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Saturday, April 12, 2008 2:27 AM

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Break down for the second time of the year,
During the evening after telling everything to hao.. tears started to fall and fall... UGH!

I told him i wanted to sleep, so i went to my room sat on the bed wanted to sleep, but those tears just wouldn't stop, i cried till my tissue box was finished! then i just drop of to sleep, i woke up at 11.30, haih, guess wht! i have no idea why i just started to cry again, damn syte i swear! i got up watched tv, and tried going back to sleep like ryte now, oh no i can't sleep and i start crying again! damit

Why does all this syte gotta happen to me every damn year, why can't it just stop at the very one year, the most important year? Even if i don't go there and see them again, i'd still get to meet them, even if they'd disturb me wht can you do? the decision is on me! if i want to turn bad i would have already been bad! if i want to go sleep around with any guy i find i think i can! "all the friends that i make is bad" BOO HOO! sorry, maybe i am too nice that i don't descrimate others when i make friends! I make friends with anyone i want! Yes, i agree i have some friends who may be involved alot of bad things, but i still have friends that are really good at studies, friends that are really good at koko, martial arts, music and many more! I don't only have ONE friend or a few!

For your information if i am this bad why do you think i'm even worrying abt that THING NAMED SPM! if i am bad i won't even give a damn on it! IF I DON'T CARE ABT MY FUTURE I WON'T THROW SUCH THANTRUM WHEN YOU QUITTED MY A.MATH TUITION WITHOUT EVEN ASKING PROPERLY! IF I DON'T CARE ABT MY FUTURE I WON"T HAVE CRIED OVER MY MORAL MARKS! IF I DON'T CARE DO YOU THINK YOU'D CARE FOR ME?

I'm want to get what i aim for, why do you have to take everything important away from me? since young it has bbeen like this, can you please stop it already, i'm tired of crying! i'm tired mentally...... i'm really tired already................. so tired that i wanted to give up everything...

3am in the morning and i'm still crying.. something is just so wrong with me, either my endocrine system is not working well or wht, because dopamin isn't helping me! who can you actually find to chat with at such hours? how i wished my friends havent sleep yet. Sigh*