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As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . .
I will always keep falling in love with you.
Karen Clodfelder-

Darlinggggggg 15th Day today.
which is 30th April.
Help me wish your dad Happy Birthday okay?

Have you been studying hard? i hope you have ^^
Time constraint dear, but don't panic !

I AM ALWAYS HERE & AVAILABLE FOR YOU :)

Loving you and missing you ! =)


Signing off for now~
Muaxk !

Darlingggggggg,
today is our 2nd week anniversary, sorry i won't be around to celebrate it with you.
14th daysssssssss !! can you believe how time flies even when we're counting it everyday?
You know what? i'm sure to miss you right know, knowing its our second week and i probably can't hear your sexeh voice today =(
I'll try to send you a text everyday ^^
Pray for my phone battery to last for the week =)

Ps : darliingg, can u blog for me? i wanna catch up with your life when i come back ! but since i can't sms you like usual, so you've gotta type yr personal diary for me ryte?? Cann??? ^^ pleeeeeeeeeeaaaaaasseeee *puppy eyes*
But if you don't want to den its okayy =)

Bambee, i love you.....
1) take care of your health
2) don't give up studying
3) don't give up doing assignment
4) don't hurt yourself while playing frisbee
5) i am missing you as always =)

*muaxks*

Reminder = Have you sent your card to your dad?

13th Day Darliiingg ~

* remember your very sloppy eating style? *

So, how's everyone doing when i'm away??
You can happily leave stuffs on my c-box i'll be back as soon as you know it ^^ den i can read.
Option 2 - Go to my Facebook :) i have a big wall for you guys to berconteng dere.

Darling, how's studying doing? got study or not?! ^^
Don't miss me too much alright ! Later i grow alot of pimple den take picture not nice T_T how?

& not to forget

I Love You. (i tell you this everyday since we started and i will continue doing it =D even if you get bored of it hehe!) muaxk !

Alright so i'll be off on the plane today! :D
But stay tune to my blog coz there will still be a post a day, just to entertain you blog readers and of course my deareeeeeesstt darling :)

If he actually misses me when i'm away ~ ^^
But what i know is, i will surely mishhh you =(

Darling 12th day today =D so fast ryte?

Joyce : i'll pray for you so that you won't see the *ahem* again next week ! and don't stress on your studies ! study smart enough lar =) I'm missing you on plane ^^ muaxk !
Ling : if you are reading my blog, i am oofffff d !! ^^ and i will miss you tooo ~~ XoXo Enjoy your hols while you can hehehe ~~

DarrliiiinnnnGGgg : Don't watch so much LOTR till late nite okay? Eat medicine *your cough* dun drink ice late nite ~ ( your poison + poison = cure theory don't work -.- ) and STUDY HarD & SmArT OKAY?!!! ^^ I will always be here to support you although i am far away =D
&
&
&
I love you ! *hugs*
studyyyy ahhh, hols dun laze around kiex!

12th Day!! <3

I will be going off now !
Darling i will miss you ^^

and don't worry i will have fun there,
i won't be sad about anything ^^

Loving you all the time.

5 days pass very quickly so no worries ^-^

Muaxk!

Ps : study hard dear!!! dun "tao lan" okay? ^^ remember to love your notesss!!

*hugs hugs*

Do NOT categorize me with other ppl Thank You.

Sleazy?
If you use that word for me than wad about the ones that are way worst huh? have you ever thought about it? Do you know me well enough to say that? you see me everyday so?
gives you the right to judge someone with one damn hell picture?

Sorry to hurt your lil feelings,but guess what i don't give a damn on your comments. Say all the hell you want, just so you know everyone is different. Not all are like you , if so you considered yourself so "highly-priced"

You categorize yourself as a product, i don't ; sorry!

Don't blardy hell compare and compare shits. World today is today, it is NOLONGER the world BEFORE. People grow, technology grow, and if you don't grow along i feel sorry for you. Just to let you know, i KNOW my limits and boudaries well enough, maybe even more than you do. If you think i am shallow then i think you are worst than me. You've never been through what i have, so you have no damn rights to say anything and JUDGE.

You live in your own little safe world, you don't have friends like shit. You've never experience being with uneducated people. You never know how others suffer. You never know what pain they went through. You think everyone wants to be like that. But jst to wake you up, no. They hate being like that. They were forced into being what they are today. OKAY?

If you want to nag and COMMENT pls go to those
at the age of 13 okay.
If you still think i'm naive, i suggest you think again.

I have a goal in life ; aim , i know what i want even more clearer than you do !
SO DON'T YOU EVER JUDGE ME! Thank You.

Just to let you know don't put disgusting comments on me. Although as much as i don't give a damn about what you think, still the way you put words and say it out ; it is so disgusting. So damn hell disgusting.

