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Tuesday, October 23, 2007 6:21 PM

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Hey its already been 16 hours.
I still wonder if you'd miss me because i'm already missing you.
I can't ring you up, i can't sms, i can't talk to you, i can't leave you any messages.
It is just so hard...

Fate stay night.

This anime is so like us. We'll still have to go alone altough everything is cleared. After all those tears and laughters... we'll still be apart. Its like you are from the past and i'm from the future. We cannot be together. Or maybe you're just too stubborn and to afraid to take the risk.
Honestly, i am afraid to but i'm daring to take the risk because then i'll have something to tell myself. I took the courage to actually try it, even if it doesn't work it won't matter.

"Believe yourself eventhough all men doubt you"
"but put allowance for their doubts too"

You remember my favourite song, you know the time i sleep and wake, you are always there with me, you cared about me, you mess with me, you give in to me, you'll call me sweetie....

Nothing have yet to start and it all came to an end. It is a pity. As long as i have this word i'll be happy enuf.

I love you.

This is all i wanted to know all this while. I finally have you admitting it. I'm happy with that but..... its going to be the end of you and me.

I know you so well that i have half your family members phone number too, i know you too deep that i need to let you go to stop hurting myself, my heart broke with everyword i told you this morning and just now. Your heart was broken into 2 pieces.. mine was like glass.. so fragile that it scattered. How much it is scattered, there was a feeling that i don't want you to pick it up and stick it back anymore.

*screwed up, one by one! you left me unexplainable~

Yes. You screwed up everything! you screwed us up real bad. Hey, everyone's gonna start walking out of your life if you continue staying being stubborn. You know something that takes a miracle to happen, and you still wish for it. I understand now why you ask me to wait for you.... 5 years? Maybe i'll not. Mel, let me tell you this. You are so selfish. All you think about is yourself. What if she really comes back to you. What'll happen to me then? Won't everything be worst. Till then i'll probably slap you and never talk to you again. It really is better that i do it now... at least we'll still have each other