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Friday, August 10, 2007 10:40 PM

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My results sucked.
Shuddup and don't ask why.
Everyone say i improved. Yes i agree wif dat but its still much lower than i have expected.
It is anyhow still my fault for making blardy stupid mistakes.
did u knoe wad i put for 6 x 1 ?
equals 1.
I am speechless about myself when i see it i nearly tear my exam sheet.
Owh and i happily confused myself wif my opposite and adjacent therefore.
From cosine i put it as sine.
Making everything wrong from part 1.
FUCK!
my add math from an A become B dam bugger.
78 became 66. SHIT!

I was suprised! =O my "angry teacher" nvr scold me but said i met his target haha! xO
Thanks for Congratulating me newayz. ^^

Sigh* looking at my math paper is a total vomitblood case. Was expecting it to be 90. Now the max also 85. SHIT! all those countless blardy hellness mistakes i made. FOR EXAMPLE LEAVING OUT THE NEGATIVE SIGN WHICH I DO IN EVERY FREAKING TEST!
Note to self : DIDn't ANYONE TELL U TO LEARN FROM UR MISTAKE HUH?
My math paper is so fucking retardedly easy if i dun get 100 i can just fucking die off~ which is wad i am suppose to do right now -.- UGH! wads wif them, can't they just give 30 min extra or something. BUGGER SHITZ!

I FEEL LIKE SUICIDING.
Chem was another annoying paper. I got my facts all jumbled up therefore wif da right theory i switch all of their places. Such as Acid rain i put air pollution FUCK! plus, Its futher n i put nearer! *all the vulgars* i forgot to put sandpaper! n i forgot to clean my stuffs before doing electroplating! DAMN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! kill me right now. I MEAN IT.

fukfukfukfukfukfukfuk! i am just so tensed up.
my results satisfies everyone but myself. And of course my very sister. She has superb high expectations on me -.- coz she is da *cough* smart one.. i nvr had ur brains so dun complain too much.

LoL~ seriously i can see da diff way my add math teacher looks at me! =P totally different LOL! In the early of the year i was just too busy to understand nor finish her hmw. So i nvr hand in all her works oni abt 2/5 times haha!! she basically hated me way lot. Then my results suck like syte hahahaa!! as in like very low type. So now my handing in book is like 10/10 whoo hoo. Plus my results also okay. She also abit shock wakakakkaa~~ hit her right on da face. Revenge for not marking my book just coz its ONE freaking DAY late. too over don't u think? Its also revenge to the ppl dat i wanna take revenge from. FULLSTOP he-she shall not be named THANKX.
Still it isn't satisfying. Gawd. For all you knoe. In a clip of an eye
end year exam is around.
I actually shud let this term exam sucked along. It will seriously make me stand up for my finals.
But owh no i just can't coz the guilt pressurizes me daily. Its Pure torture having ur brains telling you go study n having ur heart saying no..

*sigh*
Me n him is turning 360 degrees. I wanna let go, yet i dun wanna. Still we are friends. But it just felt like something more than friends. Something abit more than dat. Both too afraid to say. Both too ego to admit. As usual u all knoe me well. I will not fall for such things~ if he wants me he'd have to get me. I will never go for a guy dat is this selfish and still keep his ego infront of da gal he loves. Maybe i'm looking for something more than love. Someone dat can actually deal wif me someone dat will let me bully until very badly xO someone i can depend on someone dat remembers all the special days in my life someone that wants to be with me all the time. But that someone just ain't you. I still live on without you. I am never dependant on anyone. That includes you. I learnt from my mistake last year. I fell deep, very deep. Yet i told myself all the time, i live on without anyone! I have broken a friendship as deep as years yet not feel the pain why feel the pain when its just only a guy that you can find anywhere. Simply grab one by da roadside n u have a guy ryte?

*sigh* thinking back the past, flashing back to those old days.
If you say i dun miss daniel i am lying.
Our love is just something weird.
Special u might say.
I miss his huge hands on mine. The sloppy-ish way he eats. The way he plays wit my hair and i'd get so irritated dat i'll pull his after that. The way he snatches my bag and dig out everything he can find in it. The way he carries my bag. The way he pleads for me to give him sweets<<< no kissy stuffs. =.= sweeets as in solid hard sweets -.-. The him. Lastly is the way we argued since the day we've met yet became friends n somehow lovers~
News comes and go.
someone : "He got new gf ready".
Seriously i didn't care abt the news. Before he had a new gf i edy had a new bf. *sigh* ( i did not do it on purpose. actually it was an idea to fling that guy far away.. since he is stubborn. okay i finally i did it hurray n i made someone angry at me. I am such a freak! )
Still he called. Still there are sms-es. But somewht, once its over it can nvr be turned around again. Like the poem road not taken. Once a decision is made you will have to live on with it forever. regret yet not. ONCE made. Too Bad.
~sweet memories~
I will miss all the sweet memories together~

Flashing back, i dun wan anymore of it happening again. 1 word for myself. Nvr step ur feet inside someone else's life its hard to get back out.

Knowing so much abt him yet not much. its just unexplainable. The way i wanted him to appear on the door step. They way he thought i nvr come coz i was late. The way we played like crazies~ then when i changed class he too wanna follow. Ended up all of our classes were different. thinking of each other. We found a way to meet. The way to met became the last of us somehow. A start yet an end. It hurt. Yet i can't feel it. Something is wrong. I did not ask for a reason yet did i refuse to. I just made a decision to mmake everything an end. Somewht i regretted but sometimes it might be the right choice.

~deep in thoughtS~