yolk because of her rumah Kuning T-shirt lmaos!!

PS: damnpissgoingtomoveroomnow.

Here i am near midnight ranting abt my life again!
Yeah it sucks really bad to be in this family. WHY?
because ppl in it can be so dam inconsiderate !
When u are trying to get sleep is either they knock on the door for the dunno how many-eth times, wake u up for no particular reason, switch lights on for so long, blasting the tv outside, yelling her throat out in your room , etc, etc. One word annoying you.

Secondly when you on alarm to wake yourself up, she complaints on how noisy it is. blablablablabla so on so forth. Yeah maybe i need to wake up to freaking do school HOMEWORK & fcking study before i can get back to sleep? does that ever runs into your mind? you nolonger have school doesn't mean i dont?

When i try to concentrate, those ppl start yelling outside the living room, blasting the dam tv, talk so loud that you can even hear it from the kitchen & laughing so loud. Seriously how the heck to study ? when i change my time to study ppl come complaining about my alarm this shit that shit. FUCK it alrd okay.

Yes i am so damn-ed pist of with this whole idea to avoid noise and noise CHASE right after me!

ps: i feel like killing someone.

Okay here is a friggin short post just to wish my beloved sis,

Happy Birthday To Yap Angeline!!
(8th July 1981)
❤ Hope you will have a wonderful year & i owe present =P will get it when i get to go out ❤
Ps : you're old! time to get married ! we're all waiting xP

Picture and story comes later!

How does fertilisation occur?
Class : when the sperm swims to the ovum!!
Teacher : No, specifically HOW does the sperm enters the vagina?
Class : *knowstheanswerbutrefusestosayitoutloud*
Somebody : Penis.
Sheren : A GUY'S KUKU.


This sent the whole class laughing like mad. haha. & if i am not mistaken teacher says she wanna retire after she hear this hahaha.


I wanted to much to upload Sharmi breaking rooftiles video but sadly 'slowtube' is being such an ass. So yup till now i havent got it uploaded, sigh*


School was ultimately boring because the whole day we only have 30min of Bio ! like woots. I can't help but slumber in class haha. I am so addicted to my sister's keeper. Shall finish it later =X.


Thank Goodness today no tuition, so worn out!!!


I ask a very weird question today.
Laksh do you think i am a person that is desperate for guys?
She went O.o"

But we continued with it and she was asking me till wht extent of despo i meant. But wtv it is definitely not like her


To the extend of
"picking up any guy from the streets to date" =X
Of COURSE NOT!

I know its such a weird question but it somewht it passed thru my pea brains. =O

I wanna go slumber awhile now, continue when i can find stuffs to write. I have pictures though =D outdated one hehe.

PS: ihopethtiwaswrongabtmyconclusions.

Ok lets see i havent finished posting yesterday's post but yeah i will start today's one first.
Seriously i was kind of, actually very shocked over my own writing skills ! I read back some of my old draft posts because of "somebody" cough cough.

And my english was better then now!! Ugh, how can it be!!!

Time to start reading books. many many. At such rate i will get B for my 1119 paper. T_T
&
Yesterday was nuts. LOLs played till gila gila. -.-"

I am tension-ing already exam exam exam !!!! The guilt is building but my body aint moving! what can i do? smack myself ?!?!

Today attended Interact installation mainly to send grats to all that stepped down and all those that stepped up. =D and Jaya happily DITCHED me T_T how sad was that?
And found wayne, tht loser only got mulut say ppl shy he himself also one big shy freak. LOL! talk to him worst den talk to wood ! xP

Anyways grats to :

Tanesha
Iman
Vaishinavi
The 2 Trishna's
Xin Yan
Selene
Ee Von
Sonia

& i forgot already la! haha so overall grats to whoever that got installed and stepped up !

Tuition today was BORIIIIIIIING. Besides mr tan going like some chu chu train !!! and his lame jokes. LOL

Quoted by Miss Teh Ling Shin,

Liar liar pants on fire,
smell the kusu(tamil i dunno how to spell but it meant fart),
drop on tyre.

This is so farnie. LOLs.

ps: mydraftsaresofreakinglame. Ican'tbelieveioncelovedhimbefore.haha. past is past.

Today was a busy day! but so fun.

Get to see taekwondo club perform and this time i am part of it, but i didnt break planks la. I'm still yellow belt long way more xP

The pictures are currntly with ling shin will post it up ASAP. =D

Shamir (finally got his name correct !) was planning to break rooftiles with fire, but unfortunately afika got cheated by the seller saying that the turpentine was kerosene. So yeah it wasn't flamable at all. Ended up sharmir replaced it with another tile = 2 tiles yes he broke it !=D awesome sight. Somewht it was good tht the seller cheated afika i was so worried tht shamir's hands will get burnt because he was wearing a bandage (easily flamable!) He also broke plank blindfolded. Ling Jinn came to help =)

& before i forget,

HAPPY 19Th BIRTHDAY T0 TEH LING JINN !
(4th July 1989)
❤ Hope you have a wonderful birthday and a wonderful year ahead of you ! ❤

We lepaked around the school to check out on ochestra (dragged by chan). Football team (got ah? never knew it existed =X). & at gallery clubs were selling things (SO EXPENSIVE!!!) After that went back to HU to check on contestants. Grats to -->> Green Nature 1st place, Robotic 2nd place, multipurpose box 3rd place.

