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As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . .
I will always keep falling in love with you.
Karen Clodfelder-

First things first,

Today morning i got my MSSD cert. So proud of it! LOLs my first ever sports cert !! You see i was never able to participate in anything that has anything to do wif sports in da past, so i will not get a cert.. & Finally had my first one today, and yes it was definetly an experience to remember =D

Nothing much happened in school today, we basically gossiped about things that happened on Saturday. Yeah she is soannoyinglawhtsherproblem ppl's friend wanna sibuk pulak kan?

& i changed my skin so everyone WILL not complain =D oh yes, i have alot more to update but as usual blogger sucked i cannot post pictures. ROAR. another day then.

You guys are so gonna kill me for putting this skin.
I have to agree it is quite hard to see...
But the skin is so cute, i can't resist putting it =)
Currently waiting for Euro Finals!! i wanna watch la!!!
Spain!! SPAIN!! SPAINNNN!!

Hmm, may you all bear wif my skin for a lil while longer before i change it. =)

& to this statement on wayne's blog

Oh, if you guys think I and Evelyn are couple or whatsoever, sorry to disappoint you. We're not ;) We are just close friend. Right, eve? x)

Damn true okay! We are jst really close friends that gossip abt anything haha! wayne your best-est friend o.m.g =X

And if everyone is my bf i will be so busy =P No doubt i am still looking for a cute(hot) & rich bf. But tak de la, so sad kan! T___T Wayne promised he'll find me one! (HAHAHAHA)

And to saikhong a.k.a Ivan ; i didn't only spray ppl okay?!?! maybe you shud have asked Wayne wad he say den oni we SPRAYED him nicely xP Plus i have permission to even strangle him ! spray him considered nice already~ =D

I skipped grading today. dang! my leg still suck i cannot throw kicks properly and Pathi cannot teach us properly! AND when Ashwini came i wasn't here because of my immobility! I hate this so baddddddddddddddddd.... i wanna go grading la. One belt behind now. UGH!

Tmr school start again. HOW CAN. i thought weekend jst started? hate school. hate my class. hate myself. hate my life. this sucks.

p/s: itseithersomethingiswrongwithyou or somethingissowrongwithme becausewearesonotnormalnow , maywegobacktowherewearealready?

Okay this blog is so lack of updates.

Yesterday it was SriAman's Hari K. It was worst compared to all the other years for me. Our stall sucked.

youdon'twannaknowwhy.

Anyways, i met Wun,WeiYang,Navin. Gosh they looked so different and weiyang is.... i think 6 foot tall! i have to jump to reach his height. He was indeed tallest in the crowd. And Navin still small,cute,babyfaced. *sigh* you know to think back i'd rather stay at KT. Those fun times together. 5yr in SriAman is really enough to drive me crazy.If you were to ask me.. truthfully I think I'll love co-ed school way more. Way more..

Wun finally found the girl he was DESPERATELY looking for.... AND yes Wun i jealous alr okay!! i want the present you gave her *criesoutloud !* teman-ed him so many hrs & he dare say i never talk to him! wad kinda nonsense is this man ! should have jst ditched him xP

They had flying fox, some "attraction" it seems. To me it looked dangerous, will never try it ! Other places i guess i will, but my own school nah. Yeah maybe the lack of confidence towards my own school ; which i don't at all find cluster.

My shift was amazingly... boring, because i was soo free... sitting down staring at you&me
but as usual i can never stand my own class being pathetic, i came up with some cocktail drink (was an experiment ) But turned out awesome! The colour was so cuteee~ Yeah indeed those drinks did good sales. Well, at least good sales for one shift but after i left godknowswadhappenedla.

During shift i saw wayne from far, called his name and he was deaf enough to walk even futher.
After shift lepak-ed with Ash,Wayne, Philip? (and wtv their names are idk) at canteen. Played with sprays and Wayne hurt his already HURT hand lol. Eh wayne, no part of your hands are in good condition ya know? =P Do you know how GOTHIC his gang looks? All black. & i was blended in coz i was in black too...