I've PACKED :P
& Before i packed, i tried them on :)

Darlingggggggg, arent you proud of me? i finally packed ;)
Hehe ! anyways, dear....... its 11th Day soon ^^

Just wanted to notify you that i love you,
& i'm really happy that you actually thought about your actions (although i'm not angry about it ^^)
I'm also really glad that you tried to think from my side =) *on my shoes*/from my point of view rather den jst being selfish ~
But just to let you know, i was thinking from your side too ^^ & thats why i didn't get offended or anything ;)
So i guess now we've found ourselves another similarity ryte? :D

I'll be off tomorrow and i will miss everyone, especially the cute, big & almost 6ft teddy bear that i would have *accidentally* left behind =(
BUT
not to worry because i've typed alot alot of posts to keep everyone entertained when i'm not around. So you've just gotta check back daily ^^

Info : i've set the post time at 12am~

PS : CongratSSss on 1st place for Frisbee today! =)

Signing off-
Loves

DARLIIIIIIIIIIIINGG !!
we
survived
10 Days 2gether so far~~ :)


Alright to those that have been waiting to know who is my "latest" current other half *cough*
TaDaaaa....
wahhhh so handsome ryteeeeeeeeee!! of courseee, look who's the one taking the picture *self praise* :P

So anyways a brief Intro,
His name is Ethan How =)
He is 2 years older den me
He is Darker den me
He is WAY taller den me
He is Cute just like me
He claims that he have a sexy voice ( british accent )
He love me and i love him ! duhhh.
Lastly he is a SILENT & LOYAL reader on my blog~


With love,
Signing off~

Ps : darlingggggg, angleeeeee...!!! xP but its okay lah as long as i look pretty ~ teehee !

TEE HEE ~~ LeSportSac :)

My darling must have had a heart attack when he saw the above picture hahaha~
Nope, i didnt buy the Rm 450 T___________T
This one my mum bought de lol. SIGH!
But that bag really niceeeeeeeeeeeee how how how??

Had cuti-cuti msia today
went to KL,Bangsar,Mid V,Grams Hse, and back to PJ Pasar Malam :D
AND i'm home now hehe ~

Loves - Day 9 soon-

Chain email ^^
50 most romantic things to do w/ your b/f or g/f

1. Watch the sunset together.
2. Whisper to each other.
3.. Cook for each other.
4. Walk in the rain.
5. Hold hands
6. Buy gifts for each other.

7. Roses.
8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time
you're together.
9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight.
10. Write poetry for each other.
11. Hugs are the universal medicine.

12. Say I love you, only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it.
13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.
14. Tell her that she's the only girl you ever want. Don't lie!
15. Spend every second possible together.

16. Look into each other's eyes.
17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you
love her, and kiss her lightly.
18. When in public, only flirt with each other.
19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren't looking.

20. Buy her a ring.
21. Sing to each other.
22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.
23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal.
24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)
25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it
over your heart.
26. Dance together.
27. I love the way a girl looks right after she's fallen asleep with
her head in my lap.
28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have
to look in a mirror to read it.
29. Make excuses to call them every 5 minutes
30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to
call and say I love you.
31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them.

32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them.
34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.
35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.
36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.
37. Hang out with his/her friends.

38. Go to church/pray/worship together.
39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked.
40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice.
41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her.

42. Make sacrifices for each other.
43. Really love each other, or don't stay together.
44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't
thinking about them, and make sure they know it.

45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.
46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages.
47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.
48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.
49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash.

50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say, 'Sweet dreams.'

Darliiinnngggg ~~ 8th Day edyyyyy!!! ^^

Yeahhh mannn~~ i Finally got a complete set :D PinKo-ReDy-Bl@cK ~~
Okay lah, except the mouse. I couldn't find one pink de T___T unless i buy the hello kitty one, which i will never !! so kiddy laaaa ~~ yorrrr, where can??
Anyways the whole set still looks nice ^^
Sigh, should have bought a black mouse instead, but tak de lahh only got grey colour haihs gotta give exceptionate to cheap things LOL!

Did you notice i am SPAM posting my blog nowadays?? YES! i am THAT FREE at home.
and I ACTUALLY FOR ONCE MISS COLLEGE
dun need to rub your eyes and see again. Yes i admit, i miss college
"EVELYN MISSES HECTIC LIFE IN COLLEGE" *she's insane i tell you!*
&
She misses all her "gay" friends (thats what they call themselves)

4th May start college lee..... haihs i dun feel like going back to college SAVE ME~~!!! ANYONE?!!

You see how i contradict myself? yes just like this -.-
I miss it yet i don't. This is so human being. Urgh~~
Which college offers a degree cert without the need of taking exams and doing assignments??? I would love to enter that uni/college seriously !
Knowing it is impossible not even in a million years, so yeah i shall stop dreaming T__T

Editted,
Guess wad woke me today??!!!??! JOYJOY's funniest message ever.
You know normally when i'm half sleeping things don't register my brains kan? but today so different i read the message and i started laughing like mad.

Message
OMG! i saw *** she wore green top,yellow shorts and her eyeliner is GREEN & EYE SHADOW!!
I saw her 1cm away from me and i was like O.O"

what else can make u laugh early in the morning ?

Joy, now u know i wasn't exaggarating on her outfit ryte?? that fluorescent pink spagetti strap & PINK cardigan. *eyepain* eye shades + glittery clips. omg~~~
But if it was me 1cm away from her, i'll puke on the spot lah no kidding!! hahahaha eiii~~~~
Pity you lah gotta suffer from such eyesore. :P

PS:
DARLIIIINNNGGGG it'll be the 8th day in 10 hours time~~!!

Baby today is our 1st week anniversary :)
And I just wanted to tell you, i love every minute being with you too ~ ^^
May our love grow stronger with time, just like quoted~

Love you always !!

Don't stress kiex? i'm always here for you when you need me. Always will be~
*hughug*

Since today is our anniversary i pray for all the luck to be with you =)
May you be blessed on the 21st April 2009 ~ i trust that you can do it, so you gotta trust yourself too !

