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![]() My Name Is E.v.E 18 Candles Blown on 18th March 2009 Have been a college student since 5th January 2009 Currently studying in Taylor's Lakeside Before this was studying in INTI SJ Contact: evelyn_yap@live.com LOVEs
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Everything Worth Wanting~To be a millionaire at a young age To be successful a PSP Loose many kg's! CRAPPINGs
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Adeline.YAi Sha.S Aisya.Y Amal Angie Angeline.Y Atheera Ashwin Briged Bestari Cacing (mandrin) Chan.K.M Chandraysh(twin) Charmaine Chooi Fun. Y Chui Man.C Daisy Damien.K Daryl.C Ee Von ~Ethan~ Family Blog Fu Sheng Gary Grace Hannah HsuYi Ilham Ivan.C Janielle Jerrard Jill X.Jong1 X.Jong2 Joyce (UNreopened) Kenny Kenny Sia Laksh Ms. Azrin Nabila Nadhirah.B Nicole.S Pei Min. C Penny Pet Positive Pn Chris Pn Su Priscilla Purple Clove Renee Saleha Sam Sam Tan Sara Sheren Sheryn.C Shing Chye.L Storm G Thomas Wayne.C Wee Yan Wei Han.L Xr Yen San.C Zack Zoe MEMORIESs
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![]() As we grow older together, As we continue to change with age, There is one thing that will never change. . . I will always keep falling in love with you. Karen Clodfelder- Tuesday, October 30, 2007
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Hey ryone! i'm back from my malacca trip! i was fun FUN FUUUUNN!! we had lotsa fun eating dere. Haha! gained loads!!! We forgot to bring camera dere so yeah just simply ny took some pictures wif my phone cam =) i'll upload it ASAP. Btw, putu piring taste delicioussssss!!~~!! chendol's and abc dere is fantastic. Satay celup is ermm.. gulp.I'll nvr return lar. Haha. But my sis1 n aunt sorta liked it. xD School was a dread today. THANK GOD no results ^^. But i had to run around like some idiotic freak to collect langsirs aka curtains from classes. And those freaking juniors left their stuffs just like that at the stupid gallery and watched ppl do yoga. WTF? Stupid mel and yi hao kept on rubbing it in by saying wht results you got today?!?!?!?! it was the first thing they asked after saying hi. See how mean can your oh-so-called best guy friends be? uh-huh a bunch of meaners. Yi hao kept on rubbing in saying i ate alot and i gained needa go on diet, and i can't attract cute looking CHINESE guy because i eat alort. What is wrong wif that subang cave boy. I was the one bullying him all this while. NO FAIR! Mel, i'm not of age to go to that rave-trance, super cool suffling thing okayy. Dun make it like a pain on the arse for me or i swear i'd smack you! just wait till i meet you. HONESTLY i will. Damn i'm reading this book, 'sticky fingers'. Its so freaking addictive! seriously. I can't get my eyes off it. Everyone seems to be attracted by the front cover which is this guy kissing a girl and you can sorta see his boxers. That guy have this sexy back. Serious sexyyy!! owh and i bought another meg cabot book. OMG! sunway's popular rawks. Seriously i feel like shifting that whole blardee shelf back home.But yeah only bought one book. If not i'd have my ears fall down over the usuals "you still have toones of books that you haven't read blablabla story". Hello. you expect me to pick back up an enid blyton book to re-read or wht? course its all read. LONG ago. Mel's sleeping like ah-pig after malacca, guessed he danced like crazy dere. Fool. I can't get in there and dat fool is boasting about him getting to drive this toyota hilux[course not his, his friends bro's]. LOSER. I'm not envious. NO NO NO. I am NOT. okay i have to admit i am. =.= Stupid fool. Yay! i'm gonna look for work since it is so hard for my parents to jus FORK out a lil cash to let me learn driving. So wtv it is i don't care, i'm working then i'll have this over their ears for the years to come. " owh you paid for my sister's for 'their driving lisence' even when she failed! and i have to earn it myself". Let me try working? you seriously derno the hard work i've been thru at school especially when that stupid technician ain't hired yet. I don't think i needa TRY. DM my aim. Course i dun think i'll go work at McD's i mean, comeon. So if you don't fetch me there i'm gonna walk. Since petrol for you is oh-so-expensive.I'm not changing my mind over joining olah raga. I've never once got support from my family over what i do. Wrong nor correct. Nothing is, wow i'm proud of you. Everything is a No. No. No. No. is just how they put it. In this years i've grown to not care of what they say anymore.Course i do give allowance to thier doubts but i've always proved it wrong. 3k was an example. Briged was one either. If i think back, all this while they never knew i was good at sports. Probably i didn't even exist in their mind. All they know is oh i am bad at academics. Hell yeah i am. Cause i never put in effort. HAHA! gotta admit that. I was have never once gotten ANY support from them. I remembered this one year i think it was in form 2 or 3, i got into long jump as reserve or something. LOLS imagine long jump reserve & i was stamina-less didn't even go for training. I was utterly shocked over that pick. But i had to nicely reject my teacher having her asking me WHY AREN'T YOU GONNA COME ONE THAT DAY? i had to say my mum didn't allow. She was asking why your mum dun allow and nonsense. I just kept quiet. It is all that i can do. Seriously, i don't even know the reason why she don't let. Always when i bring this up to my granny she'll say oh your mum's just caring she didn't want you to get hurt and all. Why not keep me in a box? such an unreasonable reason. I can cry anytime when you just say back