~StrawberrieeZ~

2012-01-01T02:13:00.002+08:00

1st January 2012

Haha, its weird having to type 2012 instead of 2011.

=D have to get used to this number! haha

Happy New Year everyone!

I hope this year will be one of my bests years.

Since i'll be turning 21 and graduating!

I will be so proud of myself if i did make it through all of this! Seriously!

Alright,

My new year resolution all written

1) Happily ever after with Mr Kan

2) First Class Honours for BA in Accounting & Finance

3) Secure a job in Singapore with Mr Kan

4) get myself enrolled for CFA

5) Loss abit of weight ( this resolution has been like since... 2008 or so? ) - oh never did came true!

6) keeping my family safe & sound! & visit my grams more often

Well guess those are my simple wishes/ or so to speak resolution! haha~

GoodNight everyone! have a great celebration!

2011-12-02T00:08:00.003+08:00

Hey guys, its been long since I've typed something here..

Well, actually i'm suppose to be typing on

Word.docx instead.

Need to RE-CORRECT my assignment again. Boo.

Just now running through facebook,

I looked back a thousand memories..

from high school until now..

Some sweet, some bitter..

Yet I still smiled a lot, because no one can take those memories away from me.

it suddenly hit me that i will be turning 21 next year,

Graduating..

finally putting on that squarish hat on my head..

holding a scroll.. right?

It is what everyone have been hoping for since they were young

it is this particular perspective every parent have put onto their children's mind..

Like if you don't wear that robe.. that hat... and have that scroll on your hands

you'll never be rich,

never make it to the real working world kinda thing...

Those were the days..

ringing on my head...

where i remember my parents saying

"you'll never be graduating at this rate you are studying"

& look where am i now?

Year 3 (final year)

going through one of the hardest UK degree..

In accounting & finance... which hardly anyone in high school would have have this in their minds..

me taking acc&fin instead of some science or IT thingy.

Time flies.. so fast..

so fast that at times.. i don't even have time to feel afraid. it is already here.

But you know..

I am glad i made a change in my life..

from last year to this year..

because if i didn't i think i would still be sitting in pain

much more pain than before..

I don't see how someone would value the chance i gave out..

I would still be sitting all alone just like i've never been in a real relationship before..

I'm glad i listened to my own decision instead of what others told me

am glad that my heart knows exactly what it needs

what it wants..

glad my brains told me what was right what was wrong..

Might have wasted a year.. but i glad the change made me value what i have now..

all the changes was for the better..

I really have to admit how much fatter i am now.

and how much more i am acting like myself.. unlike a year ago.. i felt fake, i felt i can't be myself, i felt like i'm acting for people to see...

& lastly the best thing is that i am much more happier in every way you see me.

I always like a guy to be travelling with me, and i found mine.

Happy & Grateful.

Looking more at my ex, will make me value my current even more...

its still amazing how you're like a husband instead of a boyfriend..

how i always scold you... like we've lived for few tenth years..

i really see us like my mum & dad.. haha..

how i can sleep and drool on your sleevesss hahaha and how you say..

urghhh disgusting... i want to changeee shirt :'( feels cold....

You know,

not many couples behave like how we do?

its amazing how our 14 months.. are so much like 14 years..

I Love You. Really Do.

When we are afraid of the future, both of us gave other assurance.. trust me; i never had this in the past... thats why we never made it to the future.. but i am sure me & you both.. will see each other... so much more... i just am sure..

2011-11-10T03:19:00.003+08:00

3.19am

Finally Done it! Yeay~

Gah, but i know there is bound to be huge mistakes here and there = =

Shall just wait and see for the comments...

Today is my 13 Monthsary with Mr MouMou

The reason why I gave you the lollipop is to tell you that you are as sweet as one! Always :)

Darling, Throughout this one year and one month we've been thru thick and thin together..

everyday with you is different and special

its really fun especially when we've been together for so long yet we can still read each others mind well; even better nowadays!

Say same things at the very same time and give each other the annoyed face and say "why you copy me" haha!

Darling,

I never regretted any single bit

with you its like i found myself; i can be myself at anytime and anywhere..

like jst woke up face you see everyday...

crazy stuffs we do together..

It is truly a great blessing to be by you..

now & always

I truly Love You.

Eve-

2011-11-08T01:43:00.002+08:00

I do not believe i cannot finish you up.

you are such a fucked up assignment!!

I swear i am going to kill you!!!

YOU ARE SO DEAD.

okay signs show i am going crazy.

I probably am..

wants to go for a badminton game badly.. shall go tomorrow~

Needs to get a new pair of badminton shoes so i don't hurt my legs again

and i need to buy a new grip...

perhaps more sports attire?

Okay yes.. my brain is aching to shop badly.

Fuck you UWE! -_-

little surprise : )

2011-10-29T23:45:00.003+08:00

Honey,

know you always been worried about me, especially the time i spend at home.

I know you love me a lot and i always drag the topic long enough just to keep myself spending more time with you :)

don't worry so much k? Its actually not that serious though, they getting use to it already. slowly become a habit then it will goes naturally..haha cuz i cant wait till next year to became a "real adult" nehhh

honey,

I'll always be beside you

covering you with my arms

keep you warm, hugging you

whisper through your ears

and saying i love you

honey,

I'll smile when you smile

and feel all the pain you do

and if you cry a single tear

I promise I'll cry too

honey,

please hold me tight

don't let it loose

cuz trying to forget someone you love

its like trying to remember someone you never met

i love you baby
trully.. love you <3

2011-10-27T01:36:00.002+08:00

This is a long anticipated post by my Ox~

First of

Happy Diwali to all my friends out there and Happy Holidays to the rest~

Dear Ox,

I know words i said earlier was a little rough

and hard to listen

I'm sorry

but it is something i need to tell you :')

So sorry to hurt you :'(

Saying it was like a thousand needles pricking thru my heart too baby.

Really, i'm sure we'll survive it, since we've already survived a million things together within a year ~

I Love You~

2011-10-10T23:14:00.002+08:00

1st Year Anniversary

10.10.11

Baby remember this day last year?

You sat on the bed...

shyly you showed me a "CD"

Then you say play it ~~

The time was 10.00am when i played the CD

You took many nights to made a video of the both of us...

in 5 months..

after the video ended..

the day was 10. 10.10

and when you ask me to become your gf

the time was also

10am 10min 10seconds~

I remember it all because it was so special..

I think i didn't answer Yes.. I just kissed you!

Do you rmb our first kiss baby?

Hehe... you forced it on me! bluek !! *advantage taker* people crying you go kiss me.. !

=] hehe that is when i took your first kissy away! *hearts*

but then i kiss you back on your face! hehe your expression is so cute !! After that you just kept smiling smiling all the way back !! So cuteee~

Honey.. that has been a year! So fast huh?

Baby a year with you past so fast that i hardly realize!

I lovie you! Hugs

*runs to talk on the phone with you now*

*hearts*

2011-09-29T01:30:00.003+08:00

At starting you would still tolerate about the matter

but as time passes by it actually gets annoying especially when it interferes with your daily life...

1st week (1-2 hours of my life wasted waiting)

2nd week (waste another 1-2hours of my life rushing..)

at times its not about me..

I'm worried.

about you.. as blood related he won't spare 5 minutes to pick you?

yet i spare 30 minutes back and another 30 minutes forth?

Don't you get it?

Sometimes is not to condemn but, really?

He is old enough to deal with matters himself... I believe every parent does.

Not only troubles his own kid but other people also, don't you get it?

Even for a day i would have felt very bad..

what more 2 weeks?

Agh, just wipe it all off..

I'm just annoyed. Sorry. Shouldn't have said it.

But really, you did it for one day and you already complained.. and i did it for 2 weeks only i started to complain. Now its going to be 2 weeks PLUS ( equivalent to more than half a month )

I have every damn right to complain!

Sorry, but this kind of things does not happen in my family. Even if it does it takes a maximum of 3days. Or maybe A week when my aussie uncle is home. Please understand its been more than half a month & i have been very tolerant about everything until the damn night you reached home at blardy 12.30.

Fuck this shit okay?

The thing is yours damn it.

Why do u even bother paying otherwise?

I don't get it, i don't get what you're thinking.

If it troubles you why don't you just open your mouth and tell?!!

As a man why are you not standing firm?

I just don't get you.

Sigh, sorry for what i've said.

i'm just annoyed and in frustration.

Gdnight.

2011-09-12T00:45:00.002+08:00

Today is mooncake festival!

Happy Mid-Autumn everyone..

My second year celebrating with my sweetheart :)

Still remember that time almost first time see his parents

Now its been a year already..

Time really flies..

Darling,

If you tell me you'll be leaving tomorrow..

I can tell you i would be feeling lost..

very lost

because i've been spending this whole year with you..

which made you the most important one in my life already..

In this whole year.. the longest period we did not see one another was when i'm in Macau..

that itself was the worst feeling..

I love you alot.. will never leave you.. Promise.. <3

2011-08-31T23:12:00.001+08:00

Whee.. Off to Penang for holiday!

Celebrating our

11th Monthsary !!

2011-08-27T01:49:00.001+08:00

testing with my blackberry :)

2011-08-09T22:37:00.002+08:00

10.37pm

Today caught me thinking about this time of last year..

working in the suckiest place ever,

crying almost everyday?

I still remember after exam; i wanted to meet "him" before leaving to genting

but the "him" said could not make it

this tht

tht this

screw it.

Went up the hill.

Next day was saturday

"him"

was busy with his stupid fucking competition

until when i called him he did not even bother pick/reply my call or messages until

at night at 8pm

Joe there was being concerned over my feelings i see him "observing" me the whole time we were eating KFC

the "him"

felt something wrong

so he called in the middle of the night?

at 3am? when we were going to yum cha?

"him" didnt bother to apologize over the "i didn't text you and call you for a couple of hours"

it rather says "no big deal, wtf is she anyways?"

3am we discussed joe's "ahem" cough cough***

and we were being TEASED from then on carried till the next day.. when it got pretty bad???

or was that everyone saw a connection between us but ourselves?

The day we go down the hill.

Heavy hearts...

and felt something when we were going down in the bus

where joe "accidentally" (maybe sengaja) hold my hands.... for a moment when i (O.O") gave this look......

and when he use his hands to push my head to his shoulders was another (O.O")

Peak part,

I got sick when I got down the hill

Nobody cared

nobody asked

nobody fucking bothered =]

except this one weird boy, comes ALLL the way from Cheras and say want to visit "us" me and JY it seems?

Working there was a piece of shit,

I wished someone bothered to talk to me

Nobody did

Selfish idiot just said his work was worst.

He jst needs to stfu and grow up.

Cleaning up cockroaches is not as bad as working at your plce where u jst sit and DESIGN stuff?

Awesome never knew that until he told =]

but there was this someone who's always making me smile...

although dealing with those shits...

If you look closely there is so many place breaking down in the whole relationship that was not properly built in the first place...

I'll tell you when it really started to tumble...

If you love a girl would you not bring her to Prom Night?

Yes that was the starting part of it.

If you love a girl unconditionally

would you not give her gifts every monthsary?

Instead of saying " you know i can't buy you stuffs every month? I'll run out of ideas + its expensive "

If you want to marry the girl

Won't you want to wear a ring band with her signifying everlasting love? remembering her always when you look down to the ring?

Instead of saying how expensive rings are... and how annoying a ring is when you play your OH SO FUCKING FAVOURITE SPORT?

oh just to tell you with the ring i played perfectly FINE =)

If you love the girl so much that you think about her ALL the time

Why would you want to leave and play a stupid game in the field?

why would you make her wait like an idiot every weekends in the morning?

there are so many cracks that you've never realize, or even bother to notice.

There are things that i couldn't post in public but it seems like you were just after that very reason being with me.

End of word.

Fuck You.

In 20minutes time it is going to be my new relationships 10th Monthsary

where i enjoy so much

because it is way different from the past.

Loving everybit of days i spend with him even when we are working

it just feels so relax and so lovely

So much difference compared to being with "him"

Lastly,

Happy 10th Monthsary Sweetie Pie..

I'll be waiting for our 1st Anniversary :D

2011-08-01T23:03:00.002+08:00

11pm

Darling's Birthday last Friday was a HUGE blast!!

Event A

Surprise

BlindFold him into Seoul Garden. (Spoiler.... Met Tay)

The Blind Fold :P EQUIPMENT

Continue with surprise

sat him down.. ask him to hold himself there...

Danson Grab his neck

& he almost punched Livy

All of us sang him Happy Birthday Song as he took off his blindfold

Shock and almost speechless seeing 20 ppl ( even his highschool friends surrounding him)

We thought we saw tears but he said otherwise :P

Made him open presents :]

Present a)

Crockie Mou ( his new pet in car )

Present b)

A photoframe with 6 cheeezzzy photos of us :P

Buffet time!! :P

After buffet carry on with celebration...

Passed around party poppers in silence

went to light the cake...

Came out with cake.. as we sang the song and made him wear a Piglet Party Hat :)

As everyone Popped with happiness

& chau yang busy chopsticking the popper's creep paper out of the steamboat place!! Haha

Darling was so super shocked !!!

& His last present

c) A BIG BIG card with all his friend's signature and photo of him....

Lastly,

Thank You EVERYONE for contributing!! You guys are truly THE Friends that i really LOVE!! =]

Me & My Love :)

Our Forever & After :)

Lastly,

Happy 20th Birthday Big Boy~!

