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Saturday, November 10, 2007 6:11 PM

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okay, as i was saying in my last post. Yes i was being emo again.. I have no idea why i just wanted someone to talk to and yes i picked yihao. Actually i tell him everything and since he know who is the ass i'll be talking about. Well the last time i mentioned about tht guy was 3+ months back. He shocked me by saying out his name. No mistake he just yelled it out " ****** ryte?"

O.O"

I was so surprised... well i continued with everything just talk n talk.. then he said i was being wise to make the choice. Who cares if he doesn't want to, i have the rights to make my own decision. He also said "if he met you was fate then wht u call us?". He totally made me speechless by saying that. Well you dun wanna know how i met yihao, its really special. =D It was both special & weird. Sigh. He said don't think of him just think of me. Talk to me and don't talk to him.

yh : tell him i more leng chai!
me : .....
yh : come let me talk to him =)
me : O.O" wht u gonna tell him?
yh : ask him shoo i more leng chai den him.
me : lols. speechless ald.

I really wonder if he have something with me. O.O"

So back to story.

Him : sorry i haven't been talking to you so much lately.
Him : working day and night.
Him: but no worries next week last ler. =)
Him : there?
Him : still watching movie ar?
Him : okay ler i gtg already. need to go work. Take care yea.
Him : hugzzz
Him : Bye.

I was there is just that i didn't wanted to reply and i said i went watch tv. It really is a pain, but i really have to do it... its the 3rd time i'm saying it to myself i really want it to be the last. No matter how many tears drop, how my heart bleed i really want to stop it. I really really love you, really really want to be with you. Really really want you to love me back. Really really want you to love me like the way you loved her. But like you say

"i want you but i can't have you"

8Th which is deepavali, i can't go to keerth's open hse special thanks to my maid. If we're not mistakken she went out in the middle of the nite the other day and we caught her. Then sis don't allow us to leave grams alone in the hse. And we cant leave the house unattended since parents aren't around. So i had to sacrifice... Sigh*

Like usual today he left me a message, i didn't reply him at all. He just asked if i was there. I don't think things will go back the way it is anymore because i can feel that you are fading, because i want you to.. the strong feeling towards you grew weaker. The telepath between us failed. Illusions scattered.

"Always rank love last because it always fails itself"