Muaxks ~

What have i done today?
Woke up and saw a very sweet message from darling ^^
Then decided to switch on pc to look for my darling and SUDDENLY tada ! i saw him =D
Talked with him awhile before i get changed and all.
Had our usual "5 minutes" xD
After that i played nintendo wii till my hands shake T____T

Went into room, read NewMoon =)
Then dadi called me :O scolded me for not answering my hp :( not my fault leh vibrating on the bed and i was too into the storybook haha ~~ cannor hear lorrr.
Went out with dadi to DM meet his friend, yumcha awhile
den go walk around DM look for price, earphones and cooler pad.

Ends up all the cooler fan dam cacat so didnt buy, only bought my earphones ! teehee ^^ LOVE them, the bass dam awesome lo! & got most of the pricing of stuffs i needed.

Come back, bugged weihan for some opinion haha !! and restructure again my list. Then dinner..
And now here i am Blogging.

So thats my rotting day xD
not so rotting after all, haha! (should put it as not as rotting as i expected it to be :P)

I'm currently at KL blogging !! tee hee.
The story as promised =)

My Lover My Soul

The rain is so heavy, i could barely see anything infront of me so i kept to the minimal speed. I suddenly saw a fast approaching car coming from the opposite road i tried dodging but it was too late. Everything happened so fast, before i knew i crashed. With my blurred vision i saw blood on my windscreen and i could feel the pressure on my legs. All that was on my mind was flashbacks of memories with him..

Tears fall down my eyes when i think that i might be leaving him forever.. I tried my best to grab hold of my phone located in my pocket.

Instead of typing what i wanted to, i did this instead.

"Baby it has been great being with you all this while, thanks for everything but i don't love you anymore. I'm sorry! Find yourself a better girl, you deserve someone way better than me. Pls don't call or look for me anymore, let this be the last message between the both of us."
Layla~

Tears flood my eyes when i pushed the send button, underneath my breathe i repeatedly say "i'm sorry Greg i really loved you but i can't be selfish"

I could no longer keep myself awake and i passed out.

xxxxxxxxxx

When i opened my eyes, i saw my parents. I was really glad that i'm still alive at that moment.
My mum ran over and hugged me. I had been in coma for a week because i lost too much blood and my head knocked the steering. When i tried to sit up, i can't feel my legs. I tried harder, but my legs just wouldn't move. I look at my parents in horror and asked them what happened to my legs. They didn't answer me instead they assured me that it was a temporary effect, but from their expressions i felt suspicious. I called for the doctor, although they stopped me repeatedly but i didn't listen. The doctor came for a checkup 20 minutes later ; he told me i wouldnt be able to move my legs anymore, they tried their best to recover my nerves but i was sent into the hospital too late. In other words, i will never be able to walk again. At that moment, my brains really couldn't register anything he said anymore because the words "you won't be able to walk anymore" struck me so hard and it just rung on my brains over and over again.

xxxxx

I started cursing the person that drove so fast to overtake the car infront of him. I blamed him for everything. But what is the use now? it is as if i could walk again. My parents told me that the young man that crashed into my car had passed away on the spot and his car was out of control at that point. His parents apologized on his behalf when i was in coma.

xxxxxx

The door of my ward crept open. The last person i would ever expect to visit me stood right infront of my eyes ; Greg. He greeted my parents and he brought a bouquet of my favourite flowers with him. He turned to me and gave me his sweetest smile. "Layla ! i'm so glad you're awake already i just got a called from the hospital just now ! i rushed here" greg yelled in excitement. He came over to hug me but i pushed him away. I treated him coldly.
I loved him alot, but i really couldnt let him see me like this especially knowing that i won't be able to walk forever. I don't want to be his burden. I don't want him to take care of me for my whole life. I don't want to be selfish because i'd rather walk the rest of my life like this ; alone.
Instead of giving up, he continued treating me nicely. He speaks to me gently even when i don't reply him.

After awhile i couldnt stand it any longer so i asked him if he'd received my message the day i had an accident. And he said "yup i sure did" with a huge smile on his face, he even said thank you.

I yelled at him "are you crazy?! do you not understand english? i told you i don't love you anymore! leave me alone!! i hate you, go away ! stop bugging me Greg. I don't LOVE YOU! understand?"

I tried so hard to control my tears, to not show him i still love him. Those words that came out from my mouth hurt myself even more than it hurt him. It felt as if i am tearing my own heart into pieces.

xxxxxxxxxx

He just sat down and look me in the eyes, he held my hands and said, "Layla, at that moment i saw your message i thought you were serious i even cried but when i found out that you met an accident on the spot i knew your intentions. Baby, we've been through thin and thick together, i know you won't ever do this to me. You're just afraid that i won't be able to carry on with my life just incase you left.. you did that for insurance, to assure i live on. I just wanted to let you know that you will never be a burden for me even if you can't walk, i would love to carry you for the rest of my life. Honey, please don't be afraid of anything because i am here for you, even if you continue rejecting me i will be waiting till the day you accept me. I will never leave you, because if it was me on this bed right now i'm very sure you would have done the very same thing for me. Loving you had been the happiest thing that ever happened in my life, and i will never let my happiness run away. Layla i love you because you are you, not because you can walk or run. Please stop torturing yourself, because you are not only hurting yourself it hurts me to see you getting hurt."

When he said those words to me i cried like there is no tomorrow. I hugged him so hard.
I didn't know how he figured it out, but it is as if he could read my mind.

xxxxxxxx

Years passed,
and we got married. On our wedding day he said he will carry me till the days allowed him too. We weren't rich but at least we are happy together. After that day i no longer blamed the accident for taking my legs away, instead i thanked the accident for giving me such a great story to be told out.

