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Wednesday, October 24, 2007 2:09 PM

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YES THE GUY I LIKE SMOKES SO? If you don't know him then phuck off. SMOKING doesn't makes him bad! fucking ppl that descriminates! The reason why the world is full with smokers are because of idiots sissy's like NIGEL wtv his fuckingfull name is i don't give a damn, that descriminates ppl. Oh-so-wht he smokes? he's at his LEGAL age to do so. You haven't even MET my mum before so don't pretend that you have. I think you haven't even seen my dad so shut the heck up! Proton saga is still a car! If you are oh-so-fucking rich FYI the money is your parent's and not yours think before you speak. Use a little of your pathetic retard pea brains.
I can't catch up? watch my A come home loser! Don't be so childish next time. Would anyone use their own name and say themself a bitch or a whore? Get alive! I brag? why not say you boast? *laughters*

*breeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaathhhhhhhhhhhhh*

Teach me what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~!!! I shouldn't even have replied him. My stupid effing itchy hands.
(figure out yourself whu is me & whu is the other half)

(3:13 PM) ♠~♥~☠ ♀~Th3 EnD™:
I am sorry for being childish. If you think i am. Be friends? do you seriously think everything will work out? Let me tell you the ending. I'll leave you one more time, and this time everything will be worst. It has happened before and i'm not going to let it happen again. If i am not thinking, I won't walk away. Honestly. Now we'll both be happy, i can find a new guy and move on with my life and you can continue waiting for her. I want you out of my life because only this way i can have you forgotten. I'm just not you, i don't hug the past and live my life. I move forward because i hate being stagnent. Just before i want you totally out of my life, remember what you said before about stopping smoking.Every guy says they need a girl to help them stop but seriously speaking that is just a reason for ya'll to continue shortening your own life span. Holding on to the past is your strength,yet your weakness. Don't lose it because it is what that makes you special & also your big heart.You always act like a meaner but deep down in you,all you cared about is others yet not yourself
(3:14 PM) ♠~♥~☠ ♀~Th3 EnD™:
i really should stop ranting already. Its time to go, its the last time you'll see my message. Bye.

Session Start: Wednesday, October 24, 2007
♠~♥~☠ ♀~Th3 EnD™~♀ ☠ ♠~♥~ᇅ -I walked under the rain&i looked up into the sky givin a vague smile.Gah!i can't get u out of my mind
♫♣:[>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋŧ^кїļļă™»-ride for life, thug luv till we die- killabeeCREW-moodless.killafornia(ci)爱♣♫

(1:54 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
hey~
(1:54 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
if you know that i care for you, then why want me outta your life?
(1:54 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
i juz cant take it wei..
(1:54 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
it happened like, a blink of an eye..
(1:55 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
lemme tell you why everything just wont work out
(1:56 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
one, lets say if me and you seriously work things out, things wont be easy cuz in my mind, there she is! i cant be with you when my mind is thinking of someone else ..
(1:56 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
2nd, the distance between me and you is like, far apart!
(1:56 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
haihz~
(1:57 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
you'll leave me again and i'll pray that you'll come back again but this time, we're frens..
(1:57 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
make sure we dun play with da lil fire!
(1:57 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
WE both happy?
(1:57 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
well, i'm not happy as you think i am now~
(1:57 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
i just lost a close close close gal fren of mine yesterday~
(1:58 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
just one phrase, everything changed!
(1:58 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
you want me outta your life so that you could forget me?
(1:58 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
if its like dat, then why in da first place, you got that younger guy as your bf?
(1:59 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
its kinda cheating on yourself rite? and i suppose you know how it felt to be cheating on your ownself when there is another guy on your mind that time..
(2:01 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
wats with this phrase, "Just before i want you totally out of my life"??
(2:01 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
hey!
(2:01 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
even iif you want me outta your life, i dun want wei!
(2:02 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
i don want!
(2:02 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
understand?
(2:03 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
why cant just let everything flows by it own?
(2:03 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
why you juz gotta stop everything?
(2:05 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
btw, i still owe you da biggest lollipop~
(2:05 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
gotta keep my words..
(2:05 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
one fine day i'll meet you up to pass you the lollipop..
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
maybe after your finals..~
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
during christmas shopping?
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
i dunno but will..!!
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
btw, i'm going to malacca this saturday..
(2:06 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
you need anything from there?
(2:07 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
if you do, hit me a offline msg k..!!
(2:11 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
one more thing, good luck for your papers later..
(2:11 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
and, i miss yea!
(2:11 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
-dead-
(2:24 AM) ♠~♥~☠ ♀~Th3 EnD™:
I know things won't work out, i know it all along but i was stupid enough to let myself fall. Don't you just get it i don't want it to happen anymore. Sometimes something is just beyond control. Even if we don't play with fire the feeling is there, it existed all this while. Whats wif me and my ex now I didn't brk up of him coz of you, honestly i didn't. I want to stop everything because i can't handle it anymore.. things aren't going to work out. Its a fact!
(2:27 AM) ♫♣>~♀♂˜«ŝĩļĕŋ:
yeah, i know things wont work out but that doesn't mean i gotta be outta your life rite? i still want you in my life as smeone who is close to me y'knoe!

ARGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH~~~~~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
why even bother answering him. why even bother replying his message. Why when i say its the last message yet i replied. WHY evelyn! you know very well what he say he'll do kinda guy. You know you should leave him from the start. You know this day will come. Yet you was just stupid enuf to............. GAH!!!

Its the first day without you. Its 2 days till exams are over. It is 2-3 more weeks till holidays are here. 2 weeks till open day. It is 5 months till i am 17. It is almost 1 year till SPM is here. I screwed up chem paper 1. All the answers is so fucking close. I tried my best to pick the best, but i doubt the best was really the answer. KILLME.

Even if it is only 1 day and 13 hours without you it felt like a year. Why 3 months felt like 3 years. I shall let god decide things from now..... if it rains by 12am today....... then.......

haih~ the sun was shining!!! please don't rain... don't.................... just don't... how much my heart wants it to be different.. i still don't want it to rain...
I hate you for keeping all your promises. I don't want you to keep your promises. I don't want the biggest lolipop anymore. I want to send my simcard to the dump site. I want to delete and block you off msn. I want to block you from fs. I want to treat you like a stranger. I don't want you to be my stupid 'hunny buns' anymore. I don't want to be your 'sweetie' either... I hate tearing my own heart apart,but i don't want you to do it so i had to... i hate shattering my own illusions. Next years mooncake festival i'll remember you, next year merdeka i'll remember you exist, this year christmas i'll take my phone and type a message to you yet i won't send it. I want to delete your number away from my phone. I want you to be a complete stranger! someone i've never met before. BUT I CAN'T! I CAN'T DO IT.