Love You ALWAYSSS

2011-07-29T18:03:00.002+08:00

Darling calls my blog D Setawbally Farm (LOL)

Meaning Straw-Berry Farm due to its cute name =.=

So today the 29th July 2011

The Strawwww-berry Farm is wishing Him

Happy Birthday!! You are now 20 & OLD :P

kekeke

I Love You

2011-07-23T02:14:00.002+08:00

Sweetness in the air :)

Lately my honey have been so sweet to me after his wrong doings that i think i might be getting diabetes soon :P

We finally ended the HP7 and a half run for over the many years

*clap clap*

waiting to end the twilight :)

Have the sweetest honey always..

nose-mouth (translate to cantonese)

Hehe!!

VOLDEMORT!! hahahahaha

Love You. Good Night~

2011-07-21T01:05:00.002+08:00

many things have been happening lately

my side mostly good news

the other side of it is rather not so good.

rejection for you is hard

then i guess rejection from the one i love most is the hardest?

Sometimes i know you so well,

yet at times i think i don't know you at all..

I'm trying to help

so would you try to listen to me instead of YEAH YEAH I KNOW I KNOW I KNOW

makes me feel like

why am I even talking to this person when he is such a genius that KNOWS everything.

Because you're the one that is suppose to get something out of me not the other way round.

You probably need to read the book i bought recently which says

Listen More and Talk less.

Sorry, but that is the hard truth.

No matter how i try to help you just reject me from every way.

From the day i said i'm going to hospital

right until today

I'm trying to care because i treat you like a family

but i don't know why you treat me like i'm a blardy stranger

Maybe you don't feel it but

fuck, thats how i felt

Today is going to be the last day I'm going to ask/talk/care

from tomorrow on wards

this is not my issue.

I don't want to know

don't tell me

not part of it

don't feel like being part of it.

End

I don't get it why everytime you face a minor obstacle you can PAUSE your whole life just to SULK about it instead of press the PLAY button trying your best to FIX it.

Just now i want to tell you about her diet plans.

I'll just post you a link and read it. End of story.

There is also a particular milk you can purchase from pharmacy.

I'll tell you the brand name...

ending here, because i've already done my best to help.

be it you take or not is no longer my problem

Goodnight.

2011-07-17T13:04:00.002+08:00

Today caught me thinking how lucky am I to have my man always with me..

Because the other day when i went out alone.. i suddenly felt - fear, like how I used to when I just got my car after high school.

Yes obviously its freedom but somewhat scared to be out alone all by yourself..

Didn't felt the fear anymore during foundation.. but jst recently the fear came back all the way because i'm so used to being accompanied by him always.

So used to depending on my boy all the time, hehe..

Just a secret to share..

Yesterday i got lost in a car park!! and the car park was really empty!!!

Thank god i found a guard :P

Actually thursday I went down from the hospital carpark.. it was locked.. more shocking =.=

and when i went down to the carpark my car was all alone dere.. double fear ! D:

But, its okay~ I survived the fear..

No wonder people say don't be alone in car parks; dangerous.. yes because it is NOT guarded and the lights are really not as BRIGHT.. and it is QUIET....

I still remember how safe i felt the other time when the carpark was locked; but I was with MouMou...

Yes; too dependent nowadays :P

Even getting lost; one call to baby and he'll bring me back to where I'm supposed to :P

I guess last time i was really really independent !

I MUST know every way; even when i'm lost I had to figure my way out...

even with "someone" beside me

Not that i always have anyone with me last time haha

Thinking back,

I've given my ex the top priority last time..

I told myself

If he knows his mistake

If he apologizes

and if he would make something (that i could physically touch) even with not much effort

I would accept him all over again

and I waited.

for a week

for another week to past...

and for more weeks...

Unreasonable reasons always comes out from him..

"busy"

If it is so busy then we shouldn't be together at all...

Then you would have more time to yourself right?

Now to think of him; I am glad he didn't take any action to get me back

So freaking glad actually

Because I've found my happiness and the one I love dearly now..

If I took my ex back i think i would be regretting all the way..

Because i doubt he would change for - forever.

Just a simple reminder for every guys out there

Gf is a commitment ( lifetime )

they are not just "for fun"

and there for the "good times"

9 months and waiting for 1 year.

Darling, i realize how my life is attached to yours and it is so hard to be away from you.

Would miss you every time and every second.. =]

You know in Macau i text my baby for 5~6 times a day..

and intervals i talk to him on MSN

yet when I come back he wasn't so very happy with the lack of attention i gave him throughout 3 days :P

Baby, you should be grateful over the very much attention i gave you from far far away you know?

Because last time i barely had half of these much attention!! :)

and when I complained over the lack of attention i never even get anything in return =)

So sorry to say that I've never regretted breaking up with my ex boyfriend which i deemed he never actually knew what love is at all.

& I doubt he actually loved me before?

Because in love you'll never want to leave one another but for him so to speak, he can never wait to leave me and have his own life.

Hey, I would also like to thank you for everything.

An unforgettable experience in my life

which i never want to go through again

& never want to bring it back anymore

& never want to be reminded.

and which i regret so ever badly that it brings nightmare in my sweet dreams late at night.

Thanks :)

2011-07-07T22:20:00.002+08:00

Today on the radio i heard,

which job selection will you not pick to date

1st place : lawyer (lol their explanation is hilarious)

2nd place : I think is doctor

3rd place : Wrestler

4th place : Accountant

LOL

I am placed on fourth!! Joe also :P

Thats why we are only suited for each other :P

Now u know why mostly same job professions people are a couple more often?

Coz they can Stand each other !! HAHA

So i remembered, when i talked about the partner of my life in the past

i used to always say

1) don't want short

2) don't want jealous de

3) don't want hao lian one

4) don't want too handsome ( coz heart will stray away :P)

Okay, so the guy i'm with now for

9 months already

totally

opposite from what "i don't want"

Yet still loving my baby bull so much :D

*hug hug*

2011-07-06T23:49:00.002+08:00

Back from Macau! :)

Hey guys, i'm home!

Finally =D

Macau was hell loadsa fun ~

Their Casino is nothing but HUGE !

They also have awesome architectures :)

I was literally busy casino hopping :D

But i've got stopped many times buy the security because i don't look over 18 yrs old.

=.=

Padahal sudah 20 this year!

My 3 days 2 nights there had my darling missing me so much ~ Aww-

Flight delayed abit, when we got home after dinner/ supper it was like 12am already =(

And today i had to CRAWL to work........

Too tired to continue blogging, continue tomorrow :)

2011-07-04T00:30:00.002+08:00

Dear baby,
I know you miss me that's why i purposely came to blog to entertain you at least for like
10~20minutes
to make you feel better and miss me less; as i'm going to be back home before you know it!

Today is already monday! :D

So i'm gonna tell you a lil bit ( ahhh lil biiit ) of my itinerary today

Landed at macau we waited like tiga puluh minute for tht stupid bus =.=

plus had to walk up and down asking ppl den only know OH 11am oni sampai.

Okay nvm, we've finally arrived city!!

Saw many high rise buildings with 100% tinted glass of various colours ( mostly gold )

China Beng country mahh haha

Saw d new hotel "galaxy"

was like... 100x more grand den our royal palace in msia =.=

SO i asked mum y venetian??? should hv gone for galaxy! LOL

she regretted also!!

But its okay~ so we headed on to the hotel

but check in time is like 2pm?

so we left luggage walk

MILES to reach a square ( i forgot d name )

it was burning hot!! we were literally dying!! LOL

+ we are clad in JEANS and PROPER attire

I'm carrying a net book + ipad + 3 bottles of water my hands felt like giving up every minute!

( this is when i miss joe the most!! )

Coz with him i never had to carry a thing!

=.=

Any how we couldnt bear the torture went to some place sit n eat at bout 1+ den check in IMMEDIATELY.

I RUSHED to shower

chat with darling

and had a nice nap till abt 4+~ 5

Took a cab

headed to A-Ma temple ( dun ask me why the name we can't figure it out either )

Den reach dere temple close kenot see statueee...

but we took pics anyways

ate dinner at

Alorche

a portugese restaurant

ate steak, char grilled prawns, and french chicken!!

The dinner was plain awesomeeeee =D

and we also draank a portugese soup.

Kai Lan + Mash potato in soup form

taste super good!

after that went to look over the river to see zhu hai! :D

took a cab back to Square (wtv name)

Bought souveniors and walk back to hotel, put things

den started our casino journey! :)

visited all d casino;s around!!

But i din gamble

I damn good girl hor sweetheart?? :P come back gt prize or not geh? :D

But everytime i enter also kena check passport; maybe they think i dun look like abv 18=.=

soooo horrible! only one casino din check when i enter. LOL

Pathetic. =.=

Had to keep digging out my passport and i think i'm like d only one tht kena =.=

Oh well

had loadsa fun seeing macau lighting

However; nothing much to see over here unless you're a very historic person tht loves visiting churches & temples & forts & ruins & cemetery LOL

So its just the busy night!

"sin city"

according to mum~

Ahh.. guess i'm signing off now-

Sleepy already going to have another long day tmr

missing darling joe and also walking around!

I Love You Baby!

Sorry for not being able to hug you these two days..

I feel bad for leaving you all alone promise i'll make it up to u k?

Hugs & Kisses*

Wo Hen Ai Ni.

Sorry for the lack of pictures and all words the internet here is jst plain horrid. Yes

Horrid.

Good Night

2011-07-02T01:12:00.003+08:00

starting to get addiction from blogging again~

It's like how you always have the urge to do some typing on your personal space :)

1.13am

Just came back from Transformers with darling..

We both came out as ice Popsicles !! because it is so colddddd in the cinema...

Lucky darling brought his coat for me, else i sure freeze die D: ( direct translate from cantonese )

The movie is awesome!!

Because even my half awake darling couldn't find his way to dreamland! hehe

Bet tomorrow he'll be fishing worr.. but i will purposelyyyy meet him up for lunch to give him some motivation :D

Ahh gotta start packing early morning tomorrow!!

Macau here i come!!

So not ready for the trip!! Because it is quite sudden O.O

Gonna miss my Mouuuieee so muchie!

Here's one of our kissing picture

xBiBix : level 150

xMouMoux: level 149

Signing Off~

Here's d song i love!! and darling say it makes him sleep :(

But hope you enjoy it anyway, but today you can sleep without my voice and any song; i am pretty sureee hehe~

Hugs-

2011-06-29T21:07:00.004+08:00

The other day I was listening to the radio,

They were talking about in terms of love, weather or not people actually believe in what

feng shui/bazi master says.

For example:

If the feng shui master says he is not the right one for you will you break up with him?

If the BaZi master says that if you get married you will always fight with him, will you still marry him?

Many answers says that,

No, they don't believe. Some even said that they got married in the end! & they're having really happy marriages.

The funny answer was,

NO! i will love him even more !

The moral of this story is saying that, in the end whatever people say the outcome still depends on your own effort. In Life or Love it is still the same theory.

Imagine if someone say you're going to die tomorrow.

Will you believe and wait for death?

or will you fight for survival; to your last breathe?

In the end is you effort that counts.

I remembered someone once told me;

" I can't believe what he said was right "

at that time i just Uhmm.

But deep down I wante

d to answer him

" Its actually because you didn't try to prove him wrong, you didn't even put in effort into it so obviously what he said is going to be right "

Now & Then not that i don't believe in all this superstitious things, but still sometimes too much of it, or thinking too much really affects your life. Its usually just listen, and get rid of the thoughts.

Don't ask at all. (what i usually do)

My relationship soon reaching 9 months old :)

Counting actually supposedly 1 year already hehe~ Because we waited to 10.10.10 :P

So 9 months it is~

Now and every then, when i work in this whole month I've only have one person on my mind.

Joe Kan..

Yeap, have been thinking about the whole year what has happened to us, how we started, how we gone to trips together how we played.. and how he loves me..

and i kept smiling

non-stop!

I think some of my colleagues saw me smiling at a pile of paper guess they thought i'm "gila" or something..!

You know I've never regretted making this decision in my life.

Instead i actually regretted having the past relationship.

Should have waited for you to appear in my life.

But honestly your appearance was 3~4 years ago as a stranger.

Obviously the both of us regret not knowing each other then, because we are so near yet so far..

alot of people like to ask this question

How do you know he's the one?

There's only one answer I can give, its the feeling... and the connection..

Its different. Like magnets. How they're attracted by magnetic field in science terms but in the naked eyes you can't see them. Yes, just like that i am

attracted to him.. apparently more and more each and everyday..

In the past, I question myself..

Do i love him because i'm bored of the old one?

Why am I thinking about him more than the one i'm actually suppose to,

Why my heart ache's when he's crying?

Why do i have the urge to hug him? and hold his hands..?

Will history actually repeat itself when i'm with him?

That time, I still couldn't answer these questions.

Now i can answer it clearly.

No I am not bored of the old one..

I'm just so sick and fed up of his attitude that I'm already at the breaking point

I think about him more because he was the one that showed me more care, and loves me more,

My heart ache's when he cried is because he means alot to me.. even at that time when he's still a friend... the feeling with him is different; is like we "click" to each other so easily

I want to hug and hold his hands because i don't want to let such a good man to leave me, and I really want him to be mine, forever.

No history will not repeat when I'm with him, because he gave me no other reasons to think of another man.

He jst gave me a million reasons to think about him, him and only him...

- the time when he saw a cockroach immediately covers & hug me before taking a tissue to catch it.

- the time we maple all day and night without eating

- the time we hunt mesos all day and night jst to buy skill book

- the time we went for malacca trip and he hit someone's car on purpose until it dented..

- the time we went to Sepang Gold coast at a sudden

- the time we spend at morib eating ice kacang and drinking cocunut, enjoying the sounds of the sea, playing with a kite until it got stuck at a tree

- the time we went to snow world....

Me: Dear !! Your nose is drippingggg wet...!!

Joe: Touches nose.. GOT MEH??? O_O

*so cutee*

- the time he said... i want angry birdsss in my car.... :(

- & time he said... "i want that lady birddddddd" ( whats with darling and "birdies?" )

- a few days ago, "dear dear say i smell like a skunk!!!" > :(

- all the time.... "cry" and red eyes..... for a purple surfing board....