You'll be my lover and my soul forever and always.

5th Day~and still counting..

Today i leave you guys a topic to think about =)

Do you know the heart of the person determines the looks of tht person?
many may think this statement is wrong, but to me i find it true.
For example,
Say this guy with awesome looks but have a very bad personality ; as time passes by, your perception towards him will be ; from the very awesome looking guy to a fairly average or maybe even seeing him as 'ugly' after experiencing his rude way of treating animals.
Instead you have another guy, when you first see him you think he is ugly but as you got to know him more, he have a great and awesome personality, as time passes by your perception towards him and his looks will be totally changed. And when you see him treating animals so kind and gentle, you'll see him in a total different manner ; the creepy part is.... he starts looking good and handsome !! No joke-
Same things applies if it is a girl you are talking about.

If you see people this way you're actually looking thru yr heart yet not your eyes which is a very gifted ability =)

Before this i was really having selective perception, i tend to look at people through my eyes instead of heart. As i grew, i realize tht it was one of the biggest mistake in my life, because with this kind of perception i would have lost so many potentially good friends. Now i just simple love the way i see people... because even if i lose my sight i can still see clearly with my heart who are the trustworthy ones and who are not.
Praise the Lord to have guided me out of the mistake i've made for many years ^^ amen~

If you have selective perception like how i used to, i suggest you try using your heart to look at others because this way, you may see things beyond good looking people. Most of the time its not about the looks it is about the heart. Looks are just an additional bonus if you realize.
God created man not with good looks but with a great heart instead.

Signing off~Loves.

PS : will be working on writing a story tmr.. if i am really THAT free ^^

Darling, its 4th day already !! so fast huh?? ^^

Today, went out with my darlings (the other 2 bestie)
Yup we a had fuuuuuuuuuuuuun fun day x)
as usual you put the 3 of us together we will "bercrazy"

During Mamak
Ling shin : my parents never come mamak they think mamak is dirty =X
Eve : HAHAHA thats funny, so now after u come back from NS ain't mamak just CLEAN? :D
Joyce : EXACTLY !!!
Ling Shin : EHHHH~ DUN LOOK DOWN AT MY CAMP OKAYY? VERY CLEAN
Eve & Joyce : yeaaa yeaaa yeaaa....

At Face2Face
Ling Shin : EH WHERE TO NOW???
Joyce : Derno.
Eve : O_O??
Ling Shin : -.- we should have planned this yesterday seriously...
Joyce: COMe lets go penang !!! Purtajaya !!! KLANG!!!
Eve : Zzz u dun B crazy.
Ling Shin : LOL!
Joyce : Come lah go tropicana mall.
*all agreed*

In the car
Joyce: eh go where??? go dere?? serious? SURE??
Ling Shin : Sure ah??
Eve : EHHH I DUNNO U ALL DECIDE LAHH i drive oni -.-
Joyce : EHHH go my granma place instead lahh !! Hartamas.
Eve : anything lah. WHERE TO NOW?????
Joyce : DUNNO LAH!! eh u dun drive so fast 1st we havent decide where to go. T_T
Eve : WTH? slow d lah dude 50km/h i drive slower let ppl hon till i die man, kns high way lah.
Ling Shin : eh msia is not a plce for slow drives k? LOL!!
Joyce : SO WHERE TO NOWWW???!??!?!!
EvE : WHERE LAHHHH PPL!!!???!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? zzzZzzz

*ends up at Hartamas Mall*

Girls and their indecisiveness (:
Oh boy i just missed hanging out with girls because i found out i have become so manly =X
whyyyy must my college have more boys compared to girls? sigh-

Pictures are not uploaded yet, i'm too tired. you'll have to wait !

Loves~

I know... bad cropping skills. :)

Yesterday had my last paper, business studies wrote like 12 pages in 1h30min highest record so far... my hands nearly "patah"
After that went out with da gang ^^Look at the length of the movie ticket!!
11 boys 1 girl. (im da only girl lah hahaha who else?) + 4 girls after tht.
Basically it was
Arcade,shogun,movie. LOL! eat till cry.

Then today went out again. Lunch,movie,shopping,teabreak,camwhore.
Had sooo much fun 2day =)

Muaxks~ signing off.

BAMBEE!!! i'm proud to announce its Day 2 ^^
48 hours with you so far is awesome =P

To be Continued........

Alright so yesterday i was like dam pissed off with certain college matters. Shall not publicize it YET. -.- but its so UNFAIR. pffffffft.
Had my General Studies paper and i wrote like 9 pages in 1h30min chunted leh?
Finally Last Paper today. =) Business. Whee ~~

Loves-

It is approximately 2 more hours till this very special day ends and we can proudly say.
1st day =D

Yesterday was total drama day. But we had lotsa fun :P
& next morning was like D day =)

BTW
Not voodoo k, jst tht everytime bad things happen =P

So back to today,
Had Math Exam. Wont be able to score full marks. SOB
I'm unsure of a 4 mark question. 4 MARKS leh. sigh.

Today went to make passport, didnt expect it to be so Fast. Haha.
My hols shopping plan kinda got ruined =(
But the good thing is i am flying off. Tee Hee :D

Hmm, guess i should go and start some memorizing before i die tmr :P

Ps : You really gotta thank him. If not you won't so randomly ask at the wrong timing hahahahaa~~

Loves-

*before i forget someone said before tht he wasn't important to me. Who said so hor? i never even say anything u jst assume =( fact is that you are important to me okay? very summore :P

5 pimples big and small.
SOB.

