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Tuesday, May 13, 2008 10:43 PM

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These days i have been thinking,
All the way back to primary school.
Till Secondary School.

Sometimes its just amazing, so amazing that i survived till now.

Primary school was still the best times of life. No worries, play all day, great results.

When time reaches secondary, things started to happen, friends, peer pressure, fake stories, family, guys, everything that had changed my life forever.

I still remembered how hard it was to have all the pressure on my shoulders. Worked so hard yet no one appreciates. The mind started to think the other way. And yes half of me was already in the bad side. I have seen so many things that all of you may never have known. Heard way more than i should have.

I should really thank god that he looked after me, even when i was bad... god didn't give up on me. It was more lucky that i know my limits, i know what lies ahead. I turned back & became a better person, knew the world better, know the people around me better & lastly i know my aim in life now.

Sometimes just the thought that uneducated people never cares about anything. All they know is enjoy life at it is. Money is never a problem because they'd somehow find all sorts of ways to get it. Pollution never comes into their mind wht not global warming. Love is love. They are minds are just so simple. & i am jealous. Jealous because they just don't care about anything in life, they aren't afraid of death.. not anything.

*sigh*

Why am i suddenly ranting about life this way ? why suddenly emo ? why suddenly think of such things ? no idea la. Just felt like typing something to ease my mind with many things in it now.

I am really glad with the change in my life. It really thought me alot alot of things. The world is not as safe as it seems. Before this i thought the world was really white. After all my experience i know how dark and black the world is. Not everything is brought to justice...

I really appreciate all my friends now. Really you have no idea how much i have to thank everyone of you to put m back into the lost pieces i used to be. Now that i am all complete thanks to each and ryone of you. I love you all many many. I just can't see the days without seeing you everyday. *sigh*