- the all of a sudden~ Darling lets go Ipoh tomorrow O.O

- The hand bag on my birthday, the best dinner and supper... most romantic.... the dress...

- The mouse on V'Day

- The ridiculous big fight on that day too...

- The big big pinkie mou

- the round round hippo mou...

- the way you always care about my family..

- the way you're always you, planning about "our" future...

- The way you are always talking to yourself saying that i will marry you...

- The way you never stop to put a smile on my face..

Thank you darling,

for all of the happenings in one year,

you truly have shown me what a real relationship should be.

Even now that i'm seeing you less, rest assured my heart is 100% only you in it..

because you did not even give a 0.0000000001% chance for it to occupy another space when you've given it such great memories to keep forever and always.

you're the most "wai dai" most lovely boyfriend i've ever seen or meet.

Lucky to have you!

& i will treasure you..

so so so damn much..

Will try to "lau gai" less lah harrr..?? :P

Finally posting my very long post after... ? typing it for a few days!

Good Night Ya'All~

A song for my sweeetheart so he will have a sweet sweet dream tonight :)

2011-06-23T20:05:00.002+08:00

Ah, The Missing blogger finally re-appeared!

There are assorted reasons for my late post;

a) I'm Working

b) I'm Busy

c) I'm Tired.... right up to z)

Okay first of all would like to talk about my results!

No they are not FANTASTIC

until like

Distinction X100000000 %

=.=

They are BAD infact..

but i'm just happy it all says one word repeatedly

"PASS"

Really Thank God.

I guess most of us didn't expect the marks to come out like this..

bad in other words; but we are all thankful its pass

because honestly; this degree is not a joke

It is one of a hell hard paper;

Nowonder Bristol Business School is SOOO famous.

Because that paper is jst, crazy hard that even if you're prepared for it

You're actually Not.

Wonderful things have happened lately;

In terms of work its wonderful

because i meet wonderful colleagues

Have been so busy at work that time passes so fast; that its becoming scary

Especially the thought of graduating next year!

Ah, i just hope everything turns out well.

It is after all a very good opportunity for me~

Darling on the other hand is keen on pursuing his dream;

So "man"

Although deep in my heart i miss him all the time; like now..

Wish i could hug him, kiss him, and just be by him..

but in my heart I'm happy that he has his dreams and he's not afraid to strive for it

or maybe for us

because in the end

what he get its for our future

I'm happy to have a man that will think about the future and not just now;

a man that plans far ahead

So far that sometimes i couldn't even see where he's planning until

& i thought my planning up to 10-30 years is far.

~.~

Dedicating a song for you for all the hardship for not seeing one another for

two days..

Not that i know what the song means..

but i think it says

want to love you :)

Guess will be our training for the next coming year..

Especially when we're working huh?

Only able to see one another for two days in a week.

Torturous

I Love You!

2011-06-13T14:12:00.002+08:00

Hellooo world!

Last Friday me & baby catch

X-Men First Class

at 10.30pm - 1am

Suchanawesomemovie!!!!!!

Sorry for the slur because the movie is so good!! & excitement tends to make me slurr :P

Okay, after the popcorn purchase; i was so blur/excited/happy about the movie.

Then at 10.15 i gave the counter fellar my ticket

and entered the hallway to the cinema

Joe: Dear, our cinema open dy anot? wad hall?

Me: Uhm should be lah edy 10.15, movie is at 10.30 :D

Happily we entered Hall 7

and.

LOL

it was an empty theatre !!!

I think we sat there all alone in silence for about

10minutes!! HAHA (mind you it is a BIG cinema summore)

the only sound i can hear is baby chewing popcorn LOL!!

In the end we got too scared entering the wrong hall.

We went out! HAHAHA

and baby is so afraid of the silence & empty place he said; lets wait until people go in

Joke of the day!!

In the end, when the movie started the hall was literally packed & full!!

So much for "i think nobody's wanna watch the movie la" haha

That was our 8monthsary~

& the other Sunday we celebrated at TGIF :D

Double celebration hehe

Today i took MC; coz having flu & a lil bit of headache

& a lil bit of laziness also hehe.

Nowadays love from my sweetheart is so overspilling

Damn Love It :)

2011-06-08T22:54:00.002+08:00

Thursday come by with a flick of an eye.

Yeap definitely scary.

Ah, but i definitely cannot wait for Friday! :)

The day i can be in t-shirt and jeans and work till 4.30 =]

Heavens

Working life is not as bad as expected.

At least my working hours are way heaven compared to other peoples =O

I work generally an hour less than others on normal days and on Friday i should be 2 hours less :P

And those are not even inclusive of OT (OVER-TIME)

Thank God!

The only bad thing about working is obviously

the less contact with my sweetheart.

Only a daily dosage of 1-2 hours =[

Nowadays have been so busy searching for my future.

& what not worrying about exam results - soon-to-come

Fml Max.

Can't wait for Friday aka movie day with my honeybunny =)

and a full sat & sun with him!

When i work, i just can't get enough of him.

Hugging each other in silence is just something so stress relief....

& talk/rant about working all day long...

But after I've been on this job, i realize how workaholic i can actually be.

I sort of don't really care OT

as long as I clear my desk D:

Is that something good or something bad?

I think my sweetheart have to start worrying about missing wife in the future

But fear not, i think i will bring back equal $$ hehe!!

So our homes will be built faster HOR?

2011-06-02T19:25:00.002+08:00

I had the best offer i could ever wished for.

Right infront of my eyes.

but dad say it is TOO dangerous.

Sigh.

Such a great opportunity and yet..

I feel so reluctant to let go because really, i want to do in there to learn something.

hopefully my current job will turn out better.

I hope.

I still can't stop thinking about it!

My luck brought me this far but i can't take the reward of it

fml

2011-05-28T23:17:00.002+08:00

11.17pm

Re-Darling's Post

I had that question since before.. and during exam.

Have been googling about it too..

Mostly bad and negative comments on how relationship like ours never last forever.

But believe me, those that lasts forever are too happy to even talk about their lives

so they never use blog or google! =]

I believe, if we both love each other enough

we'd last more than forever

Much much much more.

Silly boy.

& I thought why you suddenly broke into tears :'(

Don't scare me like that okay?

11.22pm now.

Hate missing you.

Hate to be unable to hug you.

Hate short notices telling me you'll be away!

Wo hen xiang ni ahhhh :'(

Dwelling myself into Game.

Purposely slept 6am this morning so I'll wake up late at 1pm

Then dwell in Game again.

Didn't work!! IT DIDN'T WORK :(

coz I still miss you so much.

I got so used to having you in my life.

That the sudden absence is quite unbearable.

Sigh.

Gonna go grab a book and read.

The holiday needs to be more progressive!

I took 2 days to complete the whole gaming experience & get bored of it.

Did exam made me this extreme? or was I already this extreme after maple?

Damn.

I feel like playing Dota. ><

My Darling

2011-05-26T23:36:00.003+08:00

Just had a nice trip with my darling and friends.. Sorry evelyn's fans for posting up a short short post in her bloggie. This trip was really fun, we laughed a lot, played a lot, eat dmn a lot :D But what caught me the most is the saying of "rocks are actually tougher than diamonds "

Baby,
sorry there are times that i couldn't fulfill up to your expectation, sometimes i'll raise my voice a little higher than usual (eps when tired D:), times that i complaint alot, worst than a girl could be.. sometimes i have to leave you earlier, well usually is because of family matters. Times that when i'm over stress with things that troubled me, i always give joint-eyebrow face >:(

Have been thinking and wondering these few days while listening to songs that you burnt for me (MLTR love songs). Was thinking.. how to make a relationship lasts? Less quarrel? less suggestion more agreement? more small gifts?

Until know i still can't find my answer, in fact, i started to think that there is no answer for this question.. I'm so troubled with it, until yesterday when my tears flow out from my eyes. Wanted to hold it, but its so hard.. i cried, next to you.. i'm sorry baby.

Darling, i know you love me very much. Every time when you said you love me, i know.. i know we'll last.. I just need baby to say " I love you too". I believe in you baby, i believe you'll do whatever it takes to make me feel loved. I know you love me loads baby with your true heart just like those coluorful pebbles.. beautiful in natural, a beautiful heart.

I love you darling, now & forever <3

2011-05-26T02:11:00.002+08:00

Hello blogging society!

I am back from my Malacca trip with the four.

1) THE BF

2) Matthias Tay

3) Julian Er Lai Lai

4) Jin Kor Kor

Ahh, one of the best trips in life.

Can never stop laughing with those with you!

Day 1

Had our eating trip since the day we reached.

Ate our chicken rice ball.....

then ate from front of jonkers street till back of jonkers street

Prayed at a chinese temple too!

Then went to enjoy the view somewhere at the river, (taming sari)

Played Stacko like a bunch of kiddies

getting our free water :D * i still feel paiseh *

Dinner was at portugese settlement!!

where you have absolutely mouth watering seafood!!

We ate crab, fish, cockles, lala and sotong! ( i want to go back now!! )

Check in to apartment,

Watched fireworks from 12th floor :) (awesomely huge & high ones)

Played mahjong

Stacko

Uno

Watched TV

until we could not stand the hunger...

went for KFC at like..? 3am

And we slept

Day 2

Piggies that slept around 4++ didn't respond to alarms in the morning

11am everyone was still sweeping the floor with hands and legs.

Out of apartment at about 1~2pm for our safari and water world!

Had lovely tuna breakfast & chocolate milk by EVE for the boys =)

Safari world, watch wild wild west

see chickens...

see animals (like zoo)

touchie the elephantie so cute :D

Couldn't stand the bore; after lunch went to water world!! :D

Had so much fun there!

Chee min is so in love with water.

I swear 4 pairs of eyes could see that !

Haha!!

7pm we departed home to shower

had our Satay Celup in town

& bought some DVDs

Snacks

Reached apartment about 11~12ish

watched Insidious

*no balls julie slept!*

played n watch till 2.30am where non of us could survive the heavy eyelids

We slept!

Day 3

MORNING RUSH!

we all woke at 11.30am when we need to check out at 12!! haha

imagine the rush!

It was fun though

After checking out

we went back to town; shopping!

and we at at Seoul Garden for 3 hours!! *best food ever*

Walked around the mall

Look for Najede at another mall

ate again

Go to the cocunut milk shake place

Continue to drink!

Running here and there already took us whole day!

Departed home at around 6pm

3days 2 nights was not really enough for us! Felt like staying another day! =)

Although at night we were kinda BORED hehe!!

Totally Loveeee going to trips with excited pigs!!

Till the next round i blog again.

Have time constraint! better go print out my internship stuffs nao...

Goodnight!

2011-05-14T18:00:00.002+08:00

800th Post

At 6.00pm

Today woke up at 1pm with the worst headache ever.

Recovered after some studies..

Lucky or else i would be so dead.

The worrying and excitement feeling is all jumbled

Ah..

Those long list of what to do after exam is soooo *exciting*

Darling said i shouldn't online and start chatting & doing rubbish things.

So I'd better go off now :)

Good Bye Ya'all =)

All lined up! Busy weekends it shall be.

2011-05-12T23:31:00.000+08:00

Good Video made!

:))

Plain Beautiful

For the days that we have not been seeing each other much.

I miss you so much

Didn't know how to live without you

Today as i hug you, lay on your chest

i feel security from you

as i kiss you lightly on your lips i feel you whispering I Love You beside my ears

As I hug you, all i wanted was to do that forever.

3days ago was our 7 months! Happy 7th Monthsary Mou Mou. :)

Promise me 8th monthsary will no longer be a celebration with exams okay? :)

I Love You

2011-05-12T22:22:00.000+08:00

10.22 pm

My 3rd one is finally over.

Had my hands almost broken writing 12 pages and answering 40MCQs in 3 hours.

I Hope all my sleepless nights pay off.

Being so worried about third year

you actually go to bed worrying for 1 hour before you actually starts sleeping

Your heartbeat actually jumps so bad and fast

It felt like a heart attack every moment to it

Entering the hall was the worst of all.

Cold was one thing

Fear is the biggest problem.

Just 2 more.

& what i always wish for will be at my doorstep

Marry Me, will you? :')

2011-05-11T01:06:00.001+08:00

1.06am
sleepy,tired and worried.

Wish time could move slowly.
So afraid.
So scared.
I want to hide :(

2011-05-08T12:32:00.002+08:00

12.32pm

Happy Mothers Day

to all Mothers around the world :))

Skipping lunch wif the family

Home Alone.

sigh.

Exam really sucks

2011-05-07T16:58:00.002+08:00

4.58pm

having lunchnier at wong kok.... D:

FA i'ma screw you dead :D

or else u will screw me dead :(

You

left

Choice-less

-XoXo-

: ) & >: ) (Guess who did this...)

Angry Bird Signing Off-

2011-05-07T00:20:00.002+08:00

12.20am

Tired. Exhausted.

Brains not absorbing anything anymore.

Sucks :(

I miss him so badly =[

Pillow talking is always awesome

My latest drug...~

2011-05-06T00:59:00.002+08:00

at 1.00 am

Tuning into -

Joe Kan, You're still the one i want in life....

To top up to it;

this is a very touching one ♥

2011-05-06T00:26:00.002+08:00

12.25am

Happy Birthday to Mabel Koh Chiew Ling

Stay Pretty as Always :)

*hugs*

Having bad backaches due to too much sitting downs.

Body suddenly felt out-of-shape.

Time for some long overdue exercise.

Morning Badminton? Anyone?