I seriously need to fix my face and eyebags. Sigh. I look uglehhhhh HOW???

As i look into the mirror today..............
i found myself looking obese.
YES. fat!! i'm fat already.... VERY SUMMORE. *screams and screams*

Ugh i need to reduce my arm fats, because that is the place tht collects all the fats. I can't wear sleeveless T___T

EVELYN NEEDS TO GO ON A DIET badly. Haih.

After exam ;
1) Shopping
2) Face mask !!
3) Necklace mine freaking broke yesterday or was it the day before?
4) High time to look for trustable dentist and wear braces?
5) trim my very messy hair. Poking my eye.
6) HIT THE GYM EVERYDAYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
7) goggles (swim swim swim)
8) Fix my guitar (i've been saying this since 2008?)
9)MOVIE MOVIE MOVIE. no soft drinks *ANTI SUGAR* T_T i'm fat.
10) Fullfill certain promises i made x)

I'm hugry nowww !! no eating no eating!! STRICTLY no fooodddd. no biscuit. no instant noodles. no milo. No more. gotta lose weight.

Okay lah i'm being tad dramatic, but HEY i'm seriously getting fat, and i gotta stop it T_T

Till later,
loves

I officially screwed my IT exam. yes i forgot names that i'm suppose to remember.
I PUT PROCEDURE and ERASED off the blardy correct answer and put COMMUNICATIONS.
Zzzz why do they have so many cycles? elements? and those shits. ; to confuse ppl? =.=

Anyways i am SO NOT BOTHERED ^^

So yesterday stayed up to study. Yeah you didnt see wrongly. I stayed up to do my SERIOUSLY last minute study LOL! And oh boy, wasn't yesterday hilarious?
Speech Recognition can really make you laugh like crazy ; it happened when i first used it and it indeed happened again when i teach others how to use it. But this time it is WAY more entertaining.
HAHAHAHAHAHA!! * i swear i laughed until tears flood my eyes *

So i studied till around the middle of the night when i heard insect wings flapping and guess what?
I SAW THIS GIGANTIC FLYING COCKROACH. damit.
I fear roaches, no kidding. Esp flying ones... *if you think roaches are cute then you're weird*
I totally didnt know what to do coz its in the middle of the night i cannot SCREAM my lungs out... and i can't wake my dad just to smack one blardy cockroach ryte?
SO
I tried smacking it with the newspaper but it was running and flying too fast since i was keeping FEETS away from it incase it flies on me T_T
So i gotta continue studying in fear tht the pest will come out anytime and fly on me. Scary or not?
So... that stupid thing is still alive and somewhere in my hse. Zzzz....
So if i get horrible marks for my IT exam i know who to blame. YOU IDIOT ROACH !!

Nothing much happened. I hibernated the whole day. Now pretty much energetic but still sleepy =P

Tmr exam again. kNs.
Off i go. Loves~

Ps : did i mention i can gain 1kg per day when i am stress? oh crap this is bad =(
yesterday i stress until draw smiley face on my feet... its still here now -.- couldn't wash it off. haha.

Future husband criteria Editted LOL !

• EXTREMELY nice to me

• Let me spend all i want (his money of course LOL)
• Love me all the time
• Cannot cheat on me ( Death penalty :P) - i actually don't mind cheating, as long as i don't find out :) if i find out means... *inserts the worst thing that can happen to him here*
  
• Caring
• Should never ever TRY to control me. :)
• Share things with me. I may be a good listener sometimes ^^
• IF possible, he can support OUR living. Thus, i do not need to work :)
• Have to stand my temper :P - i got bad temper :) no joke.
  
• Gotta love little kids and animals
• Cannot scold/yell at me.
  
• Gotta allow me to play games ! ( for now LOL! )
• Cannot stick to me 24/7 like glueeee...
  
• Have to sms & call daily :)
• Must miss me every milisecond. Wait should be Nanosecond (yactosecond since its the maximum already) :D tht'll be more efficient den a computer hehehe.
• Taller den me - this one of course lah.
  
• Health issues - cannot have thalassemia ( blood disorder )
  
• Must be able to hire a maid next time! - i hate house chores :D hahaha
• Must be able to tolerate my "dunno how to cook ability" :)
• Trust me at all times.
  
• COMPROMISing - most important.
• Everyone knows tht i despise liars ALOT. So definitely no lying. Lying is like the same situation with cheating for me maybe even worst.
  
• i can hang out with guys but he cannot hang out with girls - unless i know whoever tht is :)
  
• treat me like princess ! (*very important !!!)
  
• willing to buy me all the expensive things in the world :P
• Must be very very very rich like bill gates HAHAHAHA!!
• Must be veryvery smart like einstein
  
• Must be super handsome like wang li hom. :D
  

SOOOOO... is there anyone left in the queue to court me? i doubt so. (T_____T)
Anyways the last 6 criteria - i was simply crapping so kindly ignore it hahaha~~!!

I officially screwed my Msian Studies final exam yesterday. yay me.
The MCQ was hard like wth? and the shrt & long essay was shit. LOL
I just whacked and whacked my way thru wrote like 6 pages in 1hr 30min finishing my 40MCQ's too. Achievement ! speed of writing i meant :P
But of course my writing is horrid.

i just recalled something rly funny tht happened in college yesterday before i entered the examination room.

