Monday, August 9, 2010 10:15 PM

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"somewhere in between"

I didn't purposely pick the book from my cupboard it was such coincidence....

What's so weird about this happening is because; it resembles so much to what is currently happening to me.. Everything the girl character thought of was exactly on my mind. It is so similar - that reading it seems creepy. Sometimes i think books actually pick their readers instead of readers picking the books. Its like they know~

As I read, and i think... many many things again.

I remembered the days when you used to court me.

It was SO different. It actually feels like you love me... but as time passed by... things seems so different.. do you realize?

I gave you many chances but every time you just disappoint me over and over again.

I confirm you that you're thinking i'm pushing the blame; when really I am the one... and you're the victim. At first i thought i was... but right till the end i know i wasn't; i read back my past posts which tells me many many things.

It highlights the cracks. Cracks none of us realized.

I remembered you scolded me for being jealous and i said then; that you should be happy when i am; because you actually meant a lot to me. But now i don't think i feel much of it anymore. My heart doesn't really ache when i saw you commenting on other girls profile. At that point it freaks me... really does.

I always felt that when i'm giving you 100% of my love; you just tried to push away. You needed your freedom.. Now, i'm really giving you your 100% freedom back. I'm tired. I'm so tired...

Its time for you to be more independent. I need a long break from all this.

Really.. what happens in the future; who can predict?

PS: i cut my hair :

Alright off to bed now~ loves