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Saturday, April 4, 2009 11:54 PM

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( This is a post i typed last year )

Do i look gullible to you?

Thanks so much for making me suffer.
Thanks for making me feel like shit.
Thanks for everything you've done. Thank You.
Deep down from my heart i thank you for all you've given me.

Your intentions for coming back to me is jst because i grew up pretty huh?
I'm sorry to say but yr ex gf looks ugly, the one you desperately got because i rejected you.
Look at your ex before you say i am fat thanks =) oh before i forget LOOK AT yourself first.
(you got her as a replacement, you think i don't know? do you know how similar our name is? )
Even if you want a replacement pls get one that looks more like me, instead of jst the name and her attitude. -sry to the girl, don't mean to offend but you jst don't look as pretty as he bragged.

Don't you feel embarrased of youself? stealing other ppl's gf ; have sex with her and dump her. Just for replacement reasons? if you don't then you are the biggest jerk ever. I'm sorry but i feel disgusted with you. How old are you? 4mths later you tell me you love this 14 yr old girl you jst met? you love her or you jst want sex?

Don't talk as if you know me so dam well. Don't say sorry because you didnt dump me ; instead i left you. We were never in a relation anyways. Why bother saying who dump who?

Go AWAY. I don't wish to talk to you. Remembered me saying we could've met 5 years ago? i'm glad we didn't ! i even hope now tht i've never met you before !

Calling me for 3-5 hours is not fun. Its burning my ears. Moreover i no longer like/love you the way i used to. Given last time, i'd be so happy jumping with joy because you called ; maybe even tell the whole world. Now? if i can i'd hung up/not answer/run away.

Yeah i lied openly and told you i have a BF which i don't ; why ? are you jealous? - you don't need to give me an answer because i know you are. What is with the HAVE YOU GUYS HAD SEX? yes or no does tht matter? Don't act pure infront of me, it is so obvious tht you've had sex with millions of naive girls. Bare in mind i am not so cheap like you.

There is no IF i am your gf anymore.
I've given you the chance, you know i have.

You told me you wanted to wait 2 yrs for her.
Indirectly ask me to wait for you jst incase she doesn't want you.
What am i? back up plan? - sry to say this but, f*** off.
& 2 yrs? WHT 2 YRS HUH? you hardly survived 6 mths ! you cried because of her? you couldn't sleep? stop your lies !

I don't know what i actually see in you ;
you smoke,you speed,you go to clubs, you are short, you are ugly, you are skinny, you are an idiot, you are not smart and you are not even rich !"
Yeah, i was stupid. Maybe even blind then !

Thank goodness you didn't appreciate me then, because if you did i don't even know how to tell out to everyone that you are my boyfriend ; you embarrass me.

You love me now ; so?
I don't love you anymore i'm sorry, because loving you have been so last year.
and that would be the first and last time.
Yeah i look prettier now does tht matter? i am still me right? for all the actions you've taken you have never thought of the consequences before and now you think time can rewind? Time will never be rewind you can't make a choice over again. Once its gone it will be forever.

Goodbye.

Editted.

(2 years back)
This is how it started, and how it all ended.

Him: "hey, wake up dy?..."
Me: "no... baru ny wanna sleep"
Him : Har? sleep now? wht time gonna wake later?
Me : "10.30pm i guess."
Him: then what time you going out?
Me : going out where?
*pooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooof*
Phone no battery....

ding dong* You have 3 miss calls from 03-********

He's calling*
Me : omg so sry.. phone no battery.
Him: i guessed as much. Yar what time you going out dinner later?
Me: Eat dinner dy lor~ sis needa go back malacca so had dinner early.
Him: owh, i see.. you dun wanna wake up?
Me : just ny started to sleep. Just now bath den dinner liao~
Him: you sound so blur wei. *exhaleesssss*
*silence*
Me : hehe~ izit..
Him: yar~ i'll call you later okay? 10.30pm to wake you?
Me: why ar?
Him: wanna kacau you. hehe.
Me : Wanna kacau or you miss me?
*a looooooooongggg pause...*
Me: miss me izit??? O.O""
Him: uhmmmm......................
Me: Okay lar~ you going college now kan?
Him: yar. Going meet chics.haha.
Me: isit? i see...
*in a soft tune*
Him: no lar~ go group study.
Me: Okay ler~ you go bah.
Him: Just now at msn you said.....
Me: hmm? i said wht?
Him: erhm.. nvm lar you sound so blur.. i talk to you later okay?
Me: okay then~ bubye~~
Him : bye...

I was surprised when you told me you remembered my handphone number... you said it out damn fast! haha when i doubt you and you said. What?!?!?! wrong? Impossible! Correct lar! hahaha~ When you asked if i remember yours, i just kept quiet. You know i don't. =)

"You must remember my number!!!"
"if anything you must call me! remember that!"
"hun~ anything important i'll dial triple 9 lar. (999) handphone has your number! =)"

You are still waiting for her. And you love me. These 2 sentence is enough to end everything between us. I'm sorry over the complications that i've caused...i want you out of my life.

Things didn't stop here.

(2:01 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
hey!
(2:01 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
even iif you want me outta your life, i dun want wei!
(2:02 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
i don want!
(2:02 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
understand?
(2:03 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
why cant just let everything flows by it own?
(2:03 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
why you juz gotta stop everything?
(2:05 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
btw, i still owe you da biggest lollipop~
(2:05 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
gotta keep my words..
(2:05 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
one fine day i'll meet you up to pass you the lollipop..
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
maybe after your finals..~
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
during christmas shopping?
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
i dunno but i will..!!
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
btw, i'm going to malacca this saturday..
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
you need anything from there?
(2:07 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
if you do, hit me a offline msg k..!!
(2:11 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
one more thing, good luck for your papers later..
(2:11 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
and, i miss yea!

(2:24 AM) ♠~♥~☠ ♀~Th3 EnD™:
I know things won't work out, i know it all along but i was stupid enough to let myself fall. Don't you just get it i don't want it to happen anymore. Sometimes something is just beyond control. Even if we don't play with fire the feeling is there, it existed all this while. I want to stop everything because i can't handle it anymore.. things aren't going to work out. Its a fact!
(2:27 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
yeah, i know things wont work out but that doesn't mean i gotta be outta your life rite? i still want you in my life as smeone who is close to me y'knoe!