things that happen during form 3. It was my breaking point... seriously. I was so stupid to have let idiotic family problems get in my way. Friends of mine that they never approve. Saying that i kept everything secretive. Hey, you don't expect me to tell you oh my friend smokes do you? Not telling you is because i know how your reaction will be. I think that year, the friends i was with, I learnt alot. Friends you say are bad, Yes they are. And i know why they don't change. They can't change me either because i am who i am. I don't get talked into things easily. Plus i'm never attracted to cigarettes. I've gone through real hard times with them . And you might not know how much i know the world now. Maybe its not just about how long you've lived in da world. Its about the exposures. Sometimes don't you just think, why do you want to bring me to other countries? honestly I don't need those kinda things. All i am asking for is just a little more attention on me. Which i get alot less compared to all my other sisters. How long it has been since i talked about school at home? You can always argue that i have this fucking attitude problem thingy. The problem is with all of you! its always me me me me me haven't you think about yourselves? Look since the last time we've really went out as a family was god know's when. I don't even remember! see how bad it is? In Form 3 i hardly get out of the house. HARDLY. my only escape was tuition. I am banned from the cyber world. So tuition was my ONLY escape, it was my pleasure, entertaining times, happy times. I wasn't like that in the earlier of the year. I was good at tuition. I was still perfect even when i left. Although more talkative. But i no longer do any self study because i think it is damn useless. Even when i almost aced every subject all i get is nothing. PLAIN nothing maybe not nuthing, i think i got bunch of scoldings. Why care to even study anymore? yes you can keep on saying i'm stupid , studying is for MY future not yours. But hey, every kid/teen studies to get a lil more praises and attention. Rewards. You know it makes difference. It does. My dad knew something was wrong with me that time. He just knew it but he didn't say a word. He even knew why, but he just didn't take any action into fixing it. I've learnt something over there. Treat them invincible, work for my goal and get out of here ASAP. I don't understand why you can spend thousands over some dead things rather than some money on your kids? You banned me from going out of da house, that'll be okay if you'd bring me out. But no you don't so hello. Do you seriously think i'd be nice to STAY in? then think again. When you find out you just blowww. I did that on purpose. Seriously don't say i'm bad okay. I asked you said no. You made me miss my fav show over da cinema. You made me miss a chance to be with my friends that i hardly will meet in a years time. You made me give up on camp. You made me give up everthing that i really wanted. You can be a skater when you were young, you can be hse capt when you were young. & your kids can't. What reason is that? Skating is expensive etc etc needa bring you there and stuff. I feel really discouraged all this years. Especially, 'wht hse practice'?. Go also no use. Yeah no use. I naive-ly thought it was last time. I loved sports, but never had a chance to acheive anything over there because all my sisters NEVER had an interest in it. That doesn't mean i don't. How many times i felt to just jump out of the road and get hit by a car, die and leave a name. No to driving because it is expensive. What sorta reason is that? i just don't get what's wrong with them. Fine. I honestly don't want to bother anymore. If i can, i even wanted to pay for my own stuffs because i hate depending on them. I just don't like it. I don't like the way they put things. They way they say i take everything for granted. FYI, i don't. It is not the way I look at you, is the way you make me look at you. You can't scare me over how terrible is the world outside because i've already seen it. I'm always a kid in your eyes that'll never grow up huh? i wished i never would too. The fact is that i'm already 17 next year. one year and 5 months more i'm 18 which means i'm legal to alot of things already. There is nothing wrong with way i dress. I just wanted to look pretty like all the other girls do. I hardly even wear makeup because you all say i look old, but hello every teen now looks like this. I want to have nice clothes too, i hate those lil kiddy clothes. I take a handbag is because i want to put my purse,hp,tissue anything a girl's hand bag should have. Because i am tired of fitting every of this in the stupid small pocket. It ruins my jeans and making me uncomfortable. I don't look like 26. I can never have anything i wanted because i am never given shopping money. i can buy things when i'm with you? Yeah i can, but when will you bring me out with you? i'm always that forgotten one, coz i can't drive i'm too young for this & that. Dad, honestly.. even when you look back at all those pictures, you said i look taller more grown and all. It is time to actually have me walk by myself. I'm just going to the bookstore to stare at books which i can't afford. Can't you just let me? i have a cell phone, you can ring me up to just ask me where i am! The bookstore doesn't have LEGS to run away. [sigh] They always say i nvr loved my family. If i don't love it, i bet you it won't affect my PMR. All this family things won't even get into my head. My best times was during tadika. I never had nice teenager memories. I pick to erase it all. Erase everything like it had never existed. |