Some stranger guy was talking on the phone asking his friends for TIPS 10minutes before exam starts.

I wanted to tell him, hey! don't waste yr time lah 10 min before exam start oni kelam kabut wanna get tips? even if you have it, whats the use? you think open book exam ?

Sometimes these ppl are jst so hilarious.

Yesterday,
The invigilators are so scary ! especially the guy. Zzzz no smile on his face and scolds ppl. wth? den dunno how to tell ppl can start exam d. LOL-er lah. Hope it won't be the same invigilator tomorrow ! xD

I'm not ready for exam tmr help ! who says studying is easy?!


I'm so interested in writing a story right now, but i'm having exams T_T i got no time !! sob &
After exam i doubt i'll have the mood to write anymore lah. Or probably the story i was planning to write is gone from my thoughts. I hate exams don't you?

I'd better be off to TRY and STARE at my book. Loves-

A Story Worth Sharing.

MARRIAGE
When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her
hand and said, I've got something to tell you. She sat down and ate
quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes.

Suddenly I didn't know how to open my mouth. But I had to let
her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce. I raised the topic
calmly.

She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me
softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away
the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we
didn't talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find
out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a
satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Dew. I didn't love her
anymore. I just pitied her!

With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which
stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my
company.

She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who
had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt
sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take
back what I had said for I loved Dew so dearly. Finally she cried loudly
in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was
actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me
for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.

The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing
something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep
and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Dew.

When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just
did not care so I turned over and was asleep again.

In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn't
want anything from me, but needed a month's notice before the divorce.
She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal
a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a
month's time and she didn't want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.

This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked
me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day.

She requested that everyday for the month's duration I carry her
out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was
going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her
odd request.

I told Dew about my wife's divorce conditions. She laughed
loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she
has to face the divorce, she said scornfully.

My wife and I hadn't had any body contact since my divorce
intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the
first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is
holding mummy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From
the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten
meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don't
tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put
her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove
alone to the office.

On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned
on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that
I hadn't looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she
was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair
was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I
wondered what I had done to her.

On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a sense of
intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her
life to me.

On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of
intimacy was growing again. I didn't tell Dew about this. It became
easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday
workout made me stronger.

She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a
few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my
dresses have grown bigger. I suddenly realized that she had grown so
thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily.

Suddenly it hit me... she had buried so much pain and bitterness
in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head.

Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it's time to carry
mum out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an
essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer
and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I
might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms,
walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her
hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly;
it was just like our wedding day.

But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I
held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to
school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn't noticed that our life
lacked intimacy.

I drove to office... jumped out of the car swiftly without
locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind...
I walked upstairs. Dew opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Dew, I
do not want the divorce anymore.

She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do
you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Dew, I
said, I won't divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she
and I didn't value the details of our lives, not because we didn't love
each other any more. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home
on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart.

Dew seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then
slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove
away.

At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers
for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled
and wrote, I'll carry you out every morning until death do us apart.



NB*The small details of your lives are what really matter in a
relationship. It is not the mansion, the car, property, the money in the
bank, blah..blah..blah. These create an environment conducive for
happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find

Taylor Swift.
Fifteen lyrics You take a deep breath and you walk through the doors It's the morning of your very first day And you say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while Try and stay out of everybody's way It's your freshman year and you're gonna be here For the next four years in this town Hoping one of those senior boys will wink at you and say "You know, I haven't seen you around before" 'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you You're gonna believe them And when you're fifteen feeling like there's nothing to figure out Well, count to ten, take it in This is life before you know who you're gonna be Fifteen You sit in class next to a redhead named Abigail And soon enough you're best friends Laughing at the other girls who think they're so cool We'll be outta here as soon as we can And then you're on your very first date and he's got a car And you're feeling like flying And you're momma's waiting up and you're thinking he's the one And you're dancing 'round your room when the night ends When the night ends 'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you You're gonna believe them When you're fifteen and your first kiss Makes your head spin 'round But in your life you'll do things greater than Dating the boy on the football team But I didn't know it at fifteen When all you wanted was to be wanted Wish you could go back and tell yourself what you know now Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday But I realized some bigger dreams of mine And Abigail gave everything she had to a boy Who changed his mind and we both cried 'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you You're gonna believe them And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall I've found time can heal most anything And you just might find who you're supposed to be I didn't know who I was supposed to be at fifteen Your very first day Take a deep breath girl Take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

This is such a pretty song ^^

My finals starts on saturday & i am so not ready! HELP ME PLS !! T________T
Ps : alot is on my mind lately, don't you think?

The last post,
it was just a reminiscence of what i have suffered in the past, since i read back all the old posts the other day ; & I am so not emo !!! xD
Not angry either~
And yeah, i guess i can scold jerks pretty well :D bottom line, don't provoke me hahaha !!

So today go college, did my presentation w/o preparing at all. Reach dere oni last minute do my powerpoint, and my lecturer said i did VERY WELL. LOL much?

And when i was in the car i saw FOC !! seriously she dam lala LORHHH. HOPE I WON'T SEE HER DURING LUNCH AGAIN !! i'll puke ~! to those that will meet her all the time, like miss joyce i bid you gd luck =D

Eiii, you shud see her when she take her SPM results lor. Glittering clips on her hair, very OUTSTANDING shades, and.. oh~~ i jst can't describe ! total fashion crime!!! - alright i shall not bad mouth about others LOL. end of story :D

ANyways today i feel like posting about.