(to be continued later.)

Tommorow is going to be MPPH. Yay, can break cucumber x)
Oh right the cucumber so reminds me of Sharmi & Pathi's convo. "another meaning" =.=!

Neways today was erm normal, suprisingly i can do variations LOL! & i ran away from DC smart leh. Come late to school few min also need to go DC, NO WAY ! xP

I shall do this one more time,

Me & Wayne are good/close/best friends. Nothing more nothing less. So yeah.. get the point? Sorry to break the bubbles peeps.

I have nothing to blog today LOLs. Wait for tmr =D

School was plain boring... after recess most of the form 5's gathered at the hall for MPPH arrangements. Half of us were falling asleep during arrangement...

Trials is so near and i am feeling it, but my body is so reluctant to follow instructions my brains gives out. *sigh* so worried la...

Anyways after school today went to TKD class. Got tortured by Sharmi (is this how u spell his name?) lols. But it was fun ~ saw him breaking planks ! i got so excited and i couldn't resist to NOT play with the plank thus i think i got myself another bruise. =X

After tkd went to tuition.. learnt abt mutations today. Those ppl ejek me downsyndrome LOL! I so perfect okay? my hands not over my knees -.- They are jst long coz i happen to inherit the dominant allele (should be the correct term guar.. =X ) Btw i never thought that the dominant allele for hair is CURLY lols i always thought it was straight. Shocking.

During trip home dad was scolding me for going to practice with my leg still swollen. *sigh* i can never stay still one la, one week never go dy i felt left out. Seriously i have no idea when i started having passion towards TKD.. or maybe its the passion towards martial arts =D

I am so tired after one whole day.

Can i stop school? maybe not go? they are adding formative on trials which is stupid, they have already seen the effect of the exam marks after taking away the formative AND yet they are maintaining it WTF's? So if like this SPM no formative how? all fail? is seriously damn damn unreasonable and stupid ! my school is one plain stupid school! seriously i have no mood to continue schooling already i see the school everymorning also wanna vomit. Summore not all the teachers are good, and not all the teachers gives reasonable hmw loads. Fcuk, i hate school.

Sometimes is not that students love to complain, but hello maybe can use brains abit ryte? 25% contributes alot, do you think SPM they give u 25 free marks? got such things ah? ppl wanna take trials go submit college ; very fair izit? other school 100% exam based ours not. So SPM all dun work hard because we get 25% free marks wad, marks ald okay who wanna work hard? Then when actual results worst den trials college fee u all play? u all blind izit? the results year by year getting worst still don't take action? more and more quality teachers are leaving yet no actions taken against it but do such things like "solar system" call Minister of Edu come, reporters. Got use? look at CHS : for example, ppl famous for things like how many A1's. We? famous for building solar panel system? Eh we are A SCHOOL (academic) not build solar panel ! YES it helps students to understand and save the world but before they save the world maybe they need to HELP THEMSELVES FIRST?

Ugh, i shall stop complaining because it will never end. Conclusion idiotic school. Prefects are stepping down soon. & we shall enjoy WITH them. <3

PS: Guys quickly change to maxis lar !! next mth lamer lagi okay? x) Come i help u all dry credit so can change line faster mwahhaaha. Love~!

At times i'm jst me,

At times when you are jst emo-ing without a reason
At times when you are jst enjoying life..

Starting of a new month, nearer to SPM, *sigh*

The worst part comes when you wake up and find..... there is no electricity. & i was lazy enough to not pack my bag yesterday nite so i had to use the torch light to pack my bag today. FYI it is really hard, was even late for school. But the hardest task is to wear contact lenses in da dark... when i reached school The Queue for late comers was FUHYOH got more den 50 ppl okay! including me la haha xP

Ling Shin playing with cleo (pn leow's labrador )

The girl with the higest kick is me la, no need to see alr. Grading. (old one last weeks i nvr attend) =D

Laksh's work on my hand. Dun bother abt the red part something censored! who dare mention it on my blog she will be dead! i mean it!! warning:silentreadersarearound! so shut up even if you know what the red patch is!!

Sombody sclding me for drawing on hand and after that she did it ON my hand. LOL =.=" Lookwho'sencouraging

the pic taken last 2 weeks during church i think. xP cmndr Jeff drew this during bible quiz LOL. Ayam watching you. so cute la.

Lastly, time for me to run.. *shows you my fat legs*. T______T. I so need to lose weight!!!

ps: iguessiwasjustbeingparanoid.

butstillifeelsomethingain'tright.idon'tknowhowtoexplainbutit'sjstsoweirdbetweenus.