[Shocked by his attention]
[And someone signed me up for love]
[I didn't want it]
[And now I can't live without it]

Listened it all the way home from
Releasing tension session!! (Food Eating Marathon)

This morning it felt like exams,
because as usual dad would be giving me chicken essence
A rather chinese family tradition of giving "moral" support to their kids
and giving them an extra boost :P
Yes, I totally feel the love from daddy! ♥

Won the first war. 4 more to come.

I will conquer Year 2 WITH PRIDE ♥

2011-05-05T16:44:00.002+08:00

at 4.44pm

Finally Home Sweet Home.

MA, GoodBye you are plain horrid.

Zzzz...

Oh i really do miss the slumber with you.

Blogger: ~StrawberrieeZ~ - Publish Status

2011-05-05T00:15:00.000+08:00

waiting..

few more hours.

and i can have a rest.

2011-05-05T00:11:00.001+08:00

fml already 5th
Off to bed.

and counting down of 5 more hours. AHHH FUCK :)

2011-05-04T22:17:00.001+08:00

At 10.19pm - took my dinner until the shop closed... Feeling uber edgy and having bad sleep crave. Wishing I have computer brains now! Sigh...... Where the real countdown begins

2011-05-04T15:32:00.002+08:00

at 3.32pm

Can't stand the stomach growls

showing unhealthy-ness of a university student.

Lunch at 3.30pm with maggie goreng; less than 5 hours sleep.

I better stock up on essence of chicken and double vitamin dose before i start visiting Dr Kernel and have him nag me as ALWAYS.

Girl ah, what work you do??

what singging competition you practicing? until your throat like that?

I'll start giving name cards at durian stores....

=.= oh my gawdd

SO SARCASTIC.

2011-05-04T15:25:00.002+08:00

at 3.25pm

my heart beat is so fast. and i'm straved haven't have food intake since 6am..

Tuning to:

really nothing to lose this time..

When its lost then.. HAHAHA

what to do?

Fuck My Life. LOR.

Pointless.

Countdown : 17 hours

Can i make a change in 17 hours? - i hope i can.

2011-05-04T14:59:00.001+08:00

at 3.00pm

everything starts kicking in.

heartbeat as fast as hell.

scared

and

worried.

Feels like my first time. ARGH. why?!

Over preparation syndrome??? what the fuck?

2011-05-04T12:25:00.002+08:00

12.25pm

woke up 30min ago. time to kickstart...

stressed up

but 15 movies awaiting me...

2011-05-04T06:11:00.004+08:00

6.11 am
Drove home and watch the world lite up in the morning.
Good Morning everyone~
Love the breeze in the morning-

McD for breakfast. Tummy all full.
Should start going back to MA in 4 hours time.

Good Night World.

I can't wait...

2011-05-04T01:21:00.000+08:00

1.22pm - eating famous Amos worrying :@

2011-05-03T23:10:00.001+08:00

At 11.11pm starbuck-ing at campus with dreadful papers all over :( just finished the dark mocha ! Hope it keeps me up haihz

2011-05-03T20:05:00.001+08:00

8.07Pm - uwahhh in need of some physical touch :( who wanna give me a big big hug?

2011-05-03T19:16:00.000+08:00

7.16pm

time to lock myself somewhere i can't online

2011-05-03T15:19:00.002+08:00

3.20pm

Bad noise.omg... i need to go catch some sleep can't do nuts with such noise..

I'm going to have 6 movies to tempt myself in a weeks time.

Keep yourself busy is the easiest way to not think of something !

2011-05-03T14:12:00.001+08:00

at 2.12 pm

washing my stomach with coke.. dreading the books.

A stream of coke fall into my cup, memories of you flashed back when you act like a teh tarik maker with the pot of water.

So cute.

So charming.

So hubby-ish.

Miss You.

Wish you were by my side.

Wish i could be selfish.

I wish for you.

I want a holiday at the beach so bad..~

2011-05-03T02:43:00.002+08:00

2.43am

Not many guys can do this... he is a role model to many out there..

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
Anytime you whisper my name, you'll see
How every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

And I know an angel was sent just for me
And I know I'm meant to be where I am
And I'm gonna be
Standing right beside her tonight

And I'm gonna be by your side
I would never leave when she needs me most

What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone

Anywhere you are, I am near
Anywhere you go, I'll be there
And I'm gonna be here forever more
Every single promise I keep
Cuz what kind of guy would I be
If I was to leave when you need me most

I'm forever keeping my angel close

Dinosaur.

Just like the purple one i own :')

Put the one you love above it all,

Love can be so powerful ~

2011-05-03T02:29:00.001+08:00

2.30am

missing you so badly :(

2011-05-03T01:21:00.001+08:00

at 1.21am

My studies is a failure :(

Sigh, i miss you..

Everytime We Touch lyrics
Songwriters: Mackillop, Stuart; Reilly, Maggie; Risavy, Peter;

I still hear your voice when you sleep next to me
I still feel your touch in my dreams
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why
Without you it's hard to survive

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling
And everytime we kiss, I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last
I need you by my side

?Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go
I want you in my life

Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky
They wipe away tears that I cry
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all
You make me rise when I fall

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling
And everytime we kiss I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last
I need you by my side

'Cause everytime we touch, I feel the static
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky
Can't you hear my heart beat so?
I can't let you go
I want you in my life

'Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling
And everytime we kiss, I swear I could fly
Can't you feel my heart beat fast?
I want this to last
I need you by my side

My Love life has been a fairytale with you.. all this while :')

2011-05-03T00:57:00.002+08:00

at 12.58am

Today agreed to buy mummy an ipad2 for mommie's day. Pocket burn hole again after recovery D:

Should Engrave

Happy Mommy's Day! instead hehe

Haih kenot sleep again :(

2011-05-03T00:27:00.002+08:00

At 12.28am

He is the kind of man :')

Just like him :')

Would always wait until the gf to go into the house, lock the door, switch off the lights before leaving..

a repetitive of another 24 hours.

Painful.

2011-05-02T23:54:00.002+08:00

at 11.57

i'm crying.

just am.

all sorts of emotions ~

2011-05-02T19:49:00.002+08:00

7.51pm

Daddy started questioning :'(

Having bad headache.. will try to get some sleep..

I must be strong, right? :')

2011-05-02T18:10:00.001+08:00

6.11pm

dinner time.....

wishing u were here to accompany me to eat like how you always do; everyday.

2011-05-02T17:31:00.002+08:00

At 5.31

i deactivated my facebook account because i couldn't bare looking at our smiling faces...

:'(

i miss you dearly.

It has only been 23 hours

2011-05-02T16:06:00.001+08:00

at 4.06pm..

I am missing you

Reminiscing on old photos

missing your

D: emoticons

2011-05-01T21:20:00.002+08:00

Most painful decision to make ever ~

Tonight will be the night i miss you so badly..

I know it is for the best~

& when it is the best for you... and maybe me, i am willing to give up everything

:')

but that is the most painful thing to do~

The last of us for the sem i guess?

Cruel, yet the endurance to take..

promise

will

stronger

I Love You & Still Do.

"i want you but i can't have you" ~

2011-04-27T04:06:00.004+08:00

Post Number 765

Guess these days i will post more often since i will be using facebook much less.

I need to control facebook usage!! finals is approaching :(

I cannot stand the sight of seeing the time table it is just stressful

and depressing

and horrifying

and pain in the butt!

Ahh, its 4am now my sweetheart is sleeping soundly!

& i've just done packing notes for the both of us :)

Being such a paranoia in the middle of the night is not helping me to sleep.

Btw, i've finally finished reading the book i read since end of last year!! "summer holiday"

But it didn't have a good ending! Soooo annoying!!

I meant it didn't even actually have an ending. Wtf. =.= so "tergantung" okay?

Today went to visit my darling's friend who got admitted to the hospital coz of dengue~ Really scary :(

But luckily he was much better when we arrived to visit him :)

So today wasn't so "productive" in terms of study I haven't even been able to finish tax.

I should HardCore by tomorrow! I MUST score!

My First Class !!

Kissesssss ****

HA! this is my 6 months prezzie to him

I think he kidnapped it back home already!

Such a greedy boy :D

He he is all d three balls cute?

3 Balls + one angry birdie !!

One for Money

One for Safety

One for Studies! ^^

Love it!

Wah wah! So "man" right?

Okay More to come tomorrow :)

Love~

2011-04-22T22:31:00.002+08:00

Ahh! Its coming to the most stressful time of the year.

Finals

Fml

I honestly don't know what i've studied throughout and now i have to cramp 2 sem x 5 subjects worth of numbers and wordings into my brains within 2 weeks

It is just so great :)

I should have just screwed that part and go back to happy things right?

Ahh~ I still haven't really got over this! :)

Things definitely happened too fast :))

16th April!!! just one week hehe!

So super proud ! *shouts*

And we had our first Mac D on it today! making 22nd a memorable day too huh? :)

Hehe, through all the bad waits

and all the run arounds

through all the painful endurance of arguments

all the pain bad traffic

all the rushing arounds

It feels so worth it now right darling?

Love you & So super proud of you <3

Can't wait to see you again after a few hours of sleep coz i missed you really badly~

2011-04-06T00:29:00.002+08:00

Hello fellow bloggers,

I have been ordered to sleep early by Mou Mou

but i couldn't fall asleep yet, guessed it was due to the afternoon nap.

Hah, now my free time and yet i am reluctant to continue my assignment.

Sigh.

Thats me i guess..?

Lazy! :D

I am currently recovering from my sickness

Doc said i was having bronchitis -_-

Guess the lack of vitamins is the biggest issue of my poor health this year!

Have been continuously sick since CNY! ohmygawd.

and it could probably because i tak jaga my mulut especially on my cravings D:

Ahh, but it definitely feels good to be recovering ~

Medicine makes me dream a lot in class, yes I stress that.. A LOT. I hardly have 10minutes of focusing time!

In four days time it will be my 6th monthsary with Joe Kan :))

Didn't expect time so fly so fast! In fact i didn't even really count the days-

i thought we were only approaching 5 months!! D:

a week ago when darling told me we are going 6 months soon i actually thought he was joking! LOL and of course he got sorttaaaaaaaa angry that i didn't keep track of how long we've been together haha!

Sweetheart, just want to let you know! Happy Days don't have to be counted. :P

when i am lost track with my days means i am too busy and happy with you till i don't remember ! Hehe muaxks

In this 6 months we've celebrated so many many things together baby

I will tell you all more about the two of my most memorable ones okay?

One is on Valentine's Day

I remember how i couldn't stop crying on this day.

Cried since 12am to the next day 12am

both of us did..

It was our worst argue since we've met.

Haha, and i think that title will remain for a long time.

"the worst argue in our lifetime" :P

That reminds me, we still haven't framed our puzzle sweetie! :)

sorry for being random. Okay lets continue :)

So yeah, of course i'm not going to tell you guys what we argued about but it was so huge that i gave him back my ring =S

Yeah, i was kinda "chung tung" that time...

Because of that everything carried on unhappily for the entire Day & Night :(

He was so upset that night...~

1st time see him cry until eyes red red and swollen ><

But it really hurts my heart.. when i returned him the ring ><

Sob Sob!

In the end, we settled everything and decided to have a re-run on our Valentine's Day :)

which falls on the 15th February 2011

So early in the morning when i was still on bed, darling came over with this really huge PINK bear for me! (now my teddy mou sleeping beside me!! )

:)) That was a happy and excitingggggg start of the day!

So we went to Mid Valley wanting to catch a movie~~

& darling bought me a purple rose!! So sweet :) HUGss :)

Okay, as it was MIDVALLEY we are talking about. There were only front seats left D:

So we grabbed our mcD icecream cones and went to the arcade instead :P

We played this game (i don't know what its called)

but according to baby its for couples! haha!! it was so fun shooting spiders right baby?

& darling bullied me in ice hockey *cry*

We went to pets wonderland to look at puppies (choosing our future pet)

and there he met one of his ex "customers" and we were like. Lets run! :P

Later on we decided to have lunch at sushi tei but it was full and had to wait quite awhile -_- i got annoyed and say hey, lets switch to another mall instead?

So we went to Tropicana :D

Had our very very nice Sushi Tei Meal <3

and we went home in the afternoon

hug each other tight to bed for 4 hours!!

I forgot what we had for dinner D: (darling pls refresh my brains)

& after that we played puzzle for another 4 hours :D

Hehe now the puzzle is finish and on the top of my cupboard, veryyyy beautiful and meaningful puzzle!

Does it look like us in the picture? :)

My purple rose! So big huh?? :))

So that was our sweet & bitter V'Day memory~

Another memorable day would be my birthday :D

I shall talk about that another day!

Time for me to go to bed, or else my mou mou will become an angry bird tomorrow hehe!

Goodnight!

2011-03-27T00:50:00.003+08:00

For some reason i feel like blogging today :)

Baby,

You know i am so proud of you ?

First of all, i am proud to say that you are my beloved boyfriend~

I watched you grow in 8 months sweetheart

Do you still remember at Taylor's Carpark about 10pm?

Our private little conversation?

That time,

really i thought of hitting you really hard on the head and ask you WTF are u thinking?

but when you explained~

All I wanted to do was give you some love..~

& in the mean time i was like, Eve ohmygawd what have you gotten yourself into? a guy like that? Really.. are you ready to handle him?

Then i went home thought about it.. and i realized if God decided to let me meet you, and let you tell that to me, it meant that He knew I could fix this and make you a better person.

Indeed, I took you up from where you are...

(somehow your cute lovely (handsome) face is part of the add on gifts :P)

From then, I gave you love took care of you... :)

and

DID

not

regret

all

because today, you are a Man standing infront of me instead of a Boy.

You are my man

My Man with big dreams

My Man who works his way out of his problems instead of going for a short cut

My Man that admits his mistake

My Man that loves me more than ever

My Man that is willing to take up challenges

My Man that will never give up

My Man that won't back down easily

and

My Man that i can depend on.

