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Tuesday, October 23, 2007 1:43 PM

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The rain really is telling something.
Maybe we just have to be apart.
The fate in us is just not enuf.
We were suppose to meet 2 years back.
However we only ended up with each other this year.
Its fate that brought us together and its my pick to leave you.
My head hurts when i think of you.
Its just the end of you and me.
I'm sorry that i will not pick up your calls nor answer to your sms-es anymore.
I just can't bare to have you with me and not falling for you.
I know i can't love you.
Please don't be selfish, you know if we continue you won't be the one feeling the pain.
I will be the one.
It is best if i end it now.
We both carry some pain and get it over with ASAP.
I am not that important to you afterall. Honestly you don't need to care about me, even if i'm dead.
I want to be someone you regret forever. I'm sorry, i'm just being selfish. I am self centered.
At least let me leave something on you although i can't be with you. I promise you will have a place in my memory. Maybe not in first place but its definetly second. I know i will be your second too, i know who is your first...
I am sorry if you want to call me childish go ahead. At the end you will know i am not.
Even if we are still friends, having me avoid you... you'll still feel descriminated. Why the trouble when we can end everything just like this.
Maybe some day later i'll meet you around the streets, then we can truly be friends again.

" treat you like my bestfriend, or maybe something closer."
"don't you understand? i want you but i can't have you!"

Ys i understand mr selfish. I really do.
It is still you being a stupid fool. Always looking for the past yet not the future. I guess you are right. Maybe you just can't have me anymore because i'm moving on with my life without you in it! You can stay there forever. Hugging your stupid past that you love so much. It is your weakness yet your strength. Well, at least i am assured to have you hold on to me as your memory forever. I'm glad i picked to leave. When the sun can finally shine out, it means that i won't move back to be with you anymore. I'm too tired of waiting, too tired of hopingm, too tired for drawing the picture, and lastly. Goodbye.

"It takes more than loving each other to be together"

I find that stupid.