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Saturday, January 10, 2009 4:13 PM

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Yesterday nite i finally had the courage to throw the keychain.
Yes i threw it away... the keychain that kept everylittle bits of memories about us.
I threw it, and i didn't want to see you again. I'm sorry. I'm so so sorry. I know i shouldn't do this to you right now.. i know you needed a friend, you needed the care... but what is past remains there...
Even when i talk to you now, there is no more heartbeating moments, nothing special about you anymore. You're just someone i know for a very long time.
I remembered you say "it is yr loss"
Maybe it really is my loss, but i am not regretting. I guess you should move on too.

Thinking back how we've met, how we've became friends, and how we begun to fall in love still makes me smile. It is something i never wanted to admit but you were the very first guy that managed to hold my hands, and it is not something easy. You were the one tht held it for the longest. You were also the only one that i was so rough to, till i pulled yr hair yet you allowed it. You were also the hardest one to forget. Yet i managed to put you down. I'm proud that i nolonger hide the fact that you dumped me for no reason. I'm happy to be able to tell this tale bacause this simply means you're not someone important to me anymore. And thank you so much for giving me the answer that i was looking for these years, although most of them doesnt make sense. Even if you didn't want to tell me truth it is okay, thank you for lying to me.. it'll probably make me feel better. Everything doesn't matter now. Even if you tell me you regret what you've did..but i really don't regret what i've done.

Bye D.

I know the post sounded so emooo, but i'm not emoooooooo at all. :)
Finally i can let this matter lay in peace forever. ^^
I know how stupid it may seem to let go of this stupid relationship that last for such a short time
But it really took me that long...
And to some ppl tht might have got stuck inbetween the matter.. i'm rly sorry i wasn't moving myself to do such things my feelings moved itself.
SOOORRRYYY !!

Now i'm really like pressing the restart button on myself. haha