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Saturday, November 17, 2007 8:42 AM

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"I stare clearly out the sky and look for a meaning... i couldn't get any."

Yes i got thrown into 5SC. 5 SCIENCE CEKAP. Which is a mediocre class it seems. Those fucked up people had always been saying "we're streaming you next year" even since like the first day of form 4. And yes they did not even fucking stream.

So many people got to A and B. Which they do not even deserve! Yes they don't. People that never bothered what classes meant for them. All they cared about is bf'sssssssssssssss. Yes they got into the class that i wanted to be in. The class that i have been praying for. The class that i studied for. Something that made me moving. Something that i had sleepless nights for. Something that i cried for.

As the morning come. I rushed to the board to see my name listed 5SC and i heard Ling shouted i got 5SC... Then i raced to hug her. At least i thought it was based on streaming. SC ain't such a bad class after all... Not till i saw some names in SA and SB which is so.... NOT RIGHT. Then i saw shumi's name in 5SC i was in a total shock. I can't believe my eyes that they did not fucking stream and just simply chuck people into their classes. And they rate 5SA and 5SB a better class. Owh even their classes have more people that SC and SD. Guess how many our class have yes ONLY 20 ppl and SD only 18.

Yes is because of my skin colour, that i got thrown into such class. The skin colour plus a little of that bad luck sticking on to me. I got to that fucking pathetic class. They just simply sorted out our names and put us in our class. A and B with more students.

Why can't they just leave is in peace? WHY? can't they just stop that streaming thing and put us back into the same class? they class that i loved so much and now its only left the 3 of us there. Yes i won't be seeing charl, keerth, chan, tarsh, jan, fifi, hema, sab, diane, amal. One whole bunch of it... i will be separated from. I won't have anyone to be there for me when i break down from stress. I won't have them supporting me. I won't hear keerths and amals lame jokes. I won't anymore.

I really couldn't cry... i just couldn't... maybe i thought what would it be like to shumi to get into this class. Although i didn't work that hard for it... but i guess she did and she does deserves somewhere in A.

And next year we'll probably be getting "those teachers".

So much for everything but in return i got nothing.

Yesterday after that stupid class thing that brought us such a big impact we just sat at the gazebo and chatted for 6 hours. I guess it was the first time i chatted with steph =D i was never close to nor knew her well. So yes, me,hema,jill,charl,steph,jo yen, and darsh sit there for 6 hours and started yapping like nobody's business. Because its the last day of school we have nothing else to do.

It would be my last day to call myself a 4SB-ian..... The last day that i see my 4SB class... the last day i look at my desk....... the last day i sit with my desk mate (hema)... the last day of being with all of them... and next year will be nothing but a disaster.

PS: i'm busy till school reopens. My apologies for not replying at msn or anywhere.