They left to lepak at 1u after that. And i went in Ghost Hse with Ling,shasha,mina,sudah,and (whoever it is). Mina was pulling my hands screaming like mad lady. -.-" While we were waiting outside dere something funny happened.

Stranger : Hey little kid don't push..
Small boy (abt 7yr old) : I AM TEACHER'S SON YOU KNOW!!!

LOLs. Me and Ling was laughing like mad. And we told him hey, we are students of this school you know?

and he went "LIAR LIAR PANTS ON FIRE" O.O"

and i asked him who's yr mum? -Pn Tan-

Her son is so adorable!!

After GhostHse i sneaked home. xP

-no pics taken because i was so lazy-

p/s: we saw something we are not suppose to THT day. mwahahaha. We all know wad we see don't we ? omighoshshe'ssonothot+abitugly. ( sry la not that i'm pretty or wht but her whole attire is jst not matched.. & her bf is jst ugly. laughsmyassoff. )

MSSD had finally come to an end. And i hurt myself. LMAO. Sprained leg. reason being, got jabbed while kicking ; body cannot adjust ; sprained and fell.

I was lucky enough to get four bleeding rounds.

Then i got some champion as my opponent from Puchong school. Aqeela got her as opponent when sparring for gold she got hurt also. Ended up with silver. SOBS.

That girl is so freaking ganas. -.-

i shall go upload the video on youtube when i'm free. Btw our school won 1 gold, 2 silvers, and 6 bronze. Would have expected few more gold's especially from tanisha and mun yee. But all got some pro fighters. So all became goners. For 2 weeks of training i think our performance was awesome! and yes it is definetly a very fun experience i am so in next year. =D

About my leg, yeah still sucks can walk abit better now, but i hate STAIRS! going up was good coming down jst sucks.

Today mark the worst day of school.

Had a big fight with ling shin. COZ OF THE FIRST AID KIT. nonsense i'm telling you.
Second, i carried 4 tables and 4 chairs each time we walked 500m up and down the stairs.
Next of it some idiot teacher accused us for PURPOSELY NOT ATTENDING PJ class.
Lastly, WE GOT SHIFTED TO THE VERY SIDE OF THE CLASS ROOM. *claps*
WE skipped BM coz of new tables. We skipped half of moral. We got scolded. Mr Hulam is abit mad at us. Pn Halimaton was mad at us. My class is jst a stupid class.

WHY AM I IN IT? i wonder.

Don't blame me for valuing my friends more than family.
Thanks to you guys ( you know who you all are =D) for making me stand up again. Asking me to hang on, telling me things i should do when i was thrown into the total darkness. At least friends helps when i;m abt to kill myself, unlike selfish ppl that sits there and watch you die ; Laughing.

Thanks many many Ling, Joyce, Hao ^-^

To people that made me cry & wanted to screw up my life sorry to disappoint you, this time you failed. I won't make you screw my life AGAIN. It will not happen for i am already immune to it happening over the years. I was being stupid to even cry for bleeding 3 hrs, waste of time and pity my own eyes. Btw, thank you for making me vomit at 12 pm yesterday, thanks so much for making me torture myself, thanks so much for all the yells and screams and threatens. It brightens my days so much than expected.

p/s : anti fishmongers. "ppl" who can go overseas pay so many S 11 to go arnd the world but "ppl" cannot give to their own child. You jst love it don't you ? Can you see how selfish they are ? I know all of you are reading my blog and let me tell you this, i don't give a damn if you see this. I am telling you right on your faces you all are just so bleeding selfish !

3 hours of crying is enough.
I don't care about her.
I don't give shit if she wanna stop my tuition coz its not gonna happen she will see wht actions i do when she does.
I won't let her screw my trials.
She can shut up.
I will treat her like she doesnt exist.
And when my results come good nor bad it has nothing got to do with her.
She's jst selfish in her own way.

GOODBYE!

its 12.20 am now..

