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Tuesday, July 24, 2007 6:10 PM

⇨ I don't care!

I sometimes hate the 6th sense dat i have...
I can juz feel something coming, but something juz ask me to leave it and not follow rules.
It may be a gud thing though..
well, i dun care anymore!, i've ald told out once.
Dad would've too known coz i think he heard it.
Yeah maybe the hurt was juz too deep for me to support anymore.
Doing this over and over again to me juz killed dat angel in me.
I'm nolonger afraid to admit, coz i'm just so fed-up wif everything ..
I hate crying over it all the time. Nothing hurt me most but this.
I started going out this month, n i'm sure u knoe why.
Yup i go to tmn aman all the time, i go out to jaya, i still go to ssp, and i still do my hmw at tmn aman. I go dere to play basketball, something dat will make me smile. something dat will bring all my trouble away.. I went to ss2 before, went mayang too.
All you knoe is dangerous.. wad abt my feelings? the freedom dat i "should" hv the rights to get!
I knoe it is dangerous. But if you don't want to let me go out then its juz too bad don't u think?
Wif permission at least u will knoe where i am.
But no i was nvr allowed, why even bother asking anymore?
To disappoint myself??
i wanted to watch pirates so badly nobody wanna go wif me, i can't go out wif joyce, nat , n ling shin.
Do u think i feel happi?
Until now, the show is ald nolonger there so do u think u can turn back time and mend everything dat u hv done?
Do u actually knoe wad i want?
i wanna go church do u knoe?? who will bring me dere? as if u would?
i liked cell groups, i love reading the bible.. God has always been keeping an eye on me, making sure i nvr fall out the wrong path, he had always been talking to me no matter i'm sad or happy.. although i don't really pray but i knoe God receives my messages, times when i really need Him he is there for me.
Meeting all my friends is actually faith, changes they bring to my life and changs i bring to theirs is juz amazing.

Who will actually spend time playing basketball wif me?
Who will spend time going swimming wif me? the whole pool for myself?
Who will spend time wif me doing the THINGS I LIKE?
u can still say all you want dat i think abt myself & all, but sometimes u nvr think of me..
yeah i'm different from all of you, i have different hobbies, different likings.
i loved sports since young but you all discouraged me from taking it.
camps i can nvr go to camps.
Its always wasting time.
Its always dangerous.
Everything is.
Maybe u can juz keep me in a box?
Having a relationship wif a guy won't kill.
Look at every teenager now, the world is changing everyday. You will nolonger see those really gud ones they are extinct for all you knoe!!!
I nolonger want to swim myself back to the memories dat can make me cry..
Yeah stopping my tuition is for my own good..
I was planning to leave the whole paper empty and i dun give a dam.
I will study but i wun answer the paper maybe..

Yea and if you are interested to knoe my code colour, its BLUE & RED

BLUES are motivated by INTIMACY. They seek to genuinely connect with others, and need to be understood and appreciated. Everything they do is quality-based. They are loyal friends, employers, and employees. Whatever or whomever they commit to is their sole (and soul) focus. They love to serve and give themselves freely in order to nurture others' lives. BLUES have distinct preferences and have the most controlling personality. Their personal code of ethics is remarkably strong and they expect others to live honest, committed lives as well. They enjoy meaningful moments in conversation as well as paying close attention to special life events (e.g. birthdays and anniversaries). BLUES are dependable, thoughtful, and analytical; but can also be self-righteous, worry-prone, and moody. They are "sainted pit-bulls" who never let go of something or someone, once they are committed. When you deal with a BLUE, be sincere and make a genuine effort to understand and appreciate them.
Doesn't explain so well here but wad the book say is pretty true..