Darling,

Did you know why i was slacking so bad lately?

I just want you to realize yourself and go back on the right track.

Guess only this way will make you realize the importance of studying :)

Glad that you realized when it is not too late huh? :)

Dear,

You really have grown

alot since we've been together :)

I am honestly proud of you.

Very Very Proud

Sweetheart,

You are the kind of person i want

because i could mould you to become a real man :)

That is what gf's are for right?

I admire you because you listen to my advices

You love me

You care about me

and you change from okay~okay~ to the best!

Love it when you always come home by 12 :)

Awww!! *sayang*

Baby you are my perfect boyfriend :)

Never thought my handsome boyfriend could be this goooooooooooooood! have always envied the way you treated others when we were still friends, never thought i would be enjoying this treatment right now :D

Baby! i am so lucky to have you!!

I Love You

XoXo-

The growing process

2011-03-26T16:15:00.002+08:00

Hey fello bloggerss!! I'm blogging through my IPod for the first time haha!! It's actually pretty fun!! Aww, do you know I'm very very proud of my darling?? I've watched him grow up since the first time he had his heart to heart talk with me..... I know I'm definitely super proud of him! I will continue to blog more tonight see you!!

2011-03-04T23:24:00.002+08:00

Hello world!

10th march is coming soon

which means my 4th monthsary is arriving (shit d prezzie ain't done)

and my tax assignment needs to be handed in

Juls need to renew his P license (thanks to his bimbo-ness we will fetch him :P)

Holidays is arriving

my birthday is approaching?!

oh my god.

i am no longer a TEEN?!

enjoy the only week left to be called a teenager.

HAhhhh...

PC expo today was just so boring, booth damnnn small.

Should have said no in the first place ~.~

Will blog more when i have d blogging spirit! Off to bed now ~

2011-02-19T23:47:00.002+08:00

Baby, i take back what i said on our private blog okay?

I Love You

Always do.

The ring will always be on my fingers alright?

Sweetheart, I've read back all d texts you've sent me, they are just so sweet

Like sugar.

Just like you..

糖果，

因为你，我学习普通话，你知道吗？
你是我一生中最爱的人..
我会爱你一辈子

你教我什么是爱清
我一直希望这份爱清
然后你给我你的一切
你不希望从我这里得到的回报。。。

因为这个原因，我会永远爱你。。。

简业融，我爱你。。。

从，
蜜糖

Tang guo, you are worth the world to me :)

My rare gem,

Diamond.

2011-02-17T01:05:00.002+08:00

Today,

I'm gonna sleep with my ring out.

it doesn't feel comfortable.

I just feel confused.

2011-02-09T03:06:00.004+08:00

Hello WORLD! :D

Yes i am too free so i decided to blog,

Currently waiting for my sweetheart to finish his assignment and i cannot wait till tomorrow after 2pm! ;)

Baby promised to bring me eat "seeeee hummmm"

Wheeeeeeeeee~~

so happy~

Dear ah, i very tam sum geh...

Can we go to the beach again??? D:

hehe i loved it so much when i lay on your lap overlooking the sea...

It just feels so....

UHH~ i don't know, it just felt so good...

Its like suddenly we have no more worries, its just the both of us there....

I've finally got rid of my P license :D

Now i can start breaking rules without worries getting my license "gantung"

Oh its been two years of driving edy!! haha

Today got a sad news,

on of my relatives passed away :(

All my condolences to the family :(

Goodnite~~

2011-02-02T15:22:00.002+08:00

Hello Peep!

Nope, i'm not done blogging hehe :D

Aside from my love life happening at the year of tiger,

I've met a bunch of buddies in Uni that would stick around and hang out :)

Been through so much in the tiger year..

Its a sigh of relief that its ending :D

Not only that, I've also worked in quite a few places!!

Got quite a lot of experience from that,

and met very nice colleagues alongside from everything

I have to admit it is not simple to keep up on a relationship, work and also uni.

I didn't even know how i managed, guessed i slacked quite a lot too :)

Oh well, if my life slows down now... i think i would feel very empty.. since i'm always On the run ever since SPM ended.. when did i stopped?

Had been on the run for like

3 years already!

Gosh, guess i'm sorta getting old and tired of it...

Wished i could take a long break..

and just travel around my own country for good.

So darling, is our Year 3 plan still up?

take 1 mth and travel around by car?

muaxks~

2011-02-01T22:25:00.002+08:00

A blogger for almost five years,

Blogging was almost for passion :)

Rabbit Year is arriving on the 3rd Feb!

Happy Chinese New Year to all the the Chinese folks out there

while Happy Holidays to all the rest..

Its the time of the year to leave the past behind and start anew~

The year of the Tiger wasn't all good, nor all bad either :D

At least it was the year of Tiger i met my beloved sweetheart

Mou Mou....

I'll tell you,

breaking up wasn't that easy

especially when i've known the guy so deep & well for a year and a half..

The earlier two months before i accepted my sweetie

I would still cry a lot in the middle of the night..

I was still expecting something coming out from the guy I've known so well..

Something more than an apology note

More than leaving "things" over at my place when i'm not around..

I expect you to know the reason why we broke up.

Because I've repeatedly told/hinted/said.

but my expectations soon vanished and reality seeps in.

It didn't take me long to realize our dreams are too far apart to be sewn together.

Might as well let it break now than later?

After all the drama i was keen to have a single life.

But i gave in to my current sweetheart due to his big heart

He just kept giving and giving to me

without hoping for a return

(just sometimes he gets so tired, he would cry )

He even went to the extent of running 30 rounds on the field to have a date with me.

Silly boy!

In the end,

I gave in to this soft hearted hairy boy..

and i didn't regret!

So, in the end the year of tiger for me wasn't that bad huh?

At least for now i know i've found a guy with the same dreams as me~

As we work hard to build our lovely house~

May the Year of Rabbit be filled with happiness for the both of us and also our families,

I am still thinking how to live 4 days without your presence...

It is so tough sweets~

2011-01-17T23:46:00.003+08:00

Mou Mou,

I know how much you loved reading my writings.. Especially on this very personal blog space of mine :)

but I've abandoned this place for quite sometime because of the very hectic life we are going through, sometimes even sleep time is used to sacrifice for all the worthless exams and assignments.

Taking this holiday as a chance I will write as much as I can :)

Beginning from the changes I've been through from 2010-2011 !

Sweetie,

When i started being close to you in campus last year

I've always admire your sweet & charming looks; Especially your great big heart that cares for everyone like a daddy =)

Our class most responsible nanny for all the gatherings and groupings.

Baby,

I admire your ability to lead

and i envy for the type of love you give out to someone that you loved.

You're always daring enough to make me feel protected when I'm with you.

I loved how you are always independent.

Without notice I've fallen in love with you.

I noticed the changes in you instead..

But i always bear in thought that you treated me that way because we are best friends.

I kept hiding/pushing/keeping away all the feelings I had for you.

I kept all the feelings boxed up.

But during our trip to genting..

You treated me really good... we've been playing around with each other too much, like a couple..

I think i filled up the box too much...

until it accidentally burst out..

When we came down from the hill, thats when we started missing one another.

Too shy to admit it, we both continued to keep this little secret.

We didn't text for a day..

That's when, a feeling of pain, and miss towards one another..

Feeling so happy that I was going to meet you during steamboat on Monday night..

It was the day when someone wasn't late.

Hehe

Holidays started..

my work started..

Knowing that I won't be seeing you..

Departure was painful after steamboat..

The feeling of jolt, and happiness when i received your message during office hours was undiscribable..

It was so happy.

Happier than seeing my own bf's message towards me.

After a few days you said you wanted to see me for lunch..

I felt that you're really hitting hard to the wall..

I tried to avoid..

but it was really not possible..

Because my feeling towards you was already overspilling the boxed up box.

You know the day you cried at Sunway, it really hurt my heart.

You told me you are willing to let go if i asked you to.

Hurts so bad to see you that painful..

and when i love you i couldn't hug you and return any love towards you.

Everytime you hold my hands ever since we got down the hill, i'll either give you a stoned hand or swing yr hands away.

Really didn't know how you stand all those torture baby.

Thats also what i admired about you..

Your determination towards getting the one you love.

That is 2010.

Our History.

Our Love.

Us.

The Kiss

The Hug

The Everything.

2011 (already 18 days now..)

We did our first exam for the year. Hope it went well :)

Handed in our first assignment of the year too!

We weren't late.(thank god)

Celebrated our 3rd Months!

10.01.2011 *a surprised love note*

You drew me a cute PINKIE hippo face :D

Gave me Love Medication Notes *overjoyed*

Bring me to the Zoo to see BIG PHAT real Hippo's!!! :D

MUSCULAR BULLS... *runs*

Darling, in these 3 months you've shown me what real love should be.

Talking things out

Solving things together

Caring about me

Occasionally giving me little surprises that makes my heart jump and twitch

Reading Mars&Venus together :D *understanding each other more*

Studying together

Sleep together

Love together

Eat together..

Laugh together

and do every other little & big things together.

Dear,

I really really love you.

I'm really happy that you are willing to have a savings account with me

it shows how committed you are

it shows how responsible you are

If i were to wish another thing from God; it would be having you to be my Husband for the rest of my life..

No matter what happens.

Hubby,

No one else will be like you..

willing to spend half and hour just to come down and pick me to work and go back all the way to where you came from...

fetch me from work.. pay parking..

and fetch me back home..

then go back to where you came from..

Baby,

the sacrifices you made.. is always clear in my heart

Sometimes when i get angry is just coz i wanna "deh" you..

Sorry! :P

its lovely to see your gan cheong face you know?

*hughug*

I Love You Hubby Mou!

*5 dogs like planned okay?*

- Pug

- Doberman

- Labrador Retriever

- German Shephard

- Rottweiler

2011-01-05T00:08:00.002+08:00

For a reason i felt like blogging today, although i am quite caught up with work!

Poor fellow mates are busy preparing for their ACG exam while i'm still kind of shaking my legs :)

Since my exam comes SLIGHTLY later

Not that i am PREPARED for it *dead*

Anyways,

Happy New Year Peeps!!

I know its damn late.

But this year doesn't really seem NEW.. as my sem started months back

UGH!!

busy running errands for Mid-Sem

SO NOT FUN.

i can hear water tapping noises because while blogging i'm waiting for my half boiled eggs to be cooked!!

Its been quite awhile since i ate them.

Have been skipping alot of Breakfast lately due to a wrong sleeping pattern!!

New Year, New Start!!

I'd better get all my organizers working!

I NEED to achieve my first class :)

AHh.. i think the egg is almost done!!

I'll eat while waiting for my Mou Mou to shower :)

Shall be blogging again soon!

See Ya~

2010-12-10T21:20:00.003+08:00

Time to update you bloggie :)

Today marks 10.12.10

Our 2nd Monthsary!!

We celebrated it with a simple trip to the FRIM :)

Giving around 10x of heart attack to him because i almost slipped off the rocks D:

And after shower we had a long long sleep to recharge our battery

And after that we hugged one another to watch Despicable Me! :)

Soooo fun~

Love our anniversay celebration so much honey. ♥

Despite us getting lost along the way :P

Thanks for two months of amazing adventures you've given me.

Love you!

When we counted back; since you fall in love with me till todate

it has been 7 months right?

Thats so long already!!

HeHe..

Am glad that everything worked out in the end with you instead.

2010-11-30T01:35:00.002+08:00

Blog post Number Seven-Hundred & Fifty...

Wow!

I can't believe it i have been posting for such a long time already :)

Would have been more if i haven't deleted the old one...

I still remembered i started blogging since Form 1 or so..

The times when i used to have the world's WORST english!!

Yes, no joke.

World's Worst.

Blog was a place i could free myself then..

so Praise the creation of world wide web!

2-3 years back my parents used to be so over-protective that going out was d biggest crime!

So, basically stuck at home most of the time.. (hah! and not like they bring me out? plus i am not allowed to go out?! How unfair, right?)

and that is when i only get to release myself through my blog and playing online MMORPG :P

Surprisingly,

playing maple since it first started...

I have never met;

Joe Kan Yip Yun!!

My beloved Mou Mou...

With the advancement of technology..

I've met really really good friends like

wei han, cing, daryl, yihao...

which i do still keep in touch until now :P

From virtual friend that turned out to be actual close friends!

Amazing huh?

My blogging spirit never seemed to die off.. somehow?

Many people say blogging is some sort of attention seeking?

I believe they are wrong.. because its more of like

writing out your feelings :)

and its an online diary! Keep track of things! Pretty useful actually!

Especially for grandmother brains like mine =(

I think those people whom stalk other people's blog and TALKS

Not enough but ASK around are the worst..

Because they are so "ke-po-chi" (may i add the word fucking?)

Lifeless.

If your life isn't as interesting as other peoples you can just stfu :)

Your cooperation is MUCH and WAY appreciated.

Kissing pictures/photos are something sweet and lovely

Not "disturbing"

and you obviously don't have to go around asking my parents about it right?

So who the fuck you think you are anyway?

My MUM? or my DAD?

Please know your place !!

Even my parents didn't say anything !

What details do you want to know? huh?

Why can't you directly ask from me?

Or are u too SCARED?

Yes, i changed my boyfriend from the previous one.

Grand news?

Broke up for two months and got a new boyfriend. Yes I did.

So? is that a BIGGER news for you?

Why i broke up?

because i don't think he is the right one?

Now, with my new boyfriend; his name is Joe Kan for 2 months already.

Does that make it the biggest news?
So,

What else do you want to know?

When i first kissed him?

When i first met him?

How many family member he has?

To what level of education he is at?

How tall is he? Is he taller than me?

His skin colour.

His brow thickness?

His waist size?

His shirt size?