I can't sleep at all, my head is aching as if its going to split apart. Why does this gotta happen every single year? yes i have to admit i have done badly for my mid terms. So bad that i myself can't really accept certain failures. I was trying my best to not let my emotions ccover me and you are all trying your best to let that happen. Congratulations you have done it!

I have no idea how am i going to continue my life anymore, i have no idea how can i still continue studying in my very unstable emotion. As i was sitting outside just now i started hurting myself with greatest shock i felt no pain. Sucidal thoughts is gushing thru my brains now.

I didn't ask to fail, i worked for it not fully but i worked you saw it. Why do you have to use tuitions to threaten me? why does it have to be like this all the time? why does it have to be my mum that doesn't understands me most? why does my sister have to be such an idiot to tell her when i am not ready. why does she like to play with my emotions?'

I can't help but compare why other ppl's parents are willing to pay 1k plus for their child and yet they still fail. Yet still their parents never gave up, they continue motivating the child, continued supporting. Why is my mum so different? why does she have to complain over the amount of money paid for 7 subjects? why does she likes to demotivate me? Why does she like to tell me how i cannot enter college. Or how she wont pay for my college fees?

This term i paid so much attention over my sciences but they failed me, i too am speechless. She saw me worked, she saw me studied not alot but i studied. Yet she have to do such things to me. I'm tired, so tired of this happening over and over again. I showed my phys paper to my teacher and he said my form 4 base is not strong, thts the reason i screwed the paper. He asked me to join his form 4 class, but knowing that my parents had to pay more i did not want to burden them, i did not go. I did not think aloud. And now this is what i get from my mum. She threw my books which i jst bought tht i havent even done, saying tht i never do workbook.

She blamed me for not studying over my poor results yet she saw with her own eyes i studied. She called me a liar for making empty promises; not realizing it was trials tht i aimed. I thought so much for my parents yet inturn they are doing such things to me. She asked to stop my tuition, she blamed my tuition teachers... she screwed my emotions. I should be studying for my trials now but she really screwed my whole life now.

I told hao i jst have a feeling i will screw my trials like how i screwed this exam, yes indeed i think it will happen and i know why. I'm tired of speaking to her because she will never listen to me. She said i kept results from her but i jst had full results today. I told dad about what i got, i did not hide. At least my dad understands, i already told him to not expect anything frm this exam, he accepted wht it is, why can't she?

I was shocked today my bio teacher actually said i improved ; better den last year, and she can see i worked hard for my paper. But i need to work harder to get A. Altough i did way worst den last time but at least she saw the effort i put in tht paper, that really helped me alot from crying away. Although i was really disappointed, no fail but i have never scored so low for biology before. I was also very glad that pn cheong wrote something tht really motivated me in my moral paper although i got only 45, from 65 i dropped because i screwed my essay.

I paid attention on 3 subjects and they all failed me. I can't help it either. I'm being blamed now, being demotivated. I think maybe i die then they'll be very happy you know? maybe this month end i will kill myself already since she will not allow me to go tuition why bother working hard anymore? why bother going to college, going 6 feet underground will be easier den she'll be happy i guess they all will.

Although i will miss my dad, my granny,my sis, my really good friends. I'd rather be a ghost, in heavens or hell den stay here and suffer. Moreover global warming is happening really fast its a matter of die now or later. my emotions are really screwed now, so screwed tht i wanted to jst die.

Even if i stab myself now i dun even think i can feel it, the numbness i am going thru now is jst intense. If anything happens to me, wtv that is left of me give them away to the needies, thats all i ask for, wtv u do to my dead body i don't care anymore.

Announcements

1) Blogger will be away From FRIDAY onwards until school reopens.
- Reason : ( going on a holidat to club med )

2) Blogger's blog will be covered with cobwebs,fungus, & collecting layers of dust.
- Reason : ( she has decided to stop blogging for a moment )

3) Check me back in 3 mths time. Hopefully i will be back.

4) I will miss all of you~

With Love,
Evelyn