MYOB, yes mind your own business. Nope not the program for accounting !
You know sometimes others just love gossiping about ppl's personal life, it gets annoying at times especially when there is nothing much to say yet they can still dig up story based on their own assumptions. Word of advice get your own life thanks ^^

I'm sorry if you are afraid to show off your life, but i'm sure that i am not afraid in showing off mine ; because i am enjoying every minute of it. Pictures that is taken is the part and pieces of my life being saved up for my own references next time. I don't need comments nor criticism because i have nothing to hide in my life. Everyone live their life's differently, you can envy it but for once stop assuming things.

if you are afraid to show off the ones you love, why say you love them in the first place? Love is unconditional, no?

yeah, i am really annoyed with ppl that loves gossipping about my life. I've probably been rumoured to have a thousand of bf's just coz i mix with boys alot.

Honestly what is with ppl's SELECTIVE perception these days? girl & boy go out = CONFIRM GOING FOR A DATE. hello? best friends cannot? Girl and Boy in a picture = BF
HELLO? girl and boy that are friends cannot take picture?? Pls lah you ppl, grow up from your brains a little can or not? I LOVE my friends no matter guys or girls & i'm not afraid to plaster them everywhere around so that i can see them daily and that doesn't mean i don't have the one special boy that i love. It doesn't mean i have a million's of bf's. Taking picture with a particular guy doesn't mean i have a crush on him ; worst still him being my bf. Narrow-minded.

I don't care WTH people wanna think about me, or what they wanna rumour about me because i live my own life. And my life has way too many happenings! they gossip abt it is because ; they are jealous. So be jealous and envy all you want, i like the way i live ! Wait till you have a taste of yr own medicine ! pffffffffffft ~

( This is a post i typed last year )

Do i look gullible to you?

Thanks so much for making me suffer.
Thanks for making me feel like shit.
Thanks for everything you've done. Thank You.
Deep down from my heart i thank you for all you've given me.

Your intentions for coming back to me is jst because i grew up pretty huh?
I'm sorry to say but yr ex gf looks ugly, the one you desperately got because i rejected you.
Look at your ex before you say i am fat thanks =) oh before i forget LOOK AT yourself first.
(you got her as a replacement, you think i don't know? do you know how similar our name is? )
Even if you want a replacement pls get one that looks more like me, instead of jst the name and her attitude. -sry to the girl, don't mean to offend but you jst don't look as pretty as he bragged.

Don't you feel embarrased of youself? stealing other ppl's gf ; have sex with her and dump her. Just for replacement reasons? if you don't then you are the biggest jerk ever. I'm sorry but i feel disgusted with you. How old are you? 4mths later you tell me you love this 14 yr old girl you jst met? you love her or you jst want sex?

Don't talk as if you know me so dam well. Don't say sorry because you didnt dump me ; instead i left you. We were never in a relation anyways. Why bother saying who dump who?

Go AWAY. I don't wish to talk to you. Remembered me saying we could've met 5 years ago? i'm glad we didn't ! i even hope now tht i've never met you before !

Calling me for 3-5 hours is not fun. Its burning my ears. Moreover i no longer like/love you the way i used to. Given last time, i'd be so happy jumping with joy because you called ; maybe even tell the whole world. Now? if i can i'd hung up/not answer/run away.

Yeah i lied openly and told you i have a BF which i don't ; why ? are you jealous? - you don't need to give me an answer because i know you are. What is with the HAVE YOU GUYS HAD SEX? yes or no does tht matter? Don't act pure infront of me, it is so obvious tht you've had sex with millions of naive girls. Bare in mind i am not so cheap like you.

There is no IF i am your gf anymore.
I've given you the chance, you know i have.

You told me you wanted to wait 2 yrs for her.
Indirectly ask me to wait for you jst incase she doesn't want you.
What am i? back up plan? - sry to say this but, f*** off.
& 2 yrs? WHT 2 YRS HUH? you hardly survived 6 mths ! you cried because of her? you couldn't sleep? stop your lies !

I don't know what i actually see in you ;
you smoke,you speed,you go to clubs, you are short, you are ugly, you are skinny, you are an idiot, you are not smart and you are not even rich !"
Yeah, i was stupid. Maybe even blind then !

Thank goodness you didn't appreciate me then, because if you did i don't even know how to tell out to everyone that you are my boyfriend ; you embarrass me.

You love me now ; so?
I don't love you anymore i'm sorry, because loving you have been so last year.
and that would be the first and last time.
Yeah i look prettier now does tht matter? i am still me right? for all the actions you've taken you have never thought of the consequences before and now you think time can rewind? Time will never be rewind you can't make a choice over again. Once its gone it will be forever.



Goodbye.

Editted.

(2 years back)
This is how it started, and how it all ended.

Him: "hey, wake up dy?..."
Me: "no... baru ny wanna sleep"
Him : Har? sleep now? wht time gonna wake later?
Me : "10.30pm i guess."
Him: then what time you going out?
Me : going out where?
*pooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooof*
Phone no battery....

ding dong* You have 3 miss calls from 03-********

He's calling*
Me : omg so sry.. phone no battery.
Him: i guessed as much. Yar what time you going out dinner later?
Me: Eat dinner dy lor~ sis needa go back malacca so had dinner early.
Him: owh, i see.. you dun wanna wake up?
Me : just ny started to sleep. Just now bath den dinner liao~
Him: you sound so blur wei. *exhaleesssss*
*silence*
Me : hehe~ izit..
Him: yar~ i'll call you later okay? 10.30pm to wake you?
Me: why ar?
Him: wanna kacau you. hehe.
Me : Wanna kacau or you miss me?
*a looooooooongggg pause...*
Me: miss me izit??? O.O""
Him: uhmmmm......................
Me: Okay lar~ you going college now kan?
Him: yar. Going meet chics.haha.
Me: isit? i see...
*in a soft tune*
Him: no lar~ go group study.
Me: Okay ler~ you go bah.
Him: Just now at msn you said.....
Me: hmm? i said wht?
Him: erhm.. nvm lar you sound so blur.. i talk to you later okay?
Me: okay then~ bubye~~
Him : bye...