His favourite colour

Favourite food?

SO DO YOU NEED TO KNOW ALL THAT?! is he YOUR boyfriend or MINE?

Or you even want to ask if we've had sex or not? HAR?

what does people's OWN personal life has got to do with you?

Why you so fucking "pat"??

Want to talk also you TALK ABOUT yourself first lah PLEASE.

Look into the mirror!!!

Pot calling kettle BLACK. Thats YOU.

What does my mum & dad gotta do with MY relationship?

As long as i am proud enough to bring him home to meet my parents.

Sit with them to eat family dinner

Bring him to my sister's house for talks

Him to have a curfew agreement with daddy

So what the fuck you want some more?

Why are you so "concerned" about MY well-being?

Or are you just KEPOH?

To fucking ke-poh people i welcome you to leave my blog~

You bring shame to yourself :)

I would just roll my eyes when i see you.

Shameful.

And you can call yourself as a friend of mine.

HaHaHa. sorry, i don't think i know you anymore.. :)

Time for sweet and lovely stories...

Cousin sisters wedding just passed by on Sat&Sun

Lovely Wedding !!

Congratulations to Harry & Olivia !!

Such sporting couple! :)

Pictures could be found on Facebookieee !!

Well practically i'm just too lazy to go grab it :P

Last week Moo Moo & Me went to Fraser's Hill with the other couple (aka JY & KY)

And today we were talking about it!

All 3 of us couple...

Actually started sparks during group studies...

Moo Moo & mine was due to all the

Pinching & Pokings...

And all the girls in my class started following me to pinch Moo Moo!!

hahaha!! Pity my poor darling! :P

He only lets me pinch him and never gets angry!

Wonder why!!

But actually caught him being jealous quite a number of times (ops!)

So to people who likessss asking my parents sooooo damnnnn much about our kissing photo~ here is another EYEsore for you which i PURPOSELY picked so you all would be more CURIOUS :)

& i hope you ask more....

and be less shameful of yourself :)

Stupid people that loves asking.

Never knew what is called posing

are pure retards.

& only people like YOU all would ask.

Soooooo funnnnyyyyyyyyy.

Mouth-to-Mouth Posing ain't kissing.

Tongue-to-Tongue... (with exchange of saliva is)

I wonder what have you been doing all this years that you lived? asleep? or never tried before?

HaHaHa. Laugh until my jaw can fall off :)

Same with picture above.

Lying on him posing + taking pictures (a practice for our future wedding)

and it is obvious we are not having SEX!

So don't be fucking retards ask and ask my parents.

My parents are on FACEBOOK

and are on my FRIENDS LIST

and apparently they will look at all my pictures

AND comments

They are AWARE of my NEW boyfriend

I have nothing to hide from them UNLIKE YOURS!

Even my sisters are my FRIENDS on facebook too.

Changing boyfriend is nothing SURPRISING until you have to go around asking my parents as if the sky fell down!

Stop being jealous that i can balance my life/work/relationship and studies so well.

Just fuck off.

or rather

Shut the fuck up.

Modern culture is no longer the same.

Accept that as a fact.

And shut up.

Thanks!

2010-11-27T01:10:00.002+08:00

Complains from my Mou Mou...~~

With the lack of blog posts.... Opsie

Its not that i don't want to blog baby~

I was just quite caught up with work these few days hehe~

Today as i cleaned my books...

I've came across many many memories..

To completely forget a person you've known for 1 year and a half is not as easy afterall eyh?

Read 5 pages of notes which i intended to give him when he came back from bangkok last time...

Brought back a thousand memories...

Back then mou mou too was in the picture..

(the guy that bang his head on a glass door - rather?)

Hehe..

Guess what i found?

The first picture i took with JoeKan...

On February.... The time when 'he' wasn't around...

May 6th :)

Mabel's Birthday.... "getting-closer"

I think it was also the month that 'he' weren't around..

Our class lunchh :)

Guess we were already close with each other that time huh?

Mou Mou,

You are always there with me to fill my loneliness...

Always there to take care of me...

I still remembered how you offered me your sweater...

to sleep on...

to wear....

offered to hold my books for me..

take my stuffs for me...

I guess during February something already sparked between us.

It was when we got closer to each other..

I'm attracted to your charming smile

while you're attracted to my beauty :) *so as you said*

Things sparked even more during May

When you were heart broken..

and needed someone to talk to..

I was there filling up the spaces she left.

& you started feeling pain/jealousy...

June...

Feelings got stronger....

July

Trip...

Arguments with me and "him"

but you were there to fill up my empty spaces instead....

Things have gotten haywired...

I realized i was staring at you while you were sleeping beside me.

& you did the same to me...

Ending of Jul

You - took action

Me - in denial....... and still giving chances to "him"

Aug

Pain, Cries, commotion...

issues......

in the end it was you..

why?

Your sincerity have touched my heart... deeply

it was the first time i saw you crying...

in public..

at the restaurant.

Second time... pyramid top level...

you cried so hard, made me cry too..

The bookmark you drew me..

was just so sweet...

The stars you made for me..

till your fingers bruised..

have cuts all over your hand...

was super touching baby..

hehe..

Going Distance..

Our very first movie :)

Thanks for everything you've done for me MouMou..

will appreciate it till my very last breathe...

Our take-two's

All these picture poses was before we were a couple..

and now Re-Take... :)

as an official one...

Love you MouMou.... Hugs*

2010-11-16T01:23:00.002+08:00

Drove back home from Subang to Home alone today...

Thought a lot, a lot.

5 Months from 14th November

I was planning and thinking of so many things...

Even saved up for the Evo 7/8 asking around to see which one is better, looking at the design.. & surveying around all shops..

Planning on going all the way to your house with a big present box to suprise you~

Searching around for special restaurants...

Thinking of getting a huge card and put our pictures in....

Getting you a golden key, as tradition.... (heart and key lock)

Was so excited and couldn't wait to see your expression till the day arrived.

Last i would have expected; on the actual day itself... I'm rather avoiding a conversation with you..

The feeling is just no longer there.. I've completely let go of you..

Because at that point of seeing you i was no longer that happy girl anymore; it was just like meeting an ordinary friend.. Instead when I saw Joe walking in; it was so natural that i run over and hug him...

Being with Joe in this month is part of the happiest time in my life..

He gave me surprises over and over again...

We've done crazy things;

Run like crazy;

Kiss like crazy;

Love like crazy;

Sport like crazy;

& study like crazy...

I guess best friends that turns out as lover are always different huh?

Because apparently we have nothing to hide from each other...

We know each other so well.

From woke up face all the way to pretty face and all the way to sweaty face...

even a Face full of pimples... :)

Yet still loving one another more each and everyday.

I realize i could sleep early now when i'm with Joe.

Because i don't have to spend my night worrying about his safety...

Most of the nights, we'll webcam with each other no matter how many hours we see each other daily. He won't complain about the broadband either~

Coming down as early as 6am just to spend time with me during our monthsary was just so sweet....

Joe, (mou mou) the photoframe was just so sweet... though to the eyes of other people its just something cheap..

But to me, its something money can't buy

Because it frames up the effort and hard work you put in...

The love, The thought, The sweetness, & The time...

and our memories.... " reading under the sun with redbull " =]

The Hippo Mou.

Really surprised me.

Was overly happy when i saw it =]

It is so adorable...

You've really took my heart away~

Knowing what i adore most~~

Can sleep so well with Hipp0 and every night i would think of you when i switch on my night lamp.

Mou Mou,

You kept telling me you're not good enough (as a bf)

But i think you're just perfect.

Although today we've had "some" issues. hehe (our silly-ness)

Thinking too much for each other ;)

But right till the end we always talk over things~

I never felt bored being with you.

Even when we're both in silence mode..

I still feel very happy; because i feel happy just to have you by my side.

24hours 7 days a week 365days a year

is not even enough for us both ~

Let me just tell you what i loved most about you...

You always think before promising me something ;)

Like our future house draft and also the whole "marrying-me" plan~

I Loved the way you care about me...

Buying & Making me breakfast..

carrying my books & bag

buying me night light in case i fall down

that worry face when you see i have blue blacks over my hand..

Always afraid that i'm cold

Ensure i'm always warm...

Being over protective when i'm wearing skirt :P

I Love you just the way you are~

You're the most beautiful guy I've ever seen;

Your beautiful heart...

I'm glad that I unlocked it~

Joe,

I Love You.

Never regret my choice.

Never hope to regret it. :)

2010-11-08T21:56:00.003+08:00

Hello World!

Pc expo was d bomb~! I had to work like 9 hours (++)

Non-stop T_T

Anyways i'm here to blog about last thursday!!

My Mou Mou & I decided to go to Sepang Gold Coast (sudden plan)

after 10 min of deciding & not knowing the way we dared ourselves to go there!

We were lost for many many times because my GPS phone is out of battery!!

HAHA so we used another phone to search...

With a LOUSY gps -_- bringing us ROUND n ROUND dunno where....

So in the end, i told my mou mou to follow his feeling!!!

To our suprise.....

Feelings does work

We reached there around 5pm~~~

The beach was just plain...

AWESOME.......

But i think half the time was because mou mou is with me...

See this is what happens when we are un prepared~~~ :P

Hairy Mou + jeanssss... & his very smexyy baleno shirt *loves*

Upon reaching there i saw alot of patterns on the ground...

Don't know what it is...

i asked my darling joe...

"eh dear.. what are those on the floor?"

He laughed at me.... and say..

There remember i told you about catching small crabs back at kampung?

Those holes are made by crabbies!! :P

D: CRAB?

izit?

I've never seeen it beforeeeeeeeeeeee *shrieks*

Come i catch for you....~ *with his manly voice*

(feels so "lum")

At first i was so scared that he might hurt d tiny crabbies!! (they look really fragile D:)

But he told me they are crab for a reason (LOL)

My first time catching crabbiesssss~~~ *fun fun fun*

When he was concentrating catching crabbies for me....

I ran to him and hug him reallll hard!! hahaha

In the mean time to chase away his long awaited crabs~~~ *hehehe evil laughs*

Hehe~~ Moo Moo never bring his slipper!! if not can have a pink & green flippers :P

SO wasteddd....~~

I saw this sand castle somewhere around the beach... and i told mou mou..!!

Wah look thts so cute...

and he told me.. You wanna make?

I said Dun wan lahhh :P

He went to one place and started digging up sand!!! LOL

in the end it looked more like pyramid as compared to a castle :P

Haha so we changed the design to... and IGLOOOO :P

and moo moo said it looked more like turtle :D

So in the end we formed a turtleeee....~~

Built with SWEAT & hard workk :P

Mou Mou's sweat was dropping on d sand tortoiseeeeee hahahaha~~ damn cute lor... it felt like raining!!

We named it WU GUAI :D

Waited for sunset with my hungry mou~

(finished one pack of super ring, two packets of milo, and one packet of satay sotong <<>

Satisfied with the view!

We left the sweet sweet memories there and left for FOOD!! *subang*

Pictures are always to explain a thousand words.

Baby I Love you!! :)

And today we played MONOPOLY!!!

hahaha so damn fun lor :P

Played ber hours hours summore!! Like BIG KIDS :)

The best part was fighting for properties!!!

And being sent to jail HAHAHA

Bullying Moo Moo is always realllyy funn !!

Especially snatching all his houses...!! hehehehe..

Lets do it again sometime! :)

Puzzles next?

Ps : Can't wait till next wednesday~~ Our very first month together.............!!

2010-11-04T01:01:00.002+08:00

Hello blog!

I'm blogging at 1am now~

Mou Mou is so going to kill me tomorrow..

his favourite quote...

"I EMO! you don't listen to me *gives his duck mouth* and say I'M ANGRY"

Haha~

Loveee his expression.. so cute~

Had a wonderful morning with my mou mou (basically sleepingg till 10++)

Slumber-ing is so fun! Something we don't get to enjoy very often! Only once a week!! can you imagine how sad is that ~.~

It won't be too long that even that once a week would probably be taken off. Assignments are piling like mountains.

The best thing this morning was mou mou's very very very funny "laughters"

when i helped him massage his back :P

He just so suddenly caught his giggles when i softly wrote "I Love You" on his back~

After that, he just wouldn't stop laughing !!

& i couldn't resist but join him laughing!!! We did it for like what? 10-20minutes?? haha

Class commenced from 2-4 today~ super boringgggggggg-

Went to Baskin Robbins wif the bunch and had my favourite Cookies & Cream! 4 scoops summore!!

and played badminton ^^

It is so fun going to exercise with my Darling because we can play and kiss! haha *muaxkss*

& i would never get comments like "oh you suck at this game!"

instead he always lets me bully him !

How fun ~~!!

Mou Mou! I loveeeee you! Lets badminton again!

Today not so shiok -_- the mosquitos kept chasinggggggg me.... boo~

After badminton we basically gained back all the calories!

Went to nearby mamak drink Pepsi, 100plus, Milo ais and also eat french fries!! D:

Gone-

Mou Mou,

I didn't feel the slightest regret for picking you.

Because you've shown me what a real relationship should be.

You love me and care for me, and you prove it to me with your actions~

I was really glad i made this choice..

I know if i didn't i would really regret.

You understand me so well...

Even better than myself :)

Because we are so similar....

That day, when i showed you toys i played with ages back~

You told me you have that very same thing... =)

And we were both shrieking like small kids all over again~

You're the only one that wiped my sweat for me before... (besides grams!) *a guy rather :P*

and after exercising we'd hug each other with a super wet t-shirt!

The definition of love - excepting every gross moments of one another.

& we did it more than once :P

Ps : I love you Kan Mou Mou (hehe) nites!

