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Tuesday, November 13, 2007 12:22 AM

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May called me today, this morning. While i was asleep we talked for a whole 30 min. She seemed real sad . And she lied to be again. I am not too sure but i think she is lying because she know i'll scold her. You all might think best friends don't lie to each other.. yes they don't but she lied so that i won't get worried of her. She said everyone ditched her that day when she was back. Sigh* i really don't know what to say anymore. I can't honestly tell her they are that kinda ppl. Forever will be eventhough how much we try to change them they'll still be the same.

I miss ky. Really really miss his cute face. really really miss his bling blings. Li guan didn't sms me anymore after i said that i was real busy the other day. Guess he found sai-b to talk to. They all fall apart just like that. I can't help but just comfort one by one. I hate to see them all like enemies now. Big Big Sigh. From a big group they split into two smaller ones. From two smaller ones they split again. And again. Sometimes i don't even bother to talk with them anymore.

Chee hau still love me. Why? I am not so attractive after all. Just me fat and ugly. We just won't happen. Even if you threathen me that you're gonna die right now i don't even care. Because i don't love you at all. Last time You forced me to be with you. And i honestly have the last straw of it when you tried possesing my life. Everything i say you won't listen and stuffs that you say i have to? comeon you really got to get your own life.I can't even drink milo at night wtf is wrong with you? Even my dad don't say a word about it. Your reason was because its fattening. Just shut up lar k. I wanna be fat my wish ryte? you don't have a control over it. Calling me 5-6 hours ain't call loving me. Get it? Asking me to sleep earlier yet you the one that don't let me sleep because u wanna talk to me. Ugh! enough~ that 2 weeks was TORTURE. Being with you is pure torture. Being mad at you because you lied & getting 50 miss calls on my damned phone isn't what i wanted. Summore you dare to come ask me give you another chance? NO WAY. i think i'm way too freaked out to be with you. Please don't use childish ways to get to me like asking my bff about my whereabts and likings. Because you will not get another chance from me. You know we are from to different worlds i can't accept a guy that is uneducated. Say all you want that i'm money minded or shallow but seriously its not like i don't want to try is because we don't even click. He can't understand half the things i'm saying. All he's good at doing is waste money. You think i'm gonna walk my life with this kinda ppl? think again i won't. I said you are childish last time when i broke with you is because i don't wanna really tell the fucking truth to hurt you so bad. So you came to me now talking real less and telling me you are les childish? no you are not. Honestly you are not. You say yes you think about your future but just god damn it you won't change. A fact. Always one. Thank you and goodbye. I maple or not also not your problem anymore.

Why izit just so hard for a guy encourage me in studying & doing hmw's? yet they say i always study always do hmw not good blablabla. Then when i play the comp. They'll say i always online go study lar this and that. HELLO! my life ryte? i study you don't let, i online you don't let. What you want me to do? talk to you on the phone 24/7 till my ears explode? Seriously fuck off.

NO WAY i'm getting someone like this EVER. i really cannot stand it. I'll die.

Yes back to story. Sigh i derno wht to say with that lady of mine. She'd better not miss her spm next year or you'll hearme shout like some mad lady. =.= she's probably real mad at me for not wishing her on her birthday =X i don't have time okay... & i forgotten lar.. my fault too. Haih~

Ah ling ling's birthday is coming. =D lols the plannings are all sorta screwed. Kayteee gathering is still on planning.. I GUESS O.O"" will ask chan ASAP ^^.

Mumi & Dadi is back from beijing . YAY fooooodddddd & lotsa lotsa chocolate to make me fatter.
Yesh not a very good thing though.

I am thinking of deleting this whole blog thingy. But i don't wanna lose those sweet memories. But i just wanna delete some stuffs. But i don't wanna delete those stuffs. ARGHHH! i sound insane i know. I am contradicting my own thoughts. T.T

Okay its back to him him him and HIM! today out conversation is brisk and SHORT. because i barely speak. I mean... i just don't know... i just... ugh!! i don't think the feeling is there anymore. The "kamching" thingy.. Okay i didn't talk to yh today. And i miss him. I don't know why i was actually looking for yh's name rather then mel's O.O

i am too shocked. Maybe its realy fun talking with yh because he can make me laugh so hard. ^^ and its really nice travelling around with him in maple. And eos tower is our memory. And to my sec sis info he is not my ah boi lar... And btw i'm in a fight with Jo. Ugh ask him why lar. =.= sold his precious acc for rm 200. So not gonna freaking talk to him at all! Why i'm mad because we have so many many many memories there. Okay to him is sad memories. But still he is such a stupid boy..... i miss him already =.= miss bullying him. Haha!

I changed my guild to miuchi. Because i wasn't MADE jr in purpleclove which i don't like. Sorry yo! Miuchi is real nice & i met another melvin of all names, melvin is the one. -.-

Me : lols!!! his name also melvin!
Yh : who? WHT melvin play maple???!?!?! where!
Me : nonono.. i mean babyblessings name is also melvin from sg
Yh : LOL! so many ppl name melvin i must name myself kelvin.
Me: Zzzz F7. LOL

Haha! since he doesn't have an english name so yar. Kelvin is a nice name for him. =D kelvin chow yi hao! not bad not bad! yar i like calling him HAAAAOOOOOOO better ^^

HAOOOOOOOO , HOWWWWWWWWw, HOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAA

hahaha!! all his nicks =.= when i ask him how he say i call his name. When i call his name he say i ask him how. Zzzzz hoa was typo budden it became "HOOO AAA" (good arrr) in cantonese.
=D

Perhaps starting of a new love life? noooo wayy... =.=