I was surprised when you told me you remembered my handphone number... you said it out damn fast! haha when i doubt you and you said. What?!?!?! wrong? Impossible! Correct lar! hahaha~ When you asked if i remember yours, i just kept quiet. You know i don't. =)

"You must remember my number!!!"
"if anything you must call me! remember that!"
"hun~ anything important i'll dial triple 9 lar. (999) handphone has your number! =)"


You are still waiting for her. And you love me. These 2 sentence is enough to end everything between us. I'm sorry over the complications that i've caused...i want you out of my life.

Things didn't stop here.

(2:01 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
hey!
(2:01 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
even iif you want me outta your life, i dun want wei!
(2:02 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
i don want!
(2:02 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
understand?
(2:03 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
why cant just let everything flows by it own?
(2:03 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
why you juz gotta stop everything?
(2:05 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
btw, i still owe you da biggest lollipop~
(2:05 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
gotta keep my words..
(2:05 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
one fine day i'll meet you up to pass you the lollipop..
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
maybe after your finals..~
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
during christmas shopping?
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
i dunno but i will..!!
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
btw, i'm going to malacca this saturday..
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
you need anything from there?
(2:07 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
if you do, hit me a offline msg k..!!
(2:11 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
one more thing, good luck for your papers later..
(2:11 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
and, i miss yea!

(2:24 AM) ♠~♥~☠ ♀~Th3 EnD™:
I know things won't work out, i know it all along but i was stupid enough to let myself fall. Don't you just get it i don't want it to happen anymore. Sometimes something is just beyond control. Even if we don't play with fire the feeling is there, it existed all this while. I want to stop everything because i can't handle it anymore.. things aren't going to work out. Its a fact!
(2:27 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
yeah, i know things wont work out but that doesn't mean i gotta be outta your life rite? i still want you in my life as smeone who is close to me y'knoe!

Okay my blog is collecting dust. Yeah i know -.- didnt blog since like last wednesday ! urgh.
I'm having like test, test and OH WAIT more tests! -.-

anyways jst a short update to keep my bloggie abit alive.

Went for and outing with miss joy & shin last thurs had the best time ever =) the red elmoieee is on my bed now, beside baby keroppiii haha. I've decided to name it elmoieeeee (sounds so adorable right??) - joyce stole all the credit and i shall let her hahaha-

PS : i know i always attract stalkers! thanks for laughing.
Case 1
STRANGER SAY WANNA **** me at SJ WTH?
Case 2
STUPID MC D employee CAN'T KEEP HIS EYES OFF ME. *the result : joycelyn gotta suffer with her mocha&strawberry icecream*

The continuous days was,
test,test,test,assignment,presentation and RESULTS.

did not quite bad for all my tests/assignments/presentation so far. =) but i havent studied for my another test tmr :O
*panics*

I'm currently addicted to "kiss me thru the phone"

Baby u kno that I miss u
I wanna get wit chu
Tonight but I can't now
Baby girl and that's the issue
Girl u kno I miss u
I just wanna kiss u
But I can't rite now so baby
Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u lata on)

Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u when I get home)

Baby I kno that u like me
U my future wifey
Souljaboytellem
Yeah u can be my boonie
I can be ya clyde
U can be my wife
Text me, call me
I need u in my life
Yea all day
Everyday I need ya
And eveytime I see ya
My feelings gets deeper
I miss ya, I miss ya
I really wanna kiss ya
But I can't
678 triple 9 8212

Baby u kno that I miss u
I wanna get wit chu
Tonight but I can't now
Baby girl and that's the issue
Girl u kno I miss u
I just wanna kiss u
But I can't rite now so baby
Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u lata on)

Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u when I get home)

Baby I've been thinkin
Lately so much about u
Everything about u
I like it, I love it
Kissing u in public
Thinking nothing of it
Roses by the dozen
Talkin on da phone
Baby u so sexy
Ya voice is so lovely
I love ya complexion
I miss ya, I miss ya
I really wanna kiss ya
But I can't
678 triple 9 8212
Baby u kno that I miss u
I wanna get wit chu
Tonight but I can't
Now baby girl and that's the issue
Girl u kno I miss u
I just wanna kiss u
But I can't rite now so baby
Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u lata on)

Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u when I get home)

She call my phone like da (20x)
We on da phone like da (20x)
We takin pics like da (20x)
She dial my numba like da (10x)
678 triple 9 8212

Baby u kno that I miss u
I wanna get wit chu
Tonight but I can't
Baby girl and that's the issue
Girl u kno I miss u
I just wanna kiss u
But I can't rite now so baby
Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u lata on)

Kiss me through the phone

Kiss me through the phone
(I see u when I get home)

I finally can play SDO !! *screams* but i suck at it. xP
ARGH!! my far cry 2 cannot install and sam cursed me by saying my lappie sure can't play with tht lousy graphic card. !!