Tuesday, October 12, 2010 8:46 PM

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Finally back from a hectic 6 hour class day!

Mou mou,

it was sooo worth it to wake up an hour earlier to prepare you a lunch set today, especially when i see your happy happy face while eating!! *satisfied*

No doubt, all those while when i was cooking... i was literally smiling too.. =D it is totally like love struck! hehe

Was so touched to read my blog early in the morning with such a long and touching post from you! Honestly, i wasn't really angry yesterday.. just felt a lil more of disappointment & a lil hurt over certain words you said =[ I almost cried okay?! so teasing me this morning wasn't so funny!! *emo*

But today, i won't want to see another post from you at

3am in the morning because i want my Mou Mou to be on his bed sleeeping soundly :)

I love you~

Ps : what do u want inside d lunch box tomorrow? hehe =)

Badminton time...~~ ouhh, i havent been stretching my legs for a long while... seems all broken

-____-

Eve then,

Loves joe really much as a friend... because i think he cares a lot about me although like say he always tease, poke, & pinch me...

Always knew he was the kind of guy whom protects himself a lot... as he kept all his thoughts away from people. Last that i expected was to be able to read him inside out..

I somehow knew he was hiding many things or rather keeping everything just to himself...

Somehow it gives me a kind of protective feeling...

I quickly brushed it off... because back then i knew the feeling shouldn't exist.

Feelings got deeper when we played and have so much fun together...

at the arcade especially...

I never had the fun with my ex before, because back then when we got up to genting he told me arcade games don't worth anything.

But after being there with you Mou, and T3... arcade is worth alot alot more than money could buy... because it gives you the happiness, laughters and fun.... being on a trip..

The second day was the day i spent most of alone time with you...

Sitting on really slow games despite all the waiting time, i guess we just talked it all off..

It felt really happy & stress free being in a queue with you because you don't complain but you actually enjoy having me as your company~~

Didn't know why on ever ride i wished you were beside me~ and when we were sitting on solero shot, I told jiejoe i wanna sit with Joe, your expression (running towards me) was priceless~

What pushed me towards loving you more was when i called someone a few times... he didn't bother replying me... not until at the night time.

That time, i believed you know I wasn't very happy... i could see it clearly from your expression..

Everytime when he is not there for me, you just fill in my time...

I guess, all our classmates saw the love bloom from us... except ourselves huh?

After genting trip ended... i began missing you.. right after departure, when i reached home...

I tried not to think about it because.. again i know the feeling shouldn't be there. Not long later i fall sick... and i had to work at Dataran Prima. Knowing that I'm sick you come to see me everyday for lunch and bring me leong cha + tau fu far... most of the time you were asking if i'm feeling okay... I felt so much love from you as compared to the other one labelled my "bf" at that point.. Not only did he not care, yet asking me out every night although i'm sneezing and coughing so badly.. and when he so-called come over to my place to spend time with me.. he was busy sitting infront of the television while i was happily coughing and sneezing my way in the room.

Mou mou, you showed me how much you truly care about me... I tried my best not to compare... yet in the end.. he is just un-comparable to you because you are way different, in a better way... After your existence, he's trying to do things that you are doing... it felt so insincere because i know it didn't come deep down his heart... it only came out because he felt his position being threatened.

From time to time... i told myself i shouldn't fall for you.. because it is morally not correct but my feelings are so hard to control. When you asked me to tell you to "give up"... i tried... but i couldn't...

I was thinking how will uni days go without you by my side?

who am i going to talk to when i'm sad? or when i want someone....?

& it was painful... to let you go... especially when i saw you crying like that...

he lost because he is over confident.. and because he don't really care about me.

You are different because you never gave up... even when u wanted to it was because of me. You were the one who really cared, the one that put in hard work, hard effort and determination...

At that point... I gave everything up for God to decide...

I pushed you both away...

But i realize i missed you most...

and your message was the first one i reply~

You would make me smile and laugh... although its just an sms~

I actually still gave him many chances.. after that, but he didn't call/text me.. its like he is pushing his mistake towards me..

So i basically gave up as it all didn't matter anymore.

Taking me for granted would in the end be losing me...

& after that, i believed i got closer to you..

been seeing you most of the time during our holidays

working together

taking public transport together...~

& being in love together..

Attended the motivation talk with you.. & yr dad & yr bro (shocked)

I felt that i really need to decide for myself...

Might be correct or might be wrong..

But whatever it is i believe my feelings are right..~

No doubt, my dog pushed me further to give u a yes as an answer on 10.10.10

because... dogs can see clearly how a human behaves...

if his/her heart is very kind.. dogs won't be afraid of them...

I saw that in you... mou mou...

I was shocked why my dog wasn't afraid of you...

instead it goes running to you! :P

You're just different..~

I didn't regret falling in love with my best friend! and who cares what people thinks?

As long as i am happy now!

Mou Mou,

I Love You. Alot.

10.10.10.10.10.10

(a day to be remembered!)

Happy 2-day-sary Mou! muaxks~~!