2010-11-03T00:22:00.000+08:00

Had a lovely day with mou mou! :)

& I've finally created our private blog ~~

Tee Hee

What is private shall remain Priiiivaateee ~

Loves-

XoXo

2010-11-01T22:10:00.003+08:00

I'll tell you what haunt me most.

The past.

My past.

My history.

I've been hurt by the very same thing for so many time;

It feels like i've gotten the resistance.

I hate staying home.

I like keeping my life busy.

I don't want to see anyone of them that hurts me everytime.

I avoid.

I run.

As much as i could.

I'm just so tired from all of this.

I wish i could just get away as fast as possible...

4years back, i almost did the extreme.

I was seconds away.

But something lit me.

I've gone through for so many years, was it worth it to stop now?

They say i won't manage to make it this far.

Yet i made it.

Standing right here on my own.

I made it with my own effort.

I struggled with everything.

I did it.

I cried almost everynight, in loneliness.

Because no one would understand.

The words heard was ever so painful

coming from a person who is supposedly to love you?

I've always have it missing from my life.

To learn that love could also meant the deepest cut through your heart.

I was only 11 when you did those hurtful things to me.

I still remembered how i carved on the wall stating hate words.

Those words lasted.

& It will last a lifetime.

Things didn't settle when i was 15

It never did.

My soul have left me the day I stepped out of the house.

It never returned.

I was ever hoping for today during the younger days.

I thought things would be better.

I thought i'd get more love if i perform the best.

I guess I was quite wrong huh?

The reason why i have so many friends was because, i couldn't find any love here

So it diverted to friends instead.

People don't see it in me because i kept it well.

So well...

So damn well, that sometimes i wish it could be kept away from myself.

Most of the time I wished i could just sleep for the longest time and never wake up again.

Leaving everything behind me. Because at that point nothing matters anymore...

2010-11-01T00:28:00.002+08:00

Its been awhile since i blogged.

Had a hectic week from work but nonetheless very fun and challenging :)

Still in process of meeting all kinds of weird customers (they never fail to be in any of our jokes)

Throughout this busy weekend...

Mou mou still spent his precious time with me...

which i feel very grateful~~

Especially his willing-ness to wait for me for an hour yesterday and today 30minutes till i reach the station...

You have no idea how happy i am to see your car there~~~

And how extremely happy i was when i saw you standing outside your car today...

It just made all the runnings worthwhile~

Baby,

you were never a horrible boyfriend ^^

Love you so much!

No horrible bf's would be willing to accompany gf home :)

Even when she's driving a car okay? ^^

& always escorttttt and make sure she's safe n sound n Inside the house hehe~

Ps : i will blog more tomorrow :) better be sleeping or you'd kill me tomorrow! Nite Nite

PPs: Honey, should we put our private blog called MNB-tales? :) or should we call it

Twenty-Seventh HEHEHEHEHEHE!!!! *rolls on floor laughing*

2010-10-28T23:20:00.003+08:00

Eve's Thoughts

Eat. Pray. Love

A movie we watched today. Awesomely meaningful.

& our first "couple seat"

(include stealing other people's couple seats)

HaHaHa~

One of my fav quote in this movie is :

"To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life"

I guess, we've learnt quite something out of this movie... right mou?

I'll appreciate you more tooo *love*

An hour & half waiting for show screening time with you was a breeze...

I thought it was only 20 minutes!

We could sit in each others arm for ages and not feel bored!

Its no wonder why we're always late for lectures and tutorials! (ops secret leaked)

This is my cutest mou! *aint he cute?* I'll punch you if you say he's not ! :D coz he is so darn cute in my eyes *lummm*

Wondering how we passed our hour and a half with a breeze?

Busy talking to each other.. still asking

"why do you love me?" Questions OVER & OVERRR again.

(yes, we still haven't got over with the... omg never thought you'd actually be THEONE)

Biting one another! *whee*

Okay that was quite wrong... it was more like biting him! *uhhh* *super lum face*

Honey,

I found my answer...

Kissing you for 3 weeks was way more compared to a year and a half....

It was because you were never ashamed of me...

We kiss everywhere!

You didn't push me away whenever i kiss you in public/private

and i too didn't push you away when you do the same~

Plus we're both loving it more and more!

See, even now i miss your cushion lips.

Conclusion: Never say you're not meant for each other until you've been with that person! *shocking*

In Spanish : Attraversiamo (it means Let's Cross Over)

Baby, i will cross over with you. Always.

2010-10-25T20:27:00.002+08:00

Hello World!

Haven't been blogging for awhile because I've been busy due to studies and work!

I hope i can coupe with all the stress :P

Had a bad headache just now...

Felt so sweet when mou mou decided to accompany me...

He watched me fall asleep... ~~ and left silently...

Leaving a type written love note on my laptop ~~ Uhh so "lum" edy~

Mou Mou,

I don't think i can ever find anyone who loves me more than you...

Really.

The love you give me is just different..

You're really willing to give up the entire world for me..

You won't fail to say the three words to me everyday...

And you are willing to wake up early in the morning just to see me..

To give me hugs and kisses..

You've seen my worst look (during exam and when i jst woke up)

Yet you still tell me that I'm beautiful..

Haha~

Honey,

Today when i wore heels i didn't mind being taller than you, because I've fallen deeply in love with you..

Height doesn't matter anymore...

Because the day i accepted you as my bf...

I've already put the matter aside...

Loving someone would be equivalent to accepting all the flaws of that person too...

(not that i'm saying that's a flaw)

Its just something so minor, which i don't care ! :P

Plus, i'm actually quite proud ;)

So really, you don't have to worry about the height anymore.. i don't mind and don't care what the H*** or F*** ppl say :)

As long as i'm happy being with you..

Just You alone~

2010-10-22T22:41:00.001+08:00

Eve's Thoughts

Is missing my mou mou right now....

Uhhh ~

Gonna miss my honey on sundayyy =[

4 hours awayyy~

Hate to admit, but one day without seeing you is soo......... tough lorr...

2010-10-19T23:24:00.002+08:00

Eve Thoughts~

These few days was big Havoc in the uni.

Why?

Thanks to our

Semi Variable timetable.

Wanted to write about my thoughts this few days...

Guess i'm a little PMS-ing or i'm just feeling... Ugh, i don't know.. weird..?

Been thinking alot.. Alot

Financial terms

Family

Relationship

Basically everything.

Don't get why is life so unfair.

Mazda cars with blardy P stickers on it.

I told myself i won't want to be like my sisters.

I want my Wedding Big and paying with my own money.

I want to have my own big car & bungalow house before their age.

I don't want to suffer like how they have when they graduated!

Thats why i worked so hard.

I've seen what they have gone through, and i don't want that to happen to me.

Life to me was never fair.

Doing well yet letting people say its pure luck and not so grand. With no reward was normal.

Getting things myself was also normal.

Learning how to be independent

daring

and street smart.

Was all developed due to the environment.

I wanted to be more girly too.

Who don't want to buy clothes, do manicure all day long, massage and also facial?

Dye hair, treatment, Rebonding?

Which girl in the world don't want to be girlie?

I wished i could, & if i could i would have been way prettier.

Life was never fair. Never was and never will be.

Sometimes i think, if i shouldn't have gotten into a relationship so early. Because i felt like venturing and dig my own pile of gold.

But mean time i'm so afraid what i do will harm the people i love.

Life in high school & primary school was never easy

There i learnt about the society, about the danger of the world outside

In College i learnt about financial constraints.. how to overcome it.

In Uni i solved it all.

& i don't want it all come falling back on me.

I don't want to have to go through all those shit again.

I Just don't have the energy anymore

My dream since i was young, was just to make life more fair for people out there.

I have a big dream, not only for myself but for the people i think i could help.

In my vision.. i saw them all coming true.

I saw it all.

No matter how hard the road is going to be, God as long as i know you're always guiding me; i believe i can make it thru....

2010-10-12T20:46:00.002+08:00

Eve's Thoughts~

Finally back from a hectic 6 hour class day!

Mou mou,

it was sooo worth it to wake up an hour earlier to prepare you a lunch set today, especially when i see your happy happy face while eating!! *satisfied*

No doubt, all those while when i was cooking... i was literally smiling too.. =D it is totally like love struck! hehe

Was so touched to read my blog early in the morning with such a long and touching post from you! Honestly, i wasn't really angry yesterday.. just felt a lil more of disappointment & a lil hurt over certain words you said =[ I almost cried okay?! so teasing me this morning wasn't so funny!! *emo*

But today, i won't want to see another post from you at

3am in the morning because i want my Mou Mou to be on his bed sleeeping soundly :)

I love you~

Ps : what do u want inside d lunch box tomorrow? hehe =)

Badminton time...~~ ouhh, i havent been stretching my legs for a long while... seems all broken

-____-

Eve then,

Loves joe really much as a friend... because i think he cares a lot about me although like say he always tease, poke, & pinch me...

Always knew he was the kind of guy whom protects himself a lot... as he kept all his thoughts away from people. Last that i expected was to be able to read him inside out..

I somehow knew he was hiding many things or rather keeping everything just to himself...

As we got closer and closer i began questioning him.. and he opened himself more to me...

I guess thats when our love grew but we never know about it..

Because then i was with another guy whom i thought was the best.

You started telling me about most of your failed relationships.. somehow i felt that you were a very nice guy and all this shouldn't be happening to you.. deep down i was thinking... who don't want such a nice guy is damnnn stupid :)

Genting....

was where everything begun.

You asked me to sit with you during the trip because JY is going to drive up

without any hesitation i agreed~

afterall what are best friends for?

I slept on your arms all the way to genting =)

Somehow it gives me a kind of protective feeling...

I quickly brushed it off... because back then i knew the feeling shouldn't exist.

Feelings got deeper when we played and have so much fun together...

at the arcade especially...

I never had the fun with my ex before, because back then when we got up to genting he told me arcade games don't worth anything.

But after being there with you Mou, and T3... arcade is worth alot alot more than money could buy... because it gives you the happiness, laughters and fun.... being on a trip..

The second day was the day i spent most of alone time with you...

Sitting on really slow games despite all the waiting time, i guess we just talked it all off..

It felt really happy & stress free being in a queue with you because you don't complain but you actually enjoy having me as your company~~

Didn't know why on ever ride i wished you were beside me~ and when we were sitting on solero shot, I told jiejoe i wanna sit with Joe, your expression (running towards me) was priceless~

What pushed me towards loving you more was when i called someone a few times... he didn't bother replying me... not until at the night time.

That time, i believed you know I wasn't very happy... i could see it clearly from your expression..

Everytime when he is not there for me, you just fill in my time...

I guess, all our classmates saw the love bloom from us... except ourselves huh?

After genting trip ended... i began missing you.. right after departure, when i reached home...

I tried not to think about it because.. again i know the feeling shouldn't be there. Not long later i fall sick... and i had to work at Dataran Prima. Knowing that I'm sick you come to see me everyday for lunch and bring me leong cha + tau fu far... most of the time you were asking if i'm feeling okay... I felt so much love from you as compared to the other one labelled my "bf" at that point.. Not only did he not care, yet asking me out every night although i'm sneezing and coughing so badly.. and when he so-called come over to my place to spend time with me.. he was busy sitting infront of the television while i was happily coughing and sneezing my way in the room.

Mou mou, you showed me how much you truly care about me... I tried my best not to compare... yet in the end.. he is just un-comparable to you because you are way different, in a better way... After your existence, he's trying to do things that you are doing... it felt so insincere because i know it didn't come deep down his heart... it only came out because he felt his position being threatened.

From time to time... i told myself i shouldn't fall for you.. because it is morally not correct but my feelings are so hard to control. When you asked me to tell you to "give up"... i tried... but i couldn't...

I was thinking how will uni days go without you by my side?

who am i going to talk to when i'm sad? or when i want someone....?

& it was painful... to let you go... especially when i saw you crying like that...

he lost because he is over confident.. and because he don't really care about me.

You are different because you never gave up... even when u wanted to it was because of me. You were the one who really cared, the one that put in hard work, hard effort and determination...

At that point... I gave everything up for God to decide...

I pushed you both away...

But i realize i missed you most...

and your message was the first one i reply~

You would make me smile and laugh... although its just an sms~

I actually still gave him many chances.. after that, but he didn't call/text me.. its like he is pushing his mistake towards me..

So i basically gave up as it all didn't matter anymore.

Taking me for granted would in the end be losing me...

& after that, i believed i got closer to you..

been seeing you most of the time during our holidays

working together

taking public transport together...~

& being in love together..

Attended the motivation talk with you.. & yr dad & yr bro (shocked)

I felt that i really need to decide for myself...

Might be correct or might be wrong..

But whatever it is i believe my feelings are right..~

No doubt, my dog pushed me further to give u a yes as an answer on 10.10.10

because... dogs can see clearly how a human behaves...

if his/her heart is very kind.. dogs won't be afraid of them...

I saw that in you... mou mou...

I was shocked why my dog wasn't afraid of you...

instead it goes running to you! :P

You're just different..~

I didn't regret falling in love with my best friend! and who cares what people thinks?

As long as i am happy now!

Mou Mou,

I Love You. Alot.

10.10.10.10.10.10

(a day to be remembered!)

Happy 2-day-sary Mou! muaxks~~!

2010-10-12T01:00:00.007+08:00

♥ JOE's Heart ♥

Love is unpredictable

I never knew i would fall in love with this lady

and she's my beloved Bi Bi - Eve

God gave us chances to meet together

Once, pmr seminar.. twice, inti college.. Now..

Honestly, you catch my attention when i first saw you in our class

it wasn't love i can say, but the feeling was.. indescribable..

