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Wednesday, October 3, 2007 10:50 AM

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160Th Post.

I need to work towards what i aim for. I need to. Its going to be a very long journey. A very hard one. I need to be strong.

I am not ready to fail. I am not ready to get terrible results home. I am not ready to leave and walk towards form 5. I am not ready for this. I am not ready for exams. I don't want this!!!!! if i can i would love to undo time and bring myself back to the beginning of last year. I want to re-sit my PMR. I want to retake my form 4 march test, mid term and august.

I really can't believe it that i am turning 17 next year. I want to go back to kindergarden where all i do is just play, light studies, eat, and sleep. I want to walk back in to KT as a standard 1 kid.
I want to undo time and fix all of my past mistakes. If only that can happen.

I also want to fix all of those broken friendships. Those little kiddy fights. Fights that made me lost one of my best friend. The only friend that have known me that well. When she lose someone dearest to her all i did was being me, my selfish nature. I did not even ring her up... nor did i apologized. It was just because of some little things that we are no longer friends. Meeting her now its like we have drifted so far and its definitely understandable that she don't feel like talking to me anymore. I have no idea what happened to her all these years... i miss going to her house, i missed it so much.

During my last year in KT i met great friends. Friends like Jill, Pris, and Nic. Altough all of them have been friends since years back and i've only join in then. Still i think its one of my best times. Altough we fought because of some stupid reason & we've hated each other since. All i wanted to say is i'm so sorry if i have ever said or did anything that hurt anyone of you. =) Well, maybe fate brought is all back together, we all share the same school.

Just how nice will it be if i can undo everything. Erase my memory~ I am so afraid~~~ i am afraid to step into year 2008. The year of SPM. The year i leave high school. The year that i am able to drive. The year that.... all the changes happens. The year that i have to make wise decisions... the year that may change my future.........................

& who says i'm gonna get married at the age of 17? No way~ Don't expect me to even get married until i am 25+ I am not ready to give up my life being single and unattached! I am a girl that hates being tied down.

Okay i think i crapped way to much in one day~ i better go get some sleep before i die in tuition later!