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Saturday, September 8, 2007 10:54 PM

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Life's wonderful these days ^^
Everyone around me and all. Everything is so going my way. They way it all used to be. I just loved it. Finally all the good things are back. Somehow i kept looking back at the past, i don't know why.. maybe i just wanted to remind myself how horrible my life used to be & never take a wrong path to return. Letting history repeat itself is not a choice. Its not gonna happen. I'll never let it. I don't ever want to suffer again. Going through once again~i don't think i can pull thru.

As i looked back to the past yesterday, tears rolled down my eyes. Its not anything big, but the way it hurt was just so bad. It did a bad damage on me. Sometimes i think the pain is just so unbearable.

The way it all happened, is just so fast. I still remember how we used to tease each other not to fall in love, until we are deeply in love....... then it just all faded away. Sometimes i doubt myself if you've ever loved me. Or is it infatuation? maybe just a crush.

It is like making me come into your life and kick me back out. I was just so lost that time. I just lost my directions. I don't knoe who i can turn to, for you are always the one i go to if i have any problems. You left me just like that without turning and looking back. & i still have to love you.
Maybe those years we've been together, those happy times, those times when you called me. When i cried to you over the phone over some stupid guy. Its all gone now. Gone forever~ do you knoe how much i hated you? yet... i still can't put you out of my mind even when it happened some time ago.

*sigh* i always say let the past be the past~ its easy to forget him~ yeah i did~ let him go yet he'll somehow flow back. Memories can't be wipe off so easily. Our brains are like thousands of CPU. The storage is much larger than the computer so is the functions. The only difference is, in a CPU files can just be simply deleted by a click of the mse. On your brains it don't work that way. It stores in there forever~ it keeps in there for a life time.