Somehow, I felt that you're someone important in my life

We started as good friend

you were always sitting on my left

play poke pinch tease laugh joke shout scream

my time was filled with your accompany

As we getting closer and closer

you told me about your past and some stories

and I started to read your blog

I see the inner part of you

You helped me through the hardest moment

I doubted it, but it works.. it really happened..

you cured my sadness and sorrow which burdens me

I were so touched

I thought you would be my best friend for the rest of my life

which i never had one

But the feelings grew so fast

I would felt a pinch in my heart when you were with the another guy

I wondered why.. I've found the reason

The reason is..

I've fall for you

I'm confused, and I'm worried

I worried my existence would ruin your relationship

It would be selfish and I would lose you as best friend

I just.. don't wish to lose you..

I admit for being jealous on how u treated him

you gave the care to him which I've been always looking for

the kisses in pictures

the hugs in front of my eyes

the care you told me

the love you showed him

thanks to Uncle Lim

Genting was where the love sparks

it was the most wonderful moment i had

I've fell for you deeply

a few days after the trip is where the emotion takes part

we cried.. we suffered through pain

yet, we still holding on.. reluctant to let go of our feelings

Eve, what pushes me further is when you refuse to let go of me..

From that point of time, i know that..

you love me.

Deep in my heart.. it says..

Joe, believe yourself.. If you really love her,

prove yourself.. prove that you love her more than anyone..

you've regretted once..

do you wanna do the same mistake again? regretted and doomed for another 3 years?

now you've given a second chance..

take it.. or leave it and you'll suffered for it

I listened to my heart..

I fought for my love

my sincerity, my determination, my tears, my time

worth nothing more than you

you're already my everything

If its not you.. I wouldn't have gone so far

Eve, I love you..

thanks you everything ♥

Eve.. I think you are right, why would I still think of yesterday when i know tomorrow will be a better day. I'm really happy when you allowed me to access to your blog. Since the blog has been the place where you write your feelings, I think you want me to write out my feelings too :D

10/10/10 was the date I've chosen a few weeks back when you first reject my request. Yea, you made the right choice, and i were not ready yet.. its some kind of Desperate force and Dumb force that pushed me D:

Hmm.. our first kiss was.. by force? you told me that D: Well, 2 person won't be kissing unless both are into it..haha Bi bi is a good kisser thou, and kissing is kinda addictive! LOL *blush*

Our first kitchen moment~ my favorite spaghetti! :D Bi Bi and I went to the nearest hypermarket, bought spaghetti, mushroom soup and KEROPOK!!~ It was the most delicious ever spaghetti i tasted before! because its the first time Bi Bi and I cook together ♥ FYI: we ate half packet of the spaghetti.. scary eh? D:

Our first ring~ the First ring were bought on the first date. We actually picked the same design, such a coincident!! Hmm.. the rings are quite playful, both of our rings went missing a few times and one time it really makes me damn worried until Bi Bi got to calm me down while driving back home to look for it. Thanks god, I found d ring in d end.. playful rings just like Bi Bi and ME! >.<

Our first couple phone~ We were actually looking for some cheaper phone as it works as our secondary phone. Well, we bought a "okay" price range Sony Ericson's mobile phone. I took Blue and Bi Bi took the pink one. The phones are so cute when we place them together! Just like when we're together :P

Our first movie~ I still feel guilty for bringing Bi Bi to watch this movie. Its a 18PL romance and comedy show.. Basically 18PL includes sexual explicit content.. erhem I laughed all the way since the beginning until d end of the movie.. or even after the movie, we still laughing at each other ><>

My first pressie to Bi Bi~ It is a bookmark with cartoon drawn on it. The cartoon tells the stories about us during the day and night ^^ I made a bookmark for Bi Bi because I knew she loves reading and when she does it, the bookmark will always with her just like I'll always be with her =]

Bi Bi first pressie to me~ Birthday present! Bi Bi got me a small tissue paper D: was surprised and shocked when i look at it, because I need tissue paper badly because i sweat easily..haha Actually the present was scientific calculator, with cute stickers pasted with it.. cute! I brings me luck and i passed my re-exam TQ Bibi >.<

Our first pair of glasses~ We went to time square and bought our glass at Optical88. Bi Bi pulled me to make a pair of glasses because she worried It'll be dangerous if i drive home with a low power glasses. The most interesting part about buying spectacles is Bi Bi helped me to put on contact lenses. It took her about one hour just to place 2 ultra thin plastic lens onto my eyes. We almost break the sink as we're ovrer aggressive @.@ It was my first time to wear contacts..a\haha

Baskin Robbins~ I'll stick to what I've promised! Wednesday is BR day! :D

Bi Bi.. I had a lot of fun for the past few weeks and months.

You gave me what I've always wanted to.

You're like a genie who grant my wish

A clown who cheers me up

A teddy that i can hug tenderly

A pillow that i can lean against when i'm tired

A nurse who take care of me when i'm sick

A person who i can talk heart to heart

A person who i can entrust to

A person who really touched my heart

A person who can read my mind

A person who motives me when i;m down

A person who shares my happiness

A person who shares my burdens

A person who understand my needs

A person who misses me when i'm not around

A person who gives me a warmest hug and sweetest kiss

A person who doesn't shy to tell me everything

A person who shares thoughts and dreams with me

A person who believes in me and gave me time

and Lastly a person who really really loves me :)

Bi Bi, I really really love you, I've started to blog again.. its not by force but its by love. You didn't change me to blog, but love changes me.. I didn't find love, love found me.. No other word can better describe the 3 magic word which i always tell and whispering across your ears.. Bi Bi, I LOVE YOU ♥

nitezz & sweet dreams,

~Mou Mou Joe~

2010-10-11T22:24:00.002+08:00

It is so depressing to see how horribly my English have gotten lately!

I haven't been reading, practicing nor speaking it properly for months! (close to a year i suppose)

I'd better start typing & reading at a proper and correct manner! No joke, i feel my brains deteriorating on the language side!

Today, me and Mou Mou bought 3 story books to read :)

so happy that he said he's gonna read it with me!

I've always wanted someone to read books with me *happy*

a) PS : I love you.

Yes old book, always wanted to read never had d chance! today was at a cheap price and when mou mou say i'd read it with you. I'ma buying it ! *lovess*

b) Men are from Mars Women are from Venus

Another old book, read a few pages found it really interesting! Mou mou to read it with me now... even more interesting!

c) Some old old century book *forgot d title* but mou mou seems really interested in it! I'll read it jst to see what my Darling likes to read ;) easier to purchase him books next time huh?

You know, i used to be so naive thinking that relationships are measured through time~ it is the biggest mistake in my life to think that the longer the relationship the better it is.. If it is so then why can people be married or in a relationship for 5o years/ 10 years/ or even 5 years end up seperated saying that they are not meant for one another?

However, it is still true that you could test love with time... but it is just not the right way to measure love. There are many reasons of a break up but perhaps none could answer most of the breakups in the universe... but we can never escape from questions like, why was i in love with him in the first place?

After being through all this and now In it again. I can't answer any of those questions! haha~

Conclusion is, treasure whoever you are with and take good care of your loved ones~!

Ps : Mou Mou, I Love You... always~

You don't have to find love, love will find you..

2010-10-10T23:22:00.002+08:00

Mou Mou...

Remember our first kiss? :)

Our first date? :)

Our first kitchen moments? :)

Our first ring? :)

Our first couple phone? :)

Our first movie? :)

Your first present to me? :)

My first present to you? :)

Our first pair of glasses? :)

How many times we've been to Baskin Robbins? :)

You know, just now.. i was looking for your first pressie... it was hidden under the mousepad... and i was as gan cheong just like the day you lost your ring.. :)

and when i found it, I felt so happyyyyy... its like I've found you! ^_^

2010-10-10T17:47:00.003+08:00

10th October 2010 10am, 10 minutes, and 10 seconds...

You asked again,

"Eve.. can you be my girlfriend"

I smiled..., kissed you..

and asked you, did you have my answer now?

The video was really touching and sweet... Thanks for doing all this for me...

Because i never thought that anyone would do it for me especially until 4am in the morning.. all the more when you're sick...

Many people think that its your method of courtship... and whatsoever... but what i see in you was the determination. You knew that 30 rounds was almost impossible... After the 6th round I see that you still pushed yourself... and after every round you run.. you'll look at me and still give me the smiling face no matter how hard it was...

I saw your determination.. and i know not many other out there would do the same...

I know how hard you've fought over your true feelings..... before everything happened...

You've tried really really hard.

I know...

You hated yourself for making me cry, You tried forcing me to say "give up on me"

But i couldn't manage to even bring that word out from my mouth... because somehow deep down in my heart i know you are so important to me....

You might not agree with everything i do... but in the end you would try your best to compromise with every decision i make...

When you make me angry, you know the reason why I was....

What is the most important was, I saw from your eyes that... I am more important than money; or any other thing you have....

Because no matter how you couldn't afford, you wouldn't miss a chance to come down to see me..

& you would still... no matter what i tell you..

You took into heart what i told you...

The ring was what i wanted most =)

Because to me, a ring signifies a lot of things..

It signifies the bond and relationship the two person have... and by wearing it all the time makes you feel one another...

On the first date, when you bought me the ring.. I already believed that you're the one...

When you lost the ring, i could see your gan cheong face...

If losing the ring was already such an impact to you; then what about losing me huh?

*silly boy*

I love the way you hold me when i was so afraid of the cockroach... I felt protected...

Thats why i say you are very "man"

Since young, reallly really young... I've seen my parents eat beef noodles at hor cheng yuen...

and i told myself... one day when i get a bf i would want to bring him there...

and we'd go there for date's until we got married... and till we bring our children there... and maybe grandchildren..

Never had the chance in the past....

But yesterday was just like dream come true...

Thanks Mou Mou.. for everything.

I believe everything comes by faith...

who would have thought you would find my beef noodles store with me? when i haven't been there in like 10 years?

who would have thought, i'd be locked out of home yesterday?

who would have thought, we could actually be.... in-love?

If i told anyone... "hey we're in-love" like 9 months back... everyone would just laugh :)

Now, its official.. and reality.

Months back, i made a promise to somebody..

I said i wouldn't couple in another 2 years time not until i graduate

Because then, i lost trust in all d guys...

I thought every guy was like you..

Although i know you were being selfish..

I still agreed, because i was still giving you chances..

But in the end, i think Joe deserves those chances way more than you did because he is everything you're not..

Saying things like that shows how big of a sore loser you are...

And i'm proud to say that every decision I made was correct.. & i'm so proud of myself..

Joe Kan,

I Love You, so damn much.

Thanks for everything~

2010-10-07T23:28:00.002+08:00

TGIF~

Tomorrow is going to be friday! Wheeeee~~ One last class and we'll call it first week :)

Today i am finally able to drag my stubborn mou to d clinic! *prouds*

How i did it?

Threat!

Keep Car Keys!

He becomes passenger & I drive :D

Scolddddd & Nag WHOLEEE morning ;) - more like for 3 days ~.~

Its such a hard process right? *wipes sweat*

Tomorrow is going to be a damn fun day :)

1 class, after tht gonna go for my 2nd time Gui Ling Kou ~ hehe

Go to Jusco buy VITAGEN!! *drooools*

& Gingerale for the "paip nose" boy

Some yoghurt for my breakfast :)

and some packet porridge to cook :D

Kitchen time again!!

Ps : Uhh~ this better be my last day to play!!! T____T weekends gonna STUDYYYY D: EXAM EXAMMM... EVELYN EXAM. Stop being so playful!!! no shopping!!! stop spending!!!! ARGHHHH~~~~

2010-10-05T23:05:00.002+08:00

Im Blogging !! Haha miracle?

So today was d first day of UNI =D

*drum rolls*

First subject was audit & corporate governance ~.~

& first thing he told us is d passing rate....

40% -_- fml.

Loads of Loads of friends rushing to me to "shake" my hands...... (uhhh... *shy*)

Later on that day went up to Look Out point to celebrate KahYann's Birthday :)

Had a whole new experience over there. :P

It was cooling just like genting~~~

Funnnnnn~~~ ^^

Tomorrow another 4 hour class... damnn... kill me! time to go to bed, still feeling sickishhh~~ Due to d lack of sleep yesterday T_T...........

But it was a nice experience driving at 12am ;P

& i also made someone worry till cannot sleep...

awwww~~ *hug hug*

The past month was definitely new experiences to me, thanks for everything...

Lets lie down and watch the stars again? ^^

To see firefly at a place where its not suppose to be there & to see a sky full of stars when it just rained.... was already a miracle itself. Or rather us being in-love... is the actual miracle?

Who knows, and who cares?

All i know is that, I Love You..

Those 3 words is enough to explain all the unexplainable..

2010-09-29T00:48:00.002+08:00

Back To the blogging world :)

Year two Sem 1 is starting next week~~

Kinda excited.... and finally have the energy to push myself and clean my room/laptop/books/bag and every other thing!

Just deleted over 28.8gb from my baby and vacumn it :D

Lappy feels overly clean now. D:

still thinking if i wanna get a Cooler, Wireless mouse and also a keyboard protector for it D: wonder if its claimable from daddy T_T

There goes another rm 100..... =[

Had a happy day today :D

Watched "its complicated" with Mr Mou Mou

haha~~ super funny show... i think we got SHHH-ed by others for Laughing out realli loud :P

Okay its 1am now i should go take cough mixture and sleep ~~

GoodNight Ya'all... update soon ^^

Ps: sorry no pictures i just deleted everything haahah~~

2010-09-21T00:06:00.003+08:00

This marks the ending of a chapter in my life. Whilst the beginning of something else... :)

2010-09-13T22:49:00.003+08:00

Does these pictures summarizes everything?

You did prove yourself to me...

*amazed* and still think you're nuts :D

Wednesday will be the day then :)

ps: i never thought you were this serious with what i say D:

Thanks for a Happy Day, Mou Mouuuu Jouuu =P

*secrets shall remain as secrets* until unlessss........... :P u "gek" me