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Sunday, June 24, 2007 8:16 PM

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haih..
I'm giving up everything now.
I hv to surrender to my guilt.
i can nolonger stand it.
I'm gonna start studying now *sigh*
Wad i promised i WILL do.

-THE END-

I laugh yet cry at da same time.
Seriously i felt like saying it out.
But i dare not.
He is ego, so am i.
Yeah he did it for me.
Maybe ego ppl are juz afraid, and scared.
Everyone said he is.
I denied.
haha i dunno why i did it, i denied.
I wanted to say out proudly yeah!! but we aren't.
I missed him.

-THE END-

"We will all stay in the same class i am sure!"
Yeah i want dat to happen too =)
I lurve it lots.
Its time for me to work my way up again.

-THE END-

Yupz i agree i am the worst.
I am da family shame.
Everything i do is wrong.
Nothing goes my way.
Yeah i'm worst compared to everyone.
All my friends are bad.
Other ppl's child is best.
I am dat problematic one.
I am da stupid one.
I have no brains.
I'm dat weird one.
I am not pretty at all.

-I AM ALL THE ABOVE-

-THE END-

Haih the 6th friend.
yeah maybe i hv changed alot.
everyone notices.
even myself.
I'm sorry to hv disappointed all of you.
I knoe how much you guys cared.
i hv worried all of you, dat big drop from last year and now is alot.
Its juz tht the cut dat went thru me twice isn't dat easy to heal anymore.
Another thing is,
I am a bad friend, 3 of my friends dat hv left skewl, and are pretty close to me yet i not notice.
I have been so busy, so caught up wif all my things.
When i see them i feel so dam guilty dat i didn't even realize.
I'm SORRY this comes deep dwn fm my heart.

-THE END-

This message is for xr n kira.
Kira - I treated you as a bro all this while, you knoe dat very well. =) i'm glad to hv such a nice bro like u although i don't call u kor x) I am glad u are back wif xr. I'm sorry to hv made her think dat i liked you. I muz admit yah i liked you but as a friend and as an elder brother. I really don't wish to see you guys break another time. I knoe how deep is the cut and how hard it is for it to heal. I'll pray for you. -babey-

Xr - I'm sry to hv shouted at you, i'm sorry dat i hv been rude. All i wanted to tell you is to treasure the ones beside you. It is not dat i'm not listening to both sides of da story, i knoe you may hv a hard time making dat decision i can see you loved kira alort. You can ask Daryl when i'm talking to him i am on yr side. I'm sorry if i had insulted you or something i hope you forgive me. We are still friends no matter how bad we argue or how bad we fight. Once friend, forever friends =). I dun hope to see you two like this again. Since now you are back together i think you shud both treasure it. And juz as a note guys are the stuppidest animal in da whole world u can't draw half da picture n expect them to understand x) -babey-

-THE END-

I will be leaving this blog for awhile. I will be leaving my body for awhile. Till i am back i hope you all miss me. To all my blogreaders this diary of mine will not end here but it will stop here for a moment. Till then miss me =)

To Devil - You will not be reading this. But i juz wanted to tell you dat i will miss you. I wanna see you everyday although i can't. I dunno wads so special abt you dat made me so attracted to you. Maybe dats called loved. I may be too young to love anyone but i hope dat you will wait for me. I hope you will stop dat bad habit of yours. I want you to miss me daily. We are very much alike. You're bad yet good. You are waiting for me to say it out i am also waiting for you to say it out. But anyhow we are even now. You will be the only empty space in my heart after everything is over. The fight dat lasted for so many years hv ended, the apology dat i wanted to made i hv juz done. You will be dat only empty space in me now. I derno when we can be together. I just feel very happi wif you, i am more den comfortable beside you. You hv seen me laugh yet cry. You hv been by my side when i needed you badly. I still remember you saying "you marry me den chaam loo" x) da happi times dat we hv together i will forever remember. You hv lied so many times to me but you knoe i knew it. Those silly jokes u made to make me laugh is really pathetic but it did cheer me up. Silly things u teach me to make me shake my head n smile at myself. If you are reading this you will be asking me if i'm writing an essay. Seriously if its about you I can write an essay =P. We hv known each other for a year now. You like to keep yourself. You like protecting me. You like me to be as good and as pure as possible. You nvr tell me anything because u dwn me to worry. This is you, forever you think abt others, but nvr yrself.
I LOVE YOU dats why i care abt you dummy. >.<

PS